Hey All,
Let's consider what you wrote with your growth as a believer Igorstash.
"Lately I've been feeling horrible. The closer I get to God, the more dirty and sinful I feel. I am more aware of sin, of what is happening around me. And it frustrates me a lot." Quote from Igorstash
Did you ever consider that what you are going through is supposed to happen?
Maybe that surprises you a bit.
The more that God matters to you, the more hurting God through sin makes you feel horrible.
That is called Christian maturity.
As new believers, we don't feel that pain.
We are unaware of how much our sin hurts God.
Once we start reading Scripture, and being taught God's Word, we start understanding that we, you and I and everyone else, has an effect on God.
Now that is because God lets us.
But never the less, our actions can either please God; or they can displease Him.
"I feel completely exhausted in this war. I am tired of reading about God's promises while they are not even happening in my life. I didn't ask him for anything special. I'm just begging for some strength, a little bit of strength. Something to keep me pushing forward. I'm tired of this frustration, this sadness and this anger." Quote from Igorstash
Change your perspective.
You are not at war with God.
Pray and ask God to lead where He wants you to go.
Then, by faith, pursue the passion you have in life.
If you are wrong, your passion will die out.
If you are right, and it is God's will, nothing will stop you.
Are you sure you are not begging for strength you already have?
Could the frustration be coming from you not exercising the faith you have been given?
What's probably the most famous verse about faith in the Bible?
Probably this one:
Hebrews 11:1 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.
And rightly so.
You want to know what my favorite verse on faith is?
Judges 16:22 Howbeit the hair of his head began to grow again after he was shaven.
Most people would say, "that's stupid."
That's the opposite of faith.
Samson broke his promise (his faith) to God.
His hair was cut, and he was dragged out, put in "fetters of brass," (that doesn't sound very comfortable) and made to do the work of a horse.
Yeah, and I am saying, that is my point.
Samson was the worst kind of bad a person can be.
But his hair began to grow.
Now I am 66 years old, and I can tell you firsthand that hair does not have to grow back.
My hair did not.
Hair is real evidence.
When God makes a promise, it is for life; actually beyond our life.
Did God speak to Samson and assure him he would be OK?
No God did not.
God was silent.
But Samson's hair began to grow.
Are you understanding me about this?
God was still there, still working silently, on Samson's behalf.
Another example:
What changed David's mind from this;
Psalms 22:1 My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me? why art thou so far from helping me, and from the words of my roaring?
to this?
Psalms 23:1 The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.
Perspective.
Those verses sound like they would be from two different people.
Now I have have no idea if they really were written in this succession. (Chapters 22 and 23)
But that is how they are presented to us.
What changed David's frustration into satisfaction?
Step back from yourself and read your letter from the perspective of someone answering it.
What do you see?
How do you fix yourself?
I get the frustration.
It comes across loud and clear.
I also see the spiritual maturity.
But you never say what you are frustrated about.
You may be praying about it.
But until you act upon it, you will remain frustrated.
You have prayed, now do.
You will continue to be anxious until you act definitely on what is causing your frustration.
"Do, or do not, There is no try." Quote from the only little green thing I like - Yoda
Well actually I like two little green things.
Kermit gets an honorable mention.
Keep walking everybody.
May God bless,
Taz
