I'm Done with Christianity.
I remain committed to Christ but not to being 'Christian' or to being part of Christianity. It's simply impossible for me to 'belong' to this out to lunch, hostile, divided and empty religion. For many years, I've tried to live as a Christian but, I've failed. I do not belong here.
I still Believe and try my best to trust in God but this last year has shaken me to my core. My faith hangs by a thread. The more i am around People, Christians in particular the farther i get away from God. I have seen more strife and heartbreaks while being a Christian then i have seen anywhere else.
Because of all this crap i am done.
John - Not a Christian.
Have you considered the possibility that the church is still coming out of a dark age, and needs all its saints who can discern that something is wrong? You seem to be one who can see that something is lacking, And something is there that does not belong.
Might I suggest a solution?
Consider; Paul tells us that the Holy Spirit is the reema, the written word of God. [Eph 6:17] "Take the sword of the spirit which is the reema of God;" "which" is an adjective modifying spirit, not sword. The reema of God therefore, is the Spirit.
Consider: The church is promised "another comforter" who will guide them into all truth.
Consider: Paul said that "For whatsoever things were written aforetime were written for our learning, that we through patience and comfort of the scriptures might have hope" [Rom 15:4]
The scriptures were a comfort to Israel, by which they would have hope. We have a new set of scriptures, "another comforter" which can guide us into all truth. BUT, Something bad happened way back there in the beginning of the church. SOMEONE took it upon themselves to change the order in which the reema of God was to be studied. Instead of beginning with the first book written [James], and moving on to Galations [2nd book], and taking them inorder, so as to learn what the Holy Spirit had to teach us "in order," He/They decided man's mind [ego] could come up with a better way to teach new converts about Christianity; and that new and better way was "begin with the life of Christ, and move on to the early churhc history, as recorded in Acts, then move on to the instructions of the epistles." Logical, makes sense, makes man look good. But it w3as designed by Satan, who convinced men that their way was better than the Holy Spirit's chronology.
The first result, was that John's gospel was brought to the fore, instead of being last in order of approach. Men began to learn of a different "logos of God"
than the Holy Spirit developed in his chronological presentation. From that, the 2nd century scholars began to develope a pre-existent Jesus who became flesh, and thus began development of the trinity doctrine. The church has been fighting and killing saints ever since, in the name of God. John said that " the time cometh, that whosoever killeth you will think that he doeth God service. 3 And these things will they do unto you, because they have not known the Father, nor me." [John 16:2-3]
Then, when men pointed out that others do not have the right to decide for all, what the scriptures teach, Mathew was brought to the front of the list to be studied first, because in it, they established Peter as alleged Pope, Apostolic succession (Requires eye-witness to Jesus' life and death to be successor to apostle) and authority of church as only one who can pass authority to men to teach.
In all the manuscript collections, the order is now Mathew, Mark, Luke, John - followed by other books. NONE of those were first in the Holy Spirit's chronology. And NONE of those should take precedent over the Holy Spirit's methodology and doctrinal development.
If you follow the books in order as produced, you will learn a far different church.
In 48 a.d. Paul published;
"I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but
Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me." [Gal 2:20]
In 55 a.d. Paul told Corinth;
Examine yourselves, whether ye be in the faith; prove your own selves. Know ye not your own selves, how that
Jesus Christ is in you..." [II Cor 13:5]
In 60 a.d. Paul said he was given a mission of fully preaching
the logos of God, which had been
hidden in mystery from the ages, and that he was to reveal it to the saints, that it is a concept in the mind of God called "
the logos of God"
which is "Christ in you."
Until the saints quit with all the "denominations" and come together in Christ; until the saints realize that the division is killing the soul of the church; until the saints realize that "Christ living in you" is the personification of the "logos of God," there will be no peace in the church.
When the trinity doctrine was approved as "orthodoxy" in 452 a.d; God pronounced his judgment upon the church by placing the world in a thousand year "Dark Age" which lasted until 1452, when the first bible was produced form the printing press for public consumption. THIS IS HISTORICAL EVIDENCE OF THE JUDGMENT OF GOD upon the divided church.
Forty years later, God took part again, in the affairs of men, when he guided Christopher Columbus to find a new world. If youa re gfamiliar with the significance of "forty days" and "forty years" in scriptur, you will see the pattern laid down by God himself, as these things took place.
When men allow Jesus into their life, so that Christ lives in them, the logos of God once more "becomes flesh" and the saints will be one in christ, as Christ is one in the Father, and the Father will "be all in all."
Consider it and don't give up on Christ, he did not give up on you.
