[__ Prayer __] fret not because of evil doers...

[Christ_empowered]

yes, yes; me, -yet- again. ugh.

I'm labeled with "Schizophrenia," in the community. The actual label/diagnosis...??? my counselor will tell me "schizoaffective," when I think to ask him. thing is...

mental health "professionals" lie, all the time. Not radical, angry antipsychiatry or anything, just...truth. seriously.

I am -not well liked- in my area. for the longest time (no, really; I've got over 10K posts, now, a lot of them about this...I got saved under bad conditions 8 years ago, Praise God), I have tried to analyze and understand...social class issues? mental illness stigma and junk? the gay factor? and then...

Praise the Lord...He has recently brought me to the point at which I am -far- less afraid, not looking back -nearly as much- and learning to just...live, day by day. rejoice in each new day that The Lord hath made and -be glad in it- . I read some commentary, somewhere...that's actually a -command- , and every believer needs Jesus to obey it. true story.

the upstairs people are -not- the only people who have a problem with me, just where I live. a lady who lives in the building (not an immediate neighbor) was laughing at yelling out junk about me, to another lady coming out of the vehicle, as I was parking, the other day. what...fun. lol.

the upstairs dudes talk loudly (deliberately...otherwise, I wouldn't hear them, lol) about "getting him evicted," "parents need to be fired from (place of employment)" and "he's going to jail and we're gonna get him on a court order," etc. etc. etc.

a while back...I wanted to take a quick shower, right before I headed out for my 2nd covid shot. water wouldn't turn on. I had to get out, so I called the HOA. lady first said "well, no one else in the building is complaining about their water," and then I gave her my unit number...heard some dude in the background...she gets on the phone with some barely restrained hostility, "the water is off -for a purpose- ," and then...I tried to say something polite, she said it again, more forcefully "the water is off -for a purpose- ," and that was basically the end of that. thankfully, the water was back on once I came back to my unit.

I went back to my volunteer spot at a local non profit. the taunting continued, from day 1. keep in mind; im in this volunteer spot thru the efforts of program at the mental health clinic. i get openly taunted at the mental health clinic. not by my counselor, but by random other counselors. one was a former counselor, from way, way back. another one I think works in a city about an hour from here. i don't get it.

people keep saying "he has a warrant" and blah blah blah, and the landscaping crew has been ridiculously aggressive, at times...

I'm beginning to think I may have to live somewhere else, but my parents -own this place- , and its modest, but nice. I'm 36, now, and I don't want to live at home again. renting is not an option. speaking of that...

about 3 years ago, my parents were going to help secure an apartment for me. everything was fine, till some apartment manager called me, and wanted to know if i was on disability for "emotional problems," and "why are your parents paying for an apartment?" and then...no. no. no. true story.

i get taunted all over. worse in the small town that was once my hometown. my parents still live there. thankfully, I'm quite close to them. i now live in a small city, and...

same song and dance. the other day, a clerk and a customer were talking about me, while i was behind in line. the customer grabbed her goods and said "that's how we treat cry babies," and rolled out. same thing happened today, when i went to pre-pay for gas. different clerk, different customer. same junk.

mental (ill)health is, predictably, no help at all. my parents honestly do not want to hear about it...they supported me after my own sins and psychiatry destroyed me, and I'm just now truly healthy, smart, lucid, of sound mind, etc.

i dunno. obviously, this is yet another prayer request. i'm seriously beginning to suspect all matter of junk going on, but I'm far less "paranoid" and/or afraid than I was, before. poring over it, analyzing it, getting lost in it...not only -not- helpful, probably sinful. I'm doing better, now, about praying and leaning into Jesus, and...

obviously, this latest chapter in His work in my life is something of a miracle, or at least...mighty act of God. I thank Jesus, my parents, and everyone here who has offered prayers and replies and general support, over the years.

Please pray. as always...replies are -much appreciated-

 

[Edward]

i don't get it.

people keep saying "he has a warrant" and blah blah blah, and the landscaping crew has been ridiculously aggressive, at times...

You don't get it? These are spiritual attacks Brother. You are born again and Christ is inside of you, Scripture says He goes before you and also has a rearward position to have your back. So with the literal King of Kings within you and beside you, who could stand against you?!

It sounds like you're stuck in your situation. Everything is covered and you are cared for but can't really move to get out of that situation. Conclusion, The Lord must have orchestrated this situation to test you and to teach you, so He allows it...and yet, they can't really touch you.

