I'm Going to Die Alone

[Foxxy]

Hi, so I'm new here and I'm a Christian. I'm 19 years old and have been struggling with my life. I feel lonely and that I may be a loser in my life. I am socially indifferent and I have no friends, never been in any love relationship, haven't had a job, and haven't attended college yet. I'm going to explain in deeper detail okay.

I'm a loner, and I have never desired any friends, and I still don't desire friends. I don't want to have a girlfriend because I feel like intimacy is an invasion of privacy and I would feel extremely uncomfortable. I have no sexual desire at all, and am disgusted by sex. (yes I'm a virgin) I seek no marriage and do not want to raise a family. I simply want complete solitude in my life, never talking to anyone, never meeting anyone, and want to stay indoors far from society..

I don't want to get a job because that means I have to associate with people. The same way for school, I'm not going to college because that's means I have to be around people, and I hate being around people. So basically I just went on social security. I plan on just staying on social security since I have no desire to be with people, and at least I'll get money to support myself.

I stay at home nearly all the time since I don't want be around people. At home, I usually pace the floors for hours at a time talking to myself. I usually isolate myself in my own "fantasy world." A world I've created and recreated over many years. I'm not going to elaborate on this world because its also a secretive world. No one will ever find out about it. But this is what makes me happy. Whenever I feel alone, or frustrated, or just whenever I feel like it, I'll seclude myself here. Its the only place I have true friends and it helps distract me from reality. I want to be left alone, alone in my world, this is what makes me happy.

And every now and then I'll pray to God, hoping he'll cure me one day, make me normal. I guess I'm just destined to die alone. To be alone forever.

I really could just use some advice right now. Or some helping words. And please pray for me.

 

[jasonc]

its your phobia to keep or to lose, the decision is yours to make .some of that Im able to relate.

 

[Eugene]

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Dear Foxxy, that is very sad to me, and yet I know many have the same thoughts toward life. I do want to welcome you among us and hope we can be friends in any time of need you find yourself. If you don't mind I will also pray for you to be healed in Jesus' name. I have experienced incredible deliverance to me, and what He has done for me God can do for you.
May God richly bless you here in our Christian fellowship in Jesus' name.

 

[evenifigoalone]

I feel like I'm horribly unqualified to comment as I know nothing about social anxiety (though being an introvert, a shy introvert at that, I can relate somewhat), but on the disinterest in sex thing? Don't worry about that. Asexuality is a real and perfectly acceptable thing, even if they're the minority in the population thousands of others who feel the same exist.

 

[Milk-Drops]

I recommend you get yourself a psychological evaluation and talk to a therapist. If you like your solitude, that is awesome and I can understand you enjoying a more introverted existence, but being completely secluded can not be healthy for ya. Just some recommendations from the frog.

Also, don't put to much weight on the sex thing, its like video games, its fun but not as important as society makes it out to be.

 

[turnorburn]

Examine those things that you don't like and ask yourself where those feelings came from, they aren't the ten commandments but they are Gods commands..

You shall work by the sweat of your brow.
Be fruitful and multiply.

God created us to function in a certain manner, being 19 just heightens those feelings because at the age of 19 for most of us means going through a change of life..

Draw nigh to God and he will draw nigh to you... James 4:8

tob

 

[Douglas Summers]

Hi, so I'm new here and I'm a Christian. I'm 19 years old and have been struggling with my life. I feel lonely and that I may be a loser in my life. I am socially indifferent and I have no friends, never been in any love relationship, haven't had a job, and haven't attended college yet. I'm going to explain in deeper detail okay.

I'm a loner, and I have never desired any friends, and I still don't desire friends. I don't want to have a girlfriend because I feel like intimacy is an invasion of privacy and I would feel extremely uncomfortable. I have no sexual desire at all, and am disgusted by sex. (yes I'm a virgin) I seek no marriage and do not want to raise a family. I simply want complete solitude in my life, never talking to anyone, never meeting anyone, and want to stay indoors far from society..

