Generational curse??

[ClosertoEden7]

Its been weeks now since ive been feeling the loss of sense of purpose in my Christian walk, where can i possibly begin since there are so many marks to point out.
The confusion on what God is doing or trying to do and how his will is going to work out in my life. Im kind of starting to lose vision of that.
Since everything i try to do either never works or im just unable to complete it to the finish. I notice that pattern in my family. So i cant really tell what God wants me to do anymore, or where he wants to lead me, ive been going in this cycle for months and im just so tired of it. My patterns are the same, its like a firework, theres a spark, and a loud bang with alot of noise and then it dies, then its back into passivity, at times i slip even further into it, and then thats a time where a period or pattern of sin takes place. What is happening?
Ive noticed this pattern happening, with no explanation. Ive never seen it before. Is this some kind of curse over my life? I try to serve the Lord and most of the time unsuccessful with even that. Other brothers and sisters have no idea what im even dealing with and sometimes even ask whats wrong. Because ive been going on this up and down roller coaster in my walk with God for a period of time.
All i want to do is be 100% devoted to Jesus and fulfill my calling and not be like that wicked and lazy servant who hid his talent, going back to that parable it makes me even question am i even worthy of Jesus and his kingdom, or should i just bury my head in shame because ive failed him so many times. I feel like ive rejected Jesus' call so many times, is it even possible for me to have a normal Christian walk. I sometimes even go into Church and am tortured by thoughts and am vexed in my spirit, but i see that everybody else it is so easy for them to worship in spirit and in truth, so it makes me question, what is wrong with me? Has all this come about from my former rejection of Jesus?
I also see major passivity in action in my family. Passive mind, spirit, and will. Ive been prayed over so many times to no avail. Ive sought deliverance twice, to no avail. With the hope that i would receive deliverance, i didnt. I got half way into the process, but never got to actually start. And the time where i was suppose to go to this special program for help that i wasnt receiving here, to help me get on schedule, counseled by other believers who run the houses, and helped, to go to school there, and probably be an example to the other kids there, and to help them. Im frustrated and disappointed, because i know God has much more for me than this. Is God holding back from me?
I have little to no friends, barely any support because people are tired of hearing the same thing coming from me that im dealing with. I push other brothers and sisters away when im not as close to them as i want to be.
I feel like the Book of Lamentations, my whole lifes been a great lamentation. Will i cry till i have nothing left, nothing but this, responsibility when i dont even know where to go or how long it will take?
As what Proverbs 13:12 says - Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but when dreams come true, there is life and joy.

My hopes been deferred long, and my heart is sick. God forgive me for writing this, but this is how im feeling.

 

[Willie T]

Its been weeks now since ive been feeling the loss of sense of purpose in my Christian walk, where can i possibly begin since there are so many marks to point out.
The confusion on what God is doing or trying to do and how his will is going to work out in my life. Im kind of starting to lose vision of that.
Since everything i try to do either never works or im just unable to complete it to the finish. I notice that pattern in my family. So i cant really tell what God wants me to do anymore, or where he wants to lead me, ive been going in this cycle for months and im just so tired of it. My patterns are the same, its like a firework, theres a spark, and a loud bang with alot of noise and then it dies, then its back into passivity, at times i slip even further into it, and then thats a time where a period or pattern of sin takes place. What is happening?
Ive noticed this pattern happening, with no explanation. Ive never seen it before. Is this some kind of curse over my life? I try to serve the Lord and most of the time unsuccessful with even that. Other brothers and sisters have no idea what im even dealing with and sometimes even ask whats wrong. Because ive been going on this up and down roller coaster in my walk with God for a period of time.
All i want to do is be 100% devoted to Jesus and fulfill my calling and not be like that wicked and lazy servant who hid his talent, going back to that parable it makes me even question am i even worthy of Jesus and his kingdom, or should i just bury my head in shame because ive failed him so many times. I feel like ive rejected Jesus' call so many times, is it even possible for me to have a normal Christian walk. I sometimes even go into Church and am tortured by thoughts and am vexed in my spirit, but i see that everybody else it is so easy for them to worship in spirit and in truth, so it makes me question, what is wrong with me? Has all this come about from my former rejection of Jesus?
I also see major passivity in action in my family. Passive mind, spirit, and will. Ive been prayed over so many times to no avail. Ive sought deliverance twice, to no avail. With the hope that i would receive deliverance, i didnt. I got half way into the process, but never got to actually start. And the time where i was suppose to go to this special program for help that i wasnt receiving here, to help me get on schedule, counseled by other believers who run the houses, and helped, to go to school there, and probably be an example to the other kids there, and to help them. Im frustrated and disappointed, because i know God has much more for me than this. Is God holding back from me?
I have little to no friends, barely any support because people are tired of hearing the same thing coming from me that im dealing with. I push other brothers and sisters away when im not as close to them as i want to be.
I feel like the Book of Lamentations, my whole lifes been a great lamentation. Will i cry till i have nothing left, nothing but this, responsibility when i dont even know where to go or how long it will take?
As what Proverbs 13:12 says - Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but when dreams come true, there is life and joy.

