jasoncran
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- May 17, 2009
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I was saved in 1996, before then i was confused, i want to be accepted, i had poor self esteem, and in 1993 i befriended a muslim man, he taught me to be more socialy skilled, however it was at a cost.
he taught martial arts, which i loved and was its faithful serveant, if the dojo was open i was there. he was a con man, and used me. I found my self stealing,lying, cheating, things that i would have never done before. I wanted to be accepted and to fit in, he showed me how to do that, he promised in business with him that I would make money, i of course had to give him some, but i got few returns, after a few years of this i got frustrated and began to doubt him,
One day in September in 1996, I was issued a warrant for my arrest if i didnt pay a check(a bad one). I was scared and gave my heart to Jesus, I had went to church a month earlier, and God began to ask me, when am i going to stop sinning and serve him, so after a week of this and this warrant, i got on my knees and prayed the sinners prayer.
The Lord showed me that satan uses people on their desires, we want love, so he gives us a woman that will fulfill it but if we have sex first, or(usually women do this, but men do it as well). If we are socially awkard, he will give us teachers who may teach us but lead us into sin, or drugs, gangs etc.
It amazes me that i did these things as i wasnt raised to do them, but one can only conned if one has the lust for it. I found out how much of a devil i can be.
I will get into my falling into the gay lifestyle later, as many already know that, but i wanted to start this first.
jason
he taught martial arts, which i loved and was its faithful serveant, if the dojo was open i was there. he was a con man, and used me. I found my self stealing,lying, cheating, things that i would have never done before. I wanted to be accepted and to fit in, he showed me how to do that, he promised in business with him that I would make money, i of course had to give him some, but i got few returns, after a few years of this i got frustrated and began to doubt him,
One day in September in 1996, I was issued a warrant for my arrest if i didnt pay a check(a bad one). I was scared and gave my heart to Jesus, I had went to church a month earlier, and God began to ask me, when am i going to stop sinning and serve him, so after a week of this and this warrant, i got on my knees and prayed the sinners prayer.
The Lord showed me that satan uses people on their desires, we want love, so he gives us a woman that will fulfill it but if we have sex first, or(usually women do this, but men do it as well). If we are socially awkard, he will give us teachers who may teach us but lead us into sin, or drugs, gangs etc.
It amazes me that i did these things as i wasnt raised to do them, but one can only conned if one has the lust for it. I found out how much of a devil i can be.
I will get into my falling into the gay lifestyle later, as many already know that, but i wanted to start this first.
jason
