WhoamIJesus90
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Hello, I am in very serious need of prayer and help from Jesus. When I was a child I suffered a lot from mental health problems and couldnt understand things around me and thought very bizzare mentally crippling things and I wandered through my childhood like this, and once I came to true realization that my thoughts were sick I suffered worse and worse. Back in the day my family really wasn't supportive and I believe that my mother was very very mentally sick and that I was simply the end result of her very serious mental problems. However, when I was about 11 years old an even happened that gave me realization about my life and my mind felt truly cured I seriously believe that it was a miracle because absolutely everything in my life seemed to change as if I had turned into sombody completely new, from that point foward I seemed to create a new childhood for myself, also from that point foward I found an amazing love for people and new found expression in my life. I felt completely normal ofcourse some things would come back but I was equiped mentally to combat it and remove it from my brain, however very very recently it's a if my brain has regressed back to my young childhood and things have been nothing but torture and my mind is losing the kind of natural knowing that these things were wrong and that natural thought that it isn't who I am, I was sick back then very very mentally disturbed and I don't want to go back to what happened, I'm very scared because I don't want it to change who I am. I don't want to be deluded I dom't want to say "This is who I was, so this is who I must be now" I'm losing my basic natural understanding of things, just please help me, I ask that you could seriously pray for my health and healing and I pray you could ask Jesus to help me I'm very seriously scared Lord help me.
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