If it were me like that, I'd prolly have some fun with it. Warrant?! Then give them a big smile and say, ...and yet here I am walking around, lol. Think about it, if they think you are schizo then how easy should it be to scare the pee out of them with a little comedy and some huge grins? Be friendly though. I wonder what that lady would have done if you said, I cancelled the warrant and set a court date Are you still coming for dinner at my place tonight? With some wide eyes and huge smile showing teeth and one step towards her...I bet she'd be peeing her pants to get out of there!

But I guess the point is, don't worry Brother. It's all talk. That's all. I sympathize that you have to put up with them but don't forget...that means they gotta put up with you too.

 

[Christ_empowered]

thanks, Edward .

seriously. looking back, I think God had His hand on me, despite...well, me. lol. I've only been hospitalized (mental junk) 2x, both private facilities, never officially committed. both really let me have it...a brain scan from my early 20s (after the 1st hospital, before the 2nd) showed severe brain damage, much of which was from (involuntary) shock treatments and some sort of operation (read: deliberately inflicted brain damage...its what psychiatry is really about, actually...), and...yeah. yeah.

not that this another antipsychiatry post, lol. truth? I do, now, more than ever, honestly think that the mental health industry (to me, that's everything ranging from self-help/pop psychology all the way up to psychiatry) is a) most definitely -not- of God; and b) more and more...and this is going to come across as "anti-scientific" or whatever, but I had to live with this junk, so here goes...evil. truly, truly evil.

thing about that is...the mental health industry is evil because the whole wide world is fallen and under the influence of the prince of the air. ok? so, most people are on the broad road (read: wicked, unrepentant), and then in -all- societies, one sees some true -evil- in the various forms of social control (psychiatry is a big one, also the legal and prison systems, that kind of thing...). ok. so, this isn't a simple "psychiatry is evil!" post, because...

now that I think about it, I -do- think the mental health industry is evil (truly, very much so, yes!), but its an evil that society (not just US society...the mental health industry is international, and some societies still have their shamans, witchdoctors, etc.) not only tolerates, but -needs- , to stabilize a society with lots and lots of people in it. -moving on-

deal is, its rough. upstairs dudes...stomp. i know, living below anyone in a condo/apt. set up...happens. not like this. i suspect they or other people have been -in- my apartment, no lie. they talk loudly enough for me to hear, daily...lately, its been about "put him in jail," etc. once...freaked me out, being honest...

some dude was talking (again, not quite yelling, but one has to really -try- for people in units next to or below them to clearly hear full conversations...) about my dad and "getting his pension" or...???

blah blah blah. thing is...thanks, as always. This time -- 8 years into being truly saved -- I can spot it as spiritual warfare, no lie, no doubts. the 1st hospital was...16 years ago, now. my parents have only -recently- come to truly forgive me and reconcile with me, and only by His grace. how evil can the mental health industry really be? well...

the 'experts' at that (keep in mind; private facility, which means less obvious abuse than state facilities, is what I'm thinking...that and it seems the state facilities don't use the good pills, lol) place did the shock, the operation, etc...

they turned my parents against me. i mean, things had been tense and such since I turned 11-13 and only got worse (trying -not- to rehash all that...forgive 70x7, new creation in Christ Jesus...), and I predictably got mixed in with the wrong crowd, etc...

but, yeah: I tested + for HIV. 20. already on my way out...with or without the HIV, I'd been prescribed way too many pills, questionable nutrition, premature aging, blood work indicating serious liver damage, and...

so, they wanted me in a homeless shelter. thankfully, my parents nixed that. so, its basically been non-stop humiliation, taunting, over-billing and probably straight up fraud when I "needed treatment," and...

my parents' careers have been targeted. by the grace of God, they not only came out keeping their jobs, they both got big promotions and raises over 10 years ago. and...

ok, so 16 years after "they broke him!" (no, really...people taunt me with that, constantly...its awesome, lol), the HIV+ test result, and all that junk...

I'm 36, now. healthy, despite 0 treatment for HIV, which...nothing against modern medicine (as in, real medicine, for real diseases), but...even the new HIV meds seem to have some serious adverse effects, over the long haul. so...Romans 8:28 - style, yet again... God has made me healthy, and I seem to have been spared lifelong HIV meds treatment. yay!

I'm also a tad bit taller. all of 5'10, so I mean...average height, hooray! but, seriously: beats being sick, 5'7, also prematurely aged, irreversible hair loss (long story, but now I have lots of hair, thank goodness) and...and...and...

blah blah blah. I ramble and rant, here, because my parents don't discuss this stuff, you know? I mean...they're -wonderful- people, but they pretty much have each other, their house dogs, and now...me. I think its been pretty much impossible for them to have quality friends, as adults...even when they were in church, etc. moving on...

so, on the one hand...I do believe that Jesus is protecting me, not so much because He -has- to or anything, but because of the nature of my situation. not that I'm "better" than people who end up facing serious violence and such, just...