My hopes been deferred long, and my heart is sick. God forgive me for writing this, but this is how im feeling.

Open your "quote" to full view.
Let's see if you chose your screen name for a reason...... and if you are wiser than a serpent.

What did Satan (the serpent) convince Eve of? It's OK to go look it up, but it's here, too:
Genesis 3 GOD’S WORD Translation (GW)
The First Sin and the First Promise
1 The snake was more clever than all the wild animals the Lord God had made. He asked the woman, “Did God really say, ‘You must never eat the fruit of any tree in the garden’?”
2 The woman answered the snake, “We’re allowed to eat the fruit from any tree in the garden 3 except the tree in the middle of the garden. God said, ‘You must never eat it or touch it. If you do, you will die!’”
4 “You certainly won’t die!” the snake told the woman. 5 “God knows that when you eat it your eyes will be opened. You’ll be like God, knowing good and evil.”

 

[Kathi]

I think that is a problem in the Church today.To try and blame every sin and problem on some sort of generational curse.That is not Biblical.The solution to the generational curse is salvation through Christ.A Christian is a new creation 2 Corinthians 5:17.How can a child of God still be under God's curse? Romans 8:1

 

[ClosertoEden7]

Thats why im confused..If passivity is so active in my family and its a major thing im dealing with, than am i even truly saved, do i just have a dead faith.

 

[ClosertoEden7]

Willie T.....He deceived Eve and got her to eat of the tree of knowledge of good and evil.

 

[turnorburn]

When you feel like this and "We All Have" remember this.. your in good company..

Isaiah 53:3 He is despised and rejected of men; a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief: and we hid as it were our faces from him; he was despised, and we esteemed him not.

Jesus knows exactly how you feel, when this happens to me i know his promises are true he promises to never leave us nor forsake us.. Satan makes sport of us by confusing us God didn't say anything about not touching that tree, the devil knew this so he took Eves confusion and ran with it..

You'll be just fine, at just the right moment not one minute sooner nor one minute later you'll be just fine

tob

 

[Claudya]

You don't need deliverance, you need to stop blaming someone/ something else. Your life won't change unless you change your behaviour and thinking. So stop whining and do something.

 

[Willie T]

Willie T.....He deceived Eve and got her to eat of the tree of knowledge of good and evil.

You may have to learn to read to see what is being shown to us, not just how to spot and repeat a few Christian catch-words.

Since you missed it, I'll elaborate. Satan convinced Eve that God was holding out on her... that He really might not have her best interests at heart.
And this is almost EXACTLY what you suggested God might be doing to you.

Now, who do you suppose is putting those thoughts in your mind? Who is successfully deceiving YOU, right now?

 

[Adriel]

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God is with you, at times He remains quiet to teach us the divine quality of trusting Him and knowing that His presence will never leave us. He is Emmanuel -God with us, He will never forsake us, Believe and wait on Him.

 

[follower]

Thats why im confused..If passivity is so active in my family and its a major thing im dealing with, than am i even truly saved, do i just have a dead faith.

Yhwh willing, read 1 John , 1 and 2 Peter.
Yhwh tells how to know if you are really His or not (most people are not ever).

 

[Brother Mike]

Its been weeks now since ive been feeling the loss of sense of purpose in my Christian walk, where can i possibly begin since there are so many marks to point out.
The confusion on what God is doing or trying to do and how his will is going to work out in my life. Im kind of starting to lose vision of that.
Since everything i try to do either never works or im just unable to complete it to the finish.

How long you been saved?

Things don't work for me all the time, and I have been saved for years, hear God, speak in tongues and I get just as baffled as to how something could be going well then get messed up. Recently to no fault of my own.

