Well, sincerely I treat you as a familiar friend, as from my deep heart, through pain and struggle I have passed through that experience, and with God's help although He didn't grant me anything from the world, instead challenges incurred, but He really presented healing and grace in my soul, that actually in that I am perfectly blessed, though in the midst of some irritation due to the discouragement when comes to sin grudging upon my spiritual acknowledgement.
Firstly, I am also one suffered from depression for five years until I came to Christ and after believing God does really great miracle in healing my loneliness, depressed, unsociable and eccentric mind and spirit. Well, I happened to being so great blessed with holy spirit when I entered the church and I even felt the church environment is so full of love, the love that turn me into a joyful person. And the church members that greet, and their care and sharing to have me be a part of the communion bring me great comfort in the blessed of holy spirit and I accept them as a spiritual family of my own, where there lies nothing conceal of my heart together with them.
After I believe in Christ, I also faced several trials in account of relationship. At first, I being uncomfortable disturbed by the lust when I am really sincere in showing concern other male Christians as being one of the fellows in the communion, in the name of Christ. I do being fall into temptation when I actually try to put myself thoroughly into the love and concern of their faith. Even by now, some discouraging feeling would came to my acknowledgement when I already treating the male Christians as part of the body in the love of Christ. And sometimes even with non-Christians I didn't hold any desires of relationship and the discouraging thoughts will certainly enter and took control of me while communicating with them. It really distracted and depressed me for a second every time I underwent, but later I always get encouraged when I trust, pray and surrender to God that He will built a good relationship among us in the love of Christ, and certainly like gathering wheat in the faith and love for the non-Christians.
Yeah, I got to mentioned on how God actually work on my spirit that I actually get through the loneliness and doubts dealing with relationship in the fellowship of God. I bet you will get the point when you truly undergo a kind of blessing of healing and wisdom while you get through the days of difficulties upon the matters of relationship. There are several occurrence that seems to be a major change in growing of faith. Firstly, God actually shown me a great knowledge about the blessing of man and woman from the purpose we are made. It is through a relationship that I actually follow the step what God command me to and did not fall into sin due to Christ and the great faith upon blessing. Later, I underwent the midst of struggle of being single or in the relationship serve the best in the purpose of God. In that time, I learn a lot of God's gift on these matter and keep in mind that blessing of him comes differently yet similarly blessed on the people being single submitted wholly to him and both joint together in the name of Lord. While after several test these and that, I find myself to have peace and determination to consecrate myself in the service of Lord.
Well, I just want to frankly speak that being long in testing before receiving the result from God cheer someone up rather than frustration the person. You get to know more about God's purpose on human's life, and serve to be prepared in becoming more persistent, persevere, patient, wise, thankful, peaceful, mature in faith, and acknowledge the importance of fellowship with God and how faithfully Christ worked between the couple in the relationship. And I hope you get some encouragement through my sharing in spite of the purpose of God on us might be different. Wish you receive the strength, peace and patient from God. And of course, I actually learn how importance God along with Christ serve as our most faithful friend when I have no friends to spoke with, and with lots of pouring out to Him I have a majority of problems solved and deepen faith and understanding the vastness of His love in numerous aspects of life through the common fellowship with God.
