[__ Prayer __] I'm tired

[nuhmmie]

I want to cut off all of my hair
I want to quit my job
I want to sell all of my posessions
I want to stop eating
and I want to go
anywhere
and never stop going
I'm tired of needing a paycheck that'll allow me to support myself when I'll never get paid it.
I'm tired of having crap, useless crap to just store
I'm tired of living in one room
I'm tired of having to eat, tired of being hungry
I'm tired of worrying when life will finally begin
I'm going nowhere
I have no where to go
I'm tired of having to deal with me
so, you'll have to figure out for what to pray because I can't help you there. I don't know.
I'm tired of wanting
I'm tired of needing
I'm tired of dreaming
I'm tired of hoping
I'm tired of being tired
I'm going nowhere
I have no where to go

and yeah, I know that God has it all worked out, but I'm tired of waiting

 

[Relic]

nuhummie,

I hear ya.

For me, I "feel" that far too many times for what appears to be far too long of time, also. I "feel" that way when I don't mingle enough with the right people. I "feel" that way when I isolate myself too much. I "feel" that way when I am looking at how "I want" life to be instead of looking to the needs of others. I "feel" that way when I need to get out of myself and get into someone elses needs. That's when I force myself to get out of the house. And invite myself over to someone elses needs. At least it helps me for a while. until the next need comes knocking on my "feelings".

Do you need to meet new people? OR are you just bored from the winter being too long. Cabin fever? OR just aching for a change in your life? Seems to me you just want change to come. Sometimes, most of the time, we have to force change to come by giving something up. Replace the need with giving. Give up something 'stubbornness'? Or fear? in order to get something you want... change. Can you read volunteer at the hospital or nursing home to read books to others? or something else you enjoy doing when you are giving to others? Can you tutor someone? Can you teach someone a craft? What is it you love to do? Give it, share it with someone else. And you will see that change come about. You think?

Can you volunteer, give yourself to someone elses need? A friends need something simple? A family member? Maybe you just need to feel like all your efforts have been worth it at least a little bit. They are you know! You are here for a reason. The seasons change. Sometimes we are in a season of rest. Sometimes we are in a season of being so busy we only want a chance to rest. The pangs of birth are not easy. A change will come when the bitterness of no change is ripe. You will be moved to do something about it when the time is ripe. What better way than to give to the needs of God but by giving to the needs of others. We forget our own needs when we are filling someone elses need. At least, it works that way for me.

For me, If waiting for things to happen is what I think will change my life.
Then I find myself waiting forever.

If seeking to serve someone elses need. Then I am in demand and I start to feel like I am contributing something to someone. And that always helps. I get out of myself and into some one elses need. When I find things to be grateful for I find treasures of Gods blessing staring me right in my face. When I complain about being alone too much. I look at the cause. It's always me that isolates myself. I have no one to blame but me.
I too complain of not having anywhere to go. but it's all my fault because I refuse to go out of the house, at times to go anywhere. If you want to meet people to do things with you need to go to where the people are. Do you think it's time to "go" on a hunt for a good chruch and or get involved with some group with the same intersests as you have?

So ask yourslef. What is it you are "really" wanting?


I hope I helped you.

Feel free to PM me .

Bless others and blessing come right back at cha, bu tnot always in the ways you think they should come back at cha.

 

[destiny]

Don't give up nuhmmie, Could just be a time of testing and refining that you are in. Keep your spiritual eyes alert and you'll be able to see what you need to see in your situation....Also keep God first and stay in deep communion with Him so you will be fine tuned to His leading. Theres joy in His presense.

 

[nuhmmie]

thank you both so very much. I appreciate it.

I wonder, is it that the more you are convicted, the harder demonic forces try to make you suffer, so maybe, the closer you are to overcoming?

I figure, progress wouldn't be so difficult if you weren't actually making any.

what do you guys think?

 

[Blazin Bones]

I'll be praying for you. Try to keep James 1:2 in mind.

 

[JAY]

NEVER GIVE UP

NUHMMIE, I FEEL YA! BUT I GOTTA TELL YOU THIS ,WE ALL JUST FEEL SO TIRED AND YOU ARE NOT ALONE! WE ALL HAVE THOSE TIMES WHEN WE WANNA GIVE UP. REMEMBER THAT YOU ARE NOT WALKING THIS WALK,BUT GOD IS CARRYING YOU! , YOU'LL LOOK BACK AND BE GRATEFULL,SOMEDAY!GOD STILL LOVES YOU! I'M PRAYING FOR YA! :P

 

[LottomagicZ4941A]

LOL on the being tired. I'm a recovering nightshifter. Have already prayed that God fix mysleep. One minister once said if you pay for stuff over and over it is a lack of faith. But at least one gal keep praying for a kid in the bible and got it. We are also to pray with out ceasing so that goes against the lack of faith theory.

Would never want to cut off all my hair though.