However, I have learned................................... Keep focused on the Word, never get down or feel sorry for yourself. If you do, then your done and off to the Land of why's and confusion.

If your doing something and it just don't work........ then ask if you at any time did something but knew better not to, or not do something fast enough.

If you knew, but ignored that anyway and things went wrong, then ask the Lord for help to be more diligent and act on things when you know you should act.
The Lord will bring something to your attention, like make sure the faucet is not dripping. If that comes up, just go check it, even if it seem trivial. Learn to be led, and act.

If things just go wrong and you can't think back to where you ignored that knowing what to do, then don't worry about it. Ask the Lord to help you fix it, and ask again if that was the direction He wanted you to take.

Remember, Paul was in the will of God. If anyone would have wondered if they were doing the will of God or not based on things Going wrong, it would be Paul.

1Th 2:18 Wherefore we would have come unto you, even I Paul, once and again; but Satan hindered us.

Doing the Will of God must be done fighting the Good fight of faith. There is a fight to stand and keep going, with great results if we don't give up.
If were doing something that is not the will of God but our own thing, though it seems good and things don't keep working then we need to keep reminding ourselves we are here for the Lord, His plan only, not ours. God is faithful to get us turned around to the right things. God's things always work if we don't faint.

If the enemy can get us caught feeling not good enough and in the land of frustration, then we are in trouble. Keep in the Word, and keep going, brushing off the darts of the evil one. We may not do all things perfect, but the Lord is still on our side regardless.

 

[petester]

I dont think a generational curse I think its satan trying to deceiving everybody at this particular time because the end is near and he's trying to gather as many souls as he can.im pretty sick and part of it is paranoid delusions but it really feels right.Maybe the Holy War is going to be between God and satan 1 on 1.He who has the most souls has the most power and will win the war.satan will get in your head and confuse you which leads to bad decision making and that could lead to sin.Sin contributes to chaos and thats satans ultimate goal. God Bless You

 

[petester]

Maybe if you distance yourself from everything for awhile for some serious introspection that might help it did for me.after I was done with my experiments as a teen and wanted to grow up intellectually, emotionally, and spiritually I found it impossible because all the people I trusted all my life except my mother were living a casually sinful life.For me it was too confusing these people I knew were inherently good were contributing to the corruption of humanity daily and it was just standard operating procedure.

 

[Malachi]

Its been weeks now since ive been feeling the loss of sense of purpose in my Christian walk, where can i possibly begin since there are so many marks to point out.

Hi CtE,
Welcome. I'll try and give you some scriptural help. We all begin at the foot of the Cross but we continue at the Throne of Grace. So you might want to go to Hebrews 12:1-13:24 KJV (both chapters) and note "...Let us run with patience the race that is set before us, LOOKING UNTO JESUS, the Author and Finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before Him endured, the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God". So maintain your focus on Christ and spend much time in His Word and in His presence.

The confusion on what God is doing or trying to do and how his will is going to work out in my life. Im kind of starting to lose vision of that.

The questions to ask yourself are "Am I a diligent student of God's Word? Do I know what spiritual gifts He has given me? Am I focused on bringing the Gospel to others?" God will show you His plan if you focus on the Kingdom of God and His righteousness (Mt 6:33).

Since everything i try to do either never works or im just unable to complete it to the finish. I notice that pattern in my family. So i cant really tell what God wants me to do anymore, or where he wants to lead me, ive been going in this cycle for months and im just so tired of it. My patterns are the same, its like a firework, theres a spark, and a loud bang with alot of noise and then it dies, then its back into passivity, at times i slip even further into it, and then thats a time where a period or pattern of sin takes place.

Enthusiasm is necessary. But perseverance and commitment are also necessary. So write down on paper what you want to accomplish for God, give yourself a reasonable time-frame, and commit at least one hour per day to that task, every day of the week (except the Lord's Day, when you should focus on worship and rest). Remeber that Satan will do his utmost to distract you and cause you to give up. Therefore remember that God is with you and will help you (Josh 1:9).

What is happening? Ive noticed this pattern happening, with no explanation. Ive never seen it before. Is this some kind of curse over my life? I try to serve the Lord and most of the time unsuccessful with even that. Other brothers and sisters have no idea what im even dealing with and sometimes even ask whats wrong. Because ive been going on this up and down roller coaster in my walk with God for a period of time.

