Julie, I'll keep you in my prayers, but I also want to share this with you: Long ago, I kept having a dream that I was outside of a church building, one of those old fashioned kind, white rectangle, bell tower and steeple topped with a cross in the front and windows down each side. I was outside of the church looking into the windows at all of my good friends inside. The dream was a window into my own feelings of being left out. I kept wanting to join the circle of friends inside, but I just couldn't. As it turned out, the Lord led me out of that church. It's kind of funny that my relationship with my friends at the church actually improved after I left. I was just in the wrong place at the wrong time I suppose.
So, be prayerfully considering what might be happening here. If you are truly feeling left out, perhaps you need to look into a different church.