I don't want to get a job because that means I have to associate with people. The same way for school, I'm not going to college because that's means I have to be around people, and I hate being around people. So basically I just went on social security. I plan on just staying on social security since I have no desire to be with people, and at least I'll get money to support myself.

I stay at home nearly all the time since I don't want be around people. At home, I usually pace the floors for hours at a time talking to myself. I usually isolate myself in my own "fantasy world." A world I've created and recreated over many years. I'm not going to elaborate on this world because its also a secretive world. No one will ever find out about it. But this is what makes me happy. Whenever I feel alone, or frustrated, or just whenever I feel like it, I'll seclude myself here. Its the only place I have true friends and it helps distract me from reality. I want to be left alone, alone in my world, this is what makes me happy.

And every now and then I'll pray to God, hoping he'll cure me one day, make me normal. I guess I'm just destined to die alone. To be alone forever.

I really could just use some advice right now. Or some helping words. And please pray for me.

Hi Foxxy, Did you ever stop to think you are right where God wants you? Without all of the distractions in our lives that most of us Born again believers have to overcome that sometimes hinder our service unto the Lord. You have less drawing to the world on you, to the giving of your time to obedience to Christ. The Apostle Paul was much the same as you after his calling and election. But your association with people will change when you have the joy of the Spirit of Christ endowing you with the Spirit of evangelism. Read the Scriptures in Rom. 8:28-39; Psalms 103. My prayer is that you find your calling and election of God. remember, nothing is left up to self will, but every born again Believer has been given a gift by the Holy Spirit (1 Cor. 12:31)
A born again Christian is will never die alone.....never! (Read these additional Scriptures Matt. 19: 7-12; 1 Cor. 7:5-9 about sex and marriage)

Love you in the Lord
In Christ
Douglas Summers

 

[jeff77]

Hi, so I'm new here and I'm a Christian. I'm 19 years old and have been struggling with my life. I feel lonely and that I may be a loser in my life. I am socially indifferent and I have no friends, never been in any love relationship, haven't had a job, and haven't attended college yet. I'm going to explain in deeper detail okay.

I'm a loner, and I have never desired any friends, and I still don't desire friends. I don't want to have a girlfriend because I feel like intimacy is an invasion of privacy and I would feel extremely uncomfortable. I have no sexual desire at all, and am disgusted by sex. (yes I'm a virgin) I seek no marriage and do not want to raise a family. I simply want complete solitude in my life, never talking to anyone, never meeting anyone, and want to stay indoors far from society..

I don't want to get a job because that means I have to associate with people. The same way for school, I'm not going to college because that's means I have to be around people, and I hate being around people. So basically I just went on social security. I plan on just staying on social security since I have no desire to be with people, and at least I'll get money to support myself.

I stay at home nearly all the time since I don't want be around people. At home, I usually pace the floors for hours at a time talking to myself. I usually isolate myself in my own "fantasy world." A world I've created and recreated over many years. I'm not going to elaborate on this world because its also a secretive world. No one will ever find out about it. But this is what makes me happy. Whenever I feel alone, or frustrated, or just whenever I feel like it, I'll seclude myself here. Its the only place I have true friends and it helps distract me from reality. I want to be left alone, alone in my world, this is what makes me happy.

And every now and then I'll pray to God, hoping he'll cure me one day, make me normal. I guess I'm just destined to die alone. To be alone forever.

I really could just use some advice right now. Or some helping words. And please pray for me.

I will pray for you. Do you have a church that you attend? There are people at my church who mentor and pray for people who need help.

 

[Michael74]

I feel lonely...

The fact that you are not content suggests some modification to your strategy may be in order. One place to start would be working up to an hour or so per day in prayer, to learn what the Lord's will for you is. His plan works out better than ours does.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart

and lean not on your own understanding;

in all your ways submit to him,

and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6 NIV

So basically I just went on social security...