Satan would love to have you believe that you are under some kind of "curse". But God wants you to know that each individual is held responsible for his own sins (Ezekiel 18:1-32). Here is a summary:
20The soul that sinneth, it shall die. The son shall not bear the iniquity of the father, neither shall the father bear the iniquity of the son: the righteousness of the righteous shall be upon him, and the wickedness of the wicked shall be upon him.
21But if the wicked will turn from all his sins that he hath committed, and keep all my statutes, and do that which is lawful and right, he shall surely live, he shall not die.
22All his transgressions that he hath committed, they shall not be mentioned unto him: in his righteousness that he hath done he shall live.
23Have I any pleasure at all that the wicked should die? saith the Lord GOD: and not that he should return from his ways, and live? (...continued)

 

[Malachi]

All i want to do is be 100% devoted to Jesus and fulfill my calling and not be like that wicked and lazy servant who hid his talent, going back to that parable it makes me even question am i even worthy of Jesus and his kingdom, or should i just bury my head in shame because ive failed him so many times.

None of us is worthy. Peter denied the Lord three times, and yet he was fully restored because he did repent (Jn 21:15-19).

I feel like ive rejected Jesus' call so many times, is it even possible for me to have a normal Christian walk. I sometimes even go into Church and am tortured by thoughts and am vexed in my spirit, but i see that everybody else it is so easy for them to worship in spirit and in truth, so it makes me question, what is wrong with me? Has all this come about from my former rejection of Jesus?

God does not hold any of our former sins against us when we truly repent and receive Christ as Lord and Savior (Ps 103:8-14):
8The LORD is merciful and gracious, slow to anger, and plenteous in mercy.
9He will not always chide: neither will he keep his anger for ever.
10He hath not dealt with us after our sins; nor rewarded us according to our iniquities.
11For as the heaven is high above the earth, so great is his mercy toward them that fear him.
12As far as the east is from the west, so far hath he removed our transgressions from us.
13Like as a father pitieth his children, so the LORD pitieth them that fear him.
14For he knoweth our frame; he remembereth that we are dust.

I also see major passivity in action in my family. Passive mind, spirit, and will. Ive been prayed over so many times to no avail. Ive sought deliverance twice, to no avail.

Your problem is that you have not accepted the fact that YOU HAVE ALREADY BEEN DELIVERED. Christians who have been regenerated are not is bondage to their family characteristics, their previous social or economc standing or anything else (2 Cor 5:17): Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.

With the hope that i would receive deliverance, i didnt. I got half way into the process, but never got to actually start. And the time where i was suppose to go to this special program for help that i wasnt receiving here, to help me get on schedule, counseled by other believers who run the houses, and helped, to go to school there, and probably be an example to the other kids there, and to help them. Im frustrated and disappointed, because i know God has much more for me than this. Is God holding back from me?

That's the last thing that should ever enter your mind. It would appear that no one has really discipled you and shown you your position in Christ, which is both present and for eternity (Rom 8:28-39):
28And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.
29For whom he did foreknow, he also did predestinate to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brethren.
30Moreover whom he did predestinate, them he also called: and whom he called, them he also justified: and whom he justified, them he also glorified.
31What shall we then say to these things? If God be for us, who can be against us?
32He that spared not his own Son, but delivered him up for us all, how shall he not with him also freely give us all things?
33Who shall lay any thing to the charge of God's elect? It is God that justifieth.
34Who is he that condemneth? It is Christ that died, yea rather, that is risen again, who is even at the right hand of God, who also maketh intercession for us.
35Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?
36As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter.
37Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us.
38For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,
39Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

I have little to no friends, barely any support because people are tired of hearing the same thing coming from me that im dealing with. I push other brothers and sisters away when im not as close to them as i want to be.

The wisest course of action is to simply pour everything out to God, but DO NOT SHARE YOUR WOES WITH YOUR FRIENDS. There are very few Christians who can really help you in your time of discouragement (Psalm 4:1-8). Notice that you are to "commune with your own heart" and "thou LORD only makest me dwell in safety". God alone can help you :
1Hear me when I call, O God of my righteousness: thou hast enlarged me when I was in distress; have mercy upon me, and hear my prayer.
2O ye sons of men, how long will ye turn my glory into shame? how long will ye love vanity, and seek after leasing? Selah.
3But know that the LORD hath set apart him that is godly for himself: the LORD will hear when I call unto him.
4Stand in awe, and sin not: commune with your own heart upon your bed, and be still. Selah.
5Offer the sacrifices of righteousness, and put your trust in the LORD.
6There be many that say, Who will shew us any good? LORD, lift thou up the light of thy countenance upon us.
7Thou hast put gladness in my heart, more than in the time that their corn and their wine increased.
8I will both lay me down in peace, and sleep: for thou, LORD, only makest me dwell in safety.

