I took some time off from this forum because I was dealing with several obstacles in my life and needed time to pray and be with the Lord. The details can be taxing and complex so I won't go into the finer description here. Basically. . . a few external circumstances which were outside of my control suddenly made me be at the receiving end of injustice, pain, and suffering. I've suffered for many months as a result. There were too many sleepless nights where I tossed and turned, worried, fasted, and cried out to the Lord. I have lost a lot of weight.
In spite of my ordeals I felt closer to God and was grateful for the experience of finding joy in Christ, in spite of all that I had to endure (and still do). Perhaps God allowed such things to take place in my life so that my faith could grow. But I have been stretch, at times, beyond my ability to endure, beyond my ability to cope. Yet the power of God has sustained me through these past few months and through the grace of God I am surviving, one day at a time.
Surely, some things that ought to be resolved by now are not being resolved no matter how much effort I put into them. I have prayed unceasingly and have asked others to pray as well. But the power of darkness, trickery, evil, and wickedness seem to prevail.
I have asked Jesus to illustrate His greatness by removing these various evils that have tried to latch onto my life and to my family's life over these past several months. I have asked God to cleanse me and protect me from the principalities of evil that are conspiring against me and are preventing me from fulfilling my God-given duties. I have asked God to make a clear pathway for me so that I may accomplish the things which He specifically asked me to do.
Over and over, the Lord's answer has been the same. He asked me to do this very specific thing in my life to bring glory to Him and to bless others. But why, whenever I try to do this very thing which He has asked me to do, I get bombarded by these external challenges and circumstances which bring me tremendous grief and suffering. It is almost like the lesions of demons are trying to attack me and my family whenever I try to obey God in this way.
Lately, I have been feeling hopeless and very discouraged as things have become progressively more difficult and complex. I don't fully understand why God would allow me to suffer in this way when I believe I am walking on the path He wants me to go. For now, all I can do is wait, pray, and continue to obey.
Please pray for me and my family. Please ask for God's power to triumph over evil and deliver justice when there is no justice. Please ask for God's mercy and goodness to take effect in a seemingly hopeless and helpless situation.
Thank you.
In spite of my ordeals I felt closer to God and was grateful for the experience of finding joy in Christ, in spite of all that I had to endure (and still do). Perhaps God allowed such things to take place in my life so that my faith could grow. But I have been stretch, at times, beyond my ability to endure, beyond my ability to cope. Yet the power of God has sustained me through these past few months and through the grace of God I am surviving, one day at a time.
Surely, some things that ought to be resolved by now are not being resolved no matter how much effort I put into them. I have prayed unceasingly and have asked others to pray as well. But the power of darkness, trickery, evil, and wickedness seem to prevail.
I have asked Jesus to illustrate His greatness by removing these various evils that have tried to latch onto my life and to my family's life over these past several months. I have asked God to cleanse me and protect me from the principalities of evil that are conspiring against me and are preventing me from fulfilling my God-given duties. I have asked God to make a clear pathway for me so that I may accomplish the things which He specifically asked me to do.
Over and over, the Lord's answer has been the same. He asked me to do this very specific thing in my life to bring glory to Him and to bless others. But why, whenever I try to do this very thing which He has asked me to do, I get bombarded by these external challenges and circumstances which bring me tremendous grief and suffering. It is almost like the lesions of demons are trying to attack me and my family whenever I try to obey God in this way.
Lately, I have been feeling hopeless and very discouraged as things have become progressively more difficult and complex. I don't fully understand why God would allow me to suffer in this way when I believe I am walking on the path He wants me to go. For now, all I can do is wait, pray, and continue to obey.
Please pray for me and my family. Please ask for God's power to triumph over evil and deliver justice when there is no justice. Please ask for God's mercy and goodness to take effect in a seemingly hopeless and helpless situation.
Thank you.