Social Security disability suggests some healing may be in order. The Lord can heal anything that needs healing. Time in prayer, Bible study, and fasting (drink plenty of water while fasting) can help. If there is a Bible believing church nearby:

Is anyone among you sick? Let them call the elders of the church to pray over them and anoint them with oil in the name of the Lord. And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will raise them up. If they have sinned, they will be forgiven. James 5:14-15 NIV

 

[Mike]

Foxxy, I pray that you come to realize that you cannot live your life draining society by receiving social security without providing for yourself. In that regard, you'll never develop respect for yourself. We were not created to be on our own. Just like Abraham, you were blessed to be a blessing. That means you should take what God has blessed you with, and fill the cups of others.

Clearly, you have an emptiness, no matter how much you tell yourself you don't need anyone in your life. You have got to seek the Lord's desire for your life, because I'm sure He does not want you to be on your own. I say this with love. That sounds quite selfish.

 

[eddif]

Ephesians 1:17
That the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may give unto you the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of him:
18 The eyes of your understanding being enlightened; that ye may know what is the hope of his calling, and what the riches of the glory of his inheritance in the saints,

I Corinthians 10:13
There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but Godis faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.

If you get into the wilderness to pray, do not be surprised that you hear a call to leave the wilderness.

More later?

eddif

 

[Douglas Summers]

And every now and then I'll pray to God, hoping he'll cure me one day, make me normal. I guess I'm just destined to die alone. To be alone forever.

I really could just use some advice right now. Or some helping words. And please pray for me.[/QUOTE]
Foxxy,
Are you denominational? And if so what denomination are you? Have you been to a Doctor and told them the things you talked about on this site? I would do that. Some people are introverts naturally, and others, may be depression. You are going to have to do somethings to get an answer.

In Christ
Douglas Summers

 

[WalterandDebbie]

Hi, so I'm new here and I'm a Christian. I'm 19 years old and have been struggling with my life. I feel lonely and that I may be a loser in my life. I am socially indifferent and I have no friends, never been in any love relationship, haven't had a job, and haven't attended college yet. I'm going to explain in deeper detail okay.

I'm a loner, and I have never desired any friends, and I still don't desire friends. I don't want to have a girlfriend because I feel like intimacy is an invasion of privacy and I would feel extremely uncomfortable. I have no sexual desire at all, and am disgusted by sex. (yes I'm a virgin) I seek no marriage and do not want to raise a family. I simply want complete solitude in my life, never talking to anyone, never meeting anyone, and want to stay indoors far from society..

I don't want to get a job because that means I have to associate with people. The same way for school, I'm not going to college because that's means I have to be around people, and I hate being around people. So basically I just went on social security. I plan on just staying on social security since I have no desire to be with people, and at least I'll get money to support myself.

I stay at home nearly all the time since I don't want be around people. At home, I usually pace the floors for hours at a time talking to myself. I usually isolate myself in my own "fantasy world." A world I've created and recreated over many years. I'm not going to elaborate on this world because its also a secretive world. No one will ever find out about it. But this is what makes me happy. Whenever I feel alone, or frustrated, or just whenever I feel like it, I'll seclude myself here. Its the only place I have true friends and it helps distract me from reality. I want to be left alone, alone in my world, this is what makes me happy.

And every now and then I'll pray to God, hoping he'll cure me one day, make me normal. I guess I'm just destined to die alone. To be alone forever.

I really could just use some advice right now. Or some helping words. And please pray for me.

Hello and how are you this blessed day of our Lord Jesus Christ? Foxxy, While I was reading your post my mind became on why are you feeling the way that you do? about people anyway. And are you a bible reader? Just incase, I would suggest: II Timothy 2:15, Or do you read your local news paper for current events?

Please let me know if you would of need for anything?
If GOD/and his Son our Lord Jesus Christ be for us, Who can be against us?
http://biblehub.com/romans/8-31.htm Romans 8:31

Foxxy! You are never alone.

