Italianguy
Member
Hello everyone, my name is….italianguy. I am a 30 year old, divorced (my wife left me), father of one son. I am a successful business owner since I started the business at 23. I have been a Christian my whole life. I was raised Roman Catholic and the when my mother joined the Air force ( GBWT) we moved to the southern USA, and became protestant. I used to go to a Baptist church and now I go to a great non-denominational church. I am engaged to be married soon to the love of my life, a God given gift in which I didn’t think would happen. I couldn’t get any happier in life….until now.
About one year ago, I started feeling a little down on myself, I just figured it was nothing and avoided it. I am usually an extremely happy guy, and I still am besides this. I was approached by the pastor of the church we hold our small group in. He came to me and said he could tell something was on my mind.
I told him this; My prayer feels empty, I pray for all yet I feel nothing, I was just recently baptized again with my Fiancé (who was not baptized before) and I did not feel fulfilled, nor did the Holy Spirit take over me, I don’t feel anything or don’t get anything out of Bible Study Fellowship anymore, Although I love the guy’s there. I have been questioning lately if I believe that Christ is my savior. I do very much believe and know there is a God but I’m not sure I believe that Jesus was He.
Most of these feeling’s have come about since I have been doing an in-depth study of other faiths for College. This college is a very large Christian university, here in the south. (I’m sure you know which one I’m talking about, some of you may attend) I was even thinking of starting seminary awhile ago. Since doing this study I have met many new people from other faiths. I have joined multiple forums for Islam, Judaism. I get a lot of good compelling arguments and NOONE tries to convert me. In fact I have brought two Muslims to Christ through these sites, but now I feel as if I have done them a gre
at injustice. I have possibly ruined their family life and for what? Something I question myself?
I have been seriously considering Islam for a time now. I really really, want your help. I need to be surrounded by and supported by Christians. I am emotional while I type this and feel as if I am stuck in an all black room alone, curled up in the corner, with no door and no one to help me, not even Jesus. I have never felt so alone even with all my family and friends around. I have only told maybe two people about this and nobody else can tell, I always look happy.
Thanks and God be with you
About one year ago, I started feeling a little down on myself, I just figured it was nothing and avoided it. I am usually an extremely happy guy, and I still am besides this. I was approached by the pastor of the church we hold our small group in. He came to me and said he could tell something was on my mind.
I told him this; My prayer feels empty, I pray for all yet I feel nothing, I was just recently baptized again with my Fiancé (who was not baptized before) and I did not feel fulfilled, nor did the Holy Spirit take over me, I don’t feel anything or don’t get anything out of Bible Study Fellowship anymore, Although I love the guy’s there. I have been questioning lately if I believe that Christ is my savior. I do very much believe and know there is a God but I’m not sure I believe that Jesus was He.
Most of these feeling’s have come about since I have been doing an in-depth study of other faiths for College. This college is a very large Christian university, here in the south. (I’m sure you know which one I’m talking about, some of you may attend) I was even thinking of starting seminary awhile ago. Since doing this study I have met many new people from other faiths. I have joined multiple forums for Islam, Judaism. I get a lot of good compelling arguments and NOONE tries to convert me. In fact I have brought two Muslims to Christ through these sites, but now I feel as if I have done them a gre
at injustice. I have possibly ruined their family life and for what? Something I question myself?
I have been seriously considering Islam for a time now. I really really, want your help. I need to be surrounded by and supported by Christians. I am emotional while I type this and feel as if I am stuck in an all black room alone, curled up in the corner, with no door and no one to help me, not even Jesus. I have never felt so alone even with all my family and friends around. I have only told maybe two people about this and nobody else can tell, I always look happy.
Thanks and God be with you