 

[Kathi]

"The wisest course of action is to simply pour everything out to God, but DO NOT SHARE YOUR WOES WITH YOUR FRIENDS. There are very few Christians who can really help you in your time of discouragement (Psalm 4:1-8). Notice that you are to "commune with your own heart" and "thou LORD only makest me dwell in safety". God alone can help you :"
That is very true.I have had to learn that the hard way.

 

[petester]

Yes Kathi. Exactly, I'll move to the next level and say that when it's time to die and be judged I will be judged by myself on my own actions.

 

[mswright6488]

You don't need deliverance, you need to stop blaming someone/ something else. Your life won't change unless you change your behaviour and thinking. So stop whining and do something.

golly.... kinda mean don't you think?

 

[Je'di-Benjamin]

Hey! Any and all curses on you or any of your bloodline is now broken in the name of Jesus Christ Amen.

 

[Fish Catcher Jim]

Its been weeks now since ive been feeling the loss of sense of purpose in my Christian walk, where can i possibly begin since there are so many marks to point out.
The confusion on what God is doing or trying to do and how his will is going to work out in my life. Im kind of starting to lose vision of that.
Since everything i try to do either never works or im just unable to complete it to the finish. I notice that pattern in my family. So i cant really tell what God wants me to do anymore, or where he wants to lead me, ive been going in this cycle for months and im just so tired of it. My patterns are the same, its like a firework, theres a spark, and a loud bang with alot of noise and then it dies, then its back into passivity, at times i slip even further into it, and then thats a time where a period or pattern of sin takes place. What is happening?
Ive noticed this pattern happening, with no explanation. Ive never seen it before. Is this some kind of curse over my life? I try to serve the Lord and most of the time unsuccessful with even that. Other brothers and sisters have no idea what im even dealing with and sometimes even ask whats wrong. Because ive been going on this up and down roller coaster in my walk with God for a period of time.
All i want to do is be 100% devoted to Jesus and fulfill my calling and not be like that wicked and lazy servant who hid his talent, going back to that parable it makes me even question am i even worthy of Jesus and his kingdom, or should i just bury my head in shame because ive failed him so many times. I feel like ive rejected Jesus' call so many times, is it even possible for me to have a normal Christian walk. I sometimes even go into Church and am tortured by thoughts and am vexed in my spirit, but i see that everybody else it is so easy for them to worship in spirit and in truth, so it makes me question, what is wrong with me? Has all this come about from my former rejection of Jesus?
I also see major passivity in action in my family. Passive mind, spirit, and will. Ive been prayed over so many times to no avail. Ive sought deliverance twice, to no avail. With the hope that i would receive deliverance, i didnt. I got half way into the process, but never got to actually start. And the time where i was suppose to go to this special program for help that i wasnt receiving here, to help me get on schedule, counseled by other believers who run the houses, and helped, to go to school there, and probably be an example to the other kids there, and to help them. Im frustrated and disappointed, because i know God has much more for me than this. Is God holding back from me?
I have little to no friends, barely any support because people are tired of hearing the same thing coming from me that im dealing with. I push other brothers and sisters away when im not as close to them as i want to be.
I feel like the Book of Lamentations, my whole lifes been a great lamentation. Will i cry till i have nothing left, nothing but this, responsibility when i dont even know where to go or how long it will take?
As what Proverbs 13:12 says - Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but when dreams come true, there is life and joy.

My hopes been deferred long, and my heart is sick. God forgive me for writing this, but this is how im feeling.

Hello ClosertoEden7
When things get like they are, well this is a good time to Be still and Know He is God.
Stop fretting over everything and start spending quality alone time with the Lord. Read His written word, study His written word, Pray His written word. Simply place all this other stuff at His feet and leave it there. Tell Him you are not going to deal with all that stuff until He tells you to.

This may seem too simple, BUT it is simply the way to go about things....
It is the only way you will will get to a place where you can hear Him in these thngs for your mind is too busy and too loud to hear....It's your choice....
Have a blessed day
Jim