 

[evenifigoalone]

I recommend you get yourself a psychological evaluation and talk to a therapist. If you like your solitude, that is awesome and I can understand you enjoying a more introverted existence, but being completely secluded can not be healthy for ya. Just some recommendations from the frog.

Also, don't put to much weight on the sex thing, its like video games, its fun but not as important as society makes it out to be.

Gonna bump this up, and add a quote from this page:

Social phobias cause fear and anxiety of being humiliated or embarrassed in front of other people. It can be related to feelings of inferiority and low self-esteem and can drive someone to drop out of school, avoid making friends and remain unemployed.

That said, self-diagnosing isn't advised, definitely talk to a professional.

 

[Lewis]

Hi, so I'm new here and I'm a Christian. I'm 19 years old and have been struggling with my life. I feel lonely and that I may be a loser in my life. I am socially indifferent and I have no friends, never been in any love relationship, haven't had a job, and haven't attended college yet. I'm going to explain in deeper detail okay.

I'm a loner, and I have never desired any friends, and I still don't desire friends. I don't want to have a girlfriend because I feel like intimacy is an invasion of privacy and I would feel extremely uncomfortable. I have no sexual desire at all, and am disgusted by sex. (yes I'm a virgin) I seek no marriage and do not want to raise a family. I simply want complete solitude in my life, never talking to anyone, never meeting anyone, and want to stay indoors far from society..

I don't want to get a job because that means I have to associate with people. The same way for school, I'm not going to college because that's means I have to be around people, and I hate being around people. So basically I just went on social security. I plan on just staying on social security since I have no desire to be with people, and at least I'll get money to support myself.

I stay at home nearly all the time since I don't want be around people. At home, I usually pace the floors for hours at a time talking to myself. I usually isolate myself in my own "fantasy world." A world I've created and recreated over many years. I'm not going to elaborate on this world because its also a secretive world. No one will ever find out about it. But this is what makes me happy. Whenever I feel alone, or frustrated, or just whenever I feel like it, I'll seclude myself here. Its the only place I have true friends and it helps distract me from reality. I want to be left alone, alone in my world, this is what makes me happy.

And every now and then I'll pray to God, hoping he'll cure me one day, make me normal. I guess I'm just destined to die alone. To be alone forever.

I really could just use some advice right now. Or some helping words. And please pray for me.

You my dear brother needs to talk to a psychiatrist, I detect a lot of fear in you and selfishness as well as racing thoughts which along with other things leads to a lot of fantasy. And the walking back and forth is called psycho motor agitation

 

[WalterandDebbie]

Hi, so I'm new here and I'm a Christian. I'm 19 years old and have been struggling with my life. I feel lonely and that I may be a loser in my life. I am socially indifferent and I have no friends, never been in any love relationship, haven't had a job, and haven't attended college yet. I'm going to explain in deeper detail okay.

I'm a loner, and I have never desired any friends, and I still don't desire friends. I don't want to have a girlfriend because I feel like intimacy is an invasion of privacy and I would feel extremely uncomfortable. I have no sexual desire at all, and am disgusted by sex. (yes I'm a virgin) I seek no marriage and do not want to raise a family. I simply want complete solitude in my life, never talking to anyone, never meeting anyone, and want to stay indoors far from society..

I don't want to get a job because that means I have to associate with people. The same way for school, I'm not going to college because that's means I have to be around people, and I hate being around people. So basically I just went on social security. I plan on just staying on social security since I have no desire to be with people, and at least I'll get money to support myself.

I stay at home nearly all the time since I don't want be around people. At home, I usually pace the floors for hours at a time talking to myself. I usually isolate myself in my own "fantasy world." A world I've created and recreated over many years. I'm not going to elaborate on this world because its also a secretive world. No one will ever find out about it. But this is what makes me happy. Whenever I feel alone, or frustrated, or just whenever I feel like it, I'll seclude myself here. Its the only place I have true friends and it helps distract me from reality. I want to be left alone, alone in my world, this is what makes me happy.