-shrug- I do believe that He did not bring me this far to destroy me. I hope and pray to be able to move, one day, but...where? even if I end up having sufficient resources, I do get the sense I'm so hated, someone will find me. I think this in part because of stuff that happened when I lived in another state (briefly) and because...

well, the people who taunt and mock me often have things they say, on loop. I know, it sounds..."Schizophrenic." OK. its the same junk they did to me in both hospitals, and now, honestly...I suspect its the same "technique" used on me since middle school. other psychiatric survivors have reported similar things...

in addition to pumping people full of pills, the shock, and now and then operations...there's also the psychological techniques used to destroy people, make them/us "compliant," etc. ugh. its...evil, truly evil. anyway...

so, some things come on loop. "we will find you wherever you go!" and "you should have killed yourself and gotten it over with" and then "he'd do anything for an amphetamine" and "gold digging flamer," etc. truth? I was just some dorky, bright teenager who (apparently) had already been labeled, by school people (psychology, in particular, has taken over the public school system, btw) as having "oppositional defiant disorder," and all this other junk...

blah blah blah. thing is...there's no where to go when the mental health industry is the bane of your/my existence, lol. especially now...its a lot easier to just label people "sick" and pay for disability, even hospitalization, than it is to fix an increasingly crazy-making world, so...

all over the place, the mental health industry is becoming -more- powerful, -more- damaging, and -more- inescapable. ugh. :-(

ok. please keep my parents and me up in prayers, and...thanks.

 

[daninthelionsden]

Make sure you read up on the Americans With Disabilities Act. Anyone in any position of official power over you cannot, by law, inquire about your disability. Also read up about your state's Code of Ethics concerning mental health professionals. DO NOT move to a rental as you will have much less leverage concerning your rights.
My wife and I watched a teeny bopper romcom the other night titled Barely Lethal. The female lead character had been trained as a special ops unbeknownst to her male friend. As she sat on a couch watching him play shoot'em up video games. She said "That's not how it's done in real life. In real life you separate the target from those closest to them. This makes them paranoid and suspicious. Then they just kill themselves." Sometimes art can imitate life a little too closely.
Remember.....the idea is to get you alone and homeless. Don't help them in their diabolical endeavor. Keep what you own. Don't rent.

 

[Edward]

thing about that is...the mental health industry is evil because the whole wide world is fallen and under the influence of the prince of the air. ok? so, most people are on the broad road (read: wicked, unrepentant), and then in -all- societies, one sees some true -evil- in the various forms of social control (psychiatry is a big one, also the legal and prison systems, that kind of thing...). ok. so, this isn't a simple "psychiatry is evil!" post, because...

I think that if you think about it, it certainly extends to most of the Medical industry. Essentially we could say that, the witch doctors have taken over the world.

In the old days they called them Witch Doctors. With all their potions and voodoo and all that crap. Nowadays they call them Pharmacists and Doctors. Take a pill boy, you'll be ok. Oh, BTW, that'll be $899 dollars.

Yeah don't anyone even say it. I know, Doctors & Hospitals save lives. But that's just their cover story. Some medications do help. But the vast majority of pills and meds are a poisonous conglomeration of biological warfare designed to kill people and reduce the population of the world. All the while bleeding every dollar they can out of you until you die. So it is evil.

My God, have you ever googled the Doctor's Hippocratic Oath?! They actually rewrote it in (I think) 1963? But the original one made a big point that Doctors are not to prescribe pills unless absolutely necessary. The original is polar opposites of the new one.

 

[Christ_empowered]

yeah...by and large, the medical establishment does not help. i read that most of the gains in life expectancy come from improvements in nutrition, sanitation, vaccinations, and I think some increase from life saving operations, when needed. on the other hand...

"standard medical care" apparently results in about 100,000 deaths in the US, each year. that's non-psych drugs, just...day to day "treatment," which I think includes unnecessary deaths in hospitals (medication mix ups, infections picked up at the hospital, etc.). and...honestly...

when I was down and out, non-psych, medical doctors were just as heartless as the shrinks. so were nurses, pharmacists, etc. come to think of it...

the medical establishment, as a whole, has sort of been the bane of my existence. lol. i mean...its not -actually funny- , but...???

I dunno. I think US society is probably rougher, in many respects, than many other affluent, modern nations, but...at least here, in the general area of my hometown...

my parents have enough overall clout to keep me in a modest, safe place...out of mental hospitals, jail, off the streets...

maybe that's what some of this never ending conflict around me is about? I mean...God's work is not worldly. His ways are higher than our ways. And...

I guess His work in my parents' lives and my life is...being met with opposition?

 

[Truthfrees]

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