And every now and then I'll pray to God, hoping he'll cure me one day, make me normal. I guess I'm just destined to die alone. To be alone forever.

I really could just use some advice right now. Or some helping words. And please pray for me.

It is not good, that man should not be alone: https://www.google.com/webhp?source...=It+is+not+good,+that+man+should+not+be+alone

 

[Wrg1405]

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Dear Foxxy, that is very sad to me, and yet I know many have the same thoughts toward life. I do want to welcome you among us and hope we can be friends in any time of need you find yourself. If you don't mind I will also pray for you to be healed in Jesus' name. I have experienced incredible deliverance to me, and what He has done for me God can do for you.
May God richly bless you here in our Christian fellowship in Jesus' name.

Amen

 

[Wrg1405]

If you don't mind I would like to pray.

Heavenly Father we pray for Foxxy. Thank you that Foxxy believes in Jesus and has a relationship with you. We thank you that there is hope in your name. Life is hard, we struggle. You know this and that is why you came to us. You came to restore us back to you. You came to set the prisoner free. May Foxxy know this, there is freedom in Christ and it is Christ who sets us free.

Holy Spirit every day when Foxxy wakes up, every day when Foxxy struggles remind Foxxy that you so much love Foxxy that when Jesus died he did for Foxxy.

You can heal, your are willing to heal.

May Foxxy trust this and walk in it.

I ask in Jesus name

 

[Lewis]

Hi, so I'm new here and I'm a Christian. I'm 19 years old and have been struggling with my life. I feel lonely and that I may be a loser in my life. I am socially indifferent and I have no friends, never been in any love relationship, haven't had a job, and haven't attended college yet. I'm going to explain in deeper detail okay.

I'm a loner, and I have never desired any friends, and I still don't desire friends. I don't want to have a girlfriend because I feel like intimacy is an invasion of privacy and I would feel extremely uncomfortable. I have no sexual desire at all, and am disgusted by sex. (yes I'm a virgin) I seek no marriage and do not want to raise a family. I simply want complete solitude in my life, never talking to anyone, never meeting anyone, and want to stay indoors far from society..

I don't want to get a job because that means I have to associate with people. The same way for school, I'm not going to college because that's means I have to be around people, and I hate being around people. So basically I just went on social security. I plan on just staying on social security since I have no desire to be with people, and at least I'll get money to support myself.

I stay at home nearly all the time since I don't want be around people. At home, I usually pace the floors for hours at a time talking to myself. I usually isolate myself in my own "fantasy world." A world I've created and recreated over many years. I'm not going to elaborate on this world because its also a secretive world. No one will ever find out about it. But this is what makes me happy. Whenever I feel alone, or frustrated, or just whenever I feel like it, I'll seclude myself here. Its the only place I have true friends and it helps distract me from reality. I want to be left alone, alone in my world, this is what makes me happy.

And every now and then I'll pray to God, hoping he'll cure me one day, make me normal. I guess I'm just destined to die alone. To be alone forever.

I really could just use some advice right now. Or some helping words. And please pray for me.

Social isolation
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Social_isolation

 

[Warrior4Jesus]

One thing that is for certain you are NOT going to die alone. There are hundred's of people dying every minute and the chance of actually dying by yourself is very unlikely. Also on the day you pass you will either go to Heaven or to Hell. (we hope heaven) Neither place will you be alone. One you can be happy in and one you cannot. I just wanted to clarify that. Now as far as your feeling of being alone I can in fact second that and I understand. I've had to have job's because there are those that depend on me but I'm no better than you and I've been where you are. The only thing that had made even 1 little spec of difference in my life is accepting Jesus. This may not instantly make you feel better but it is the first step and it promises a better future than you are currently headed for.
God, Foxxy is in a rough spot and he's going through thing's greater than even I am at the moment. He says he is a christian and that means he has your promises to stand on. Show him the way, show him your will and give him peace and comfort. It has been awhile since he has posted and may not even be checking these but I pray that you help him wherever he is and whatever he is doing. In Jesus name Amen.