I know I've already posted here a couple days ago, but I had just read 1 John 5:16 :
1 John 5:16-17 ESV
[16] If anyone sees his brother committing a sin not leading to death, he shall ask, and God will give him life—to those who commit sins that do not lead to death. There is sin that leads to death; I do not say that one should pray for that. [17] All wrongdoing is sin, but there is sin that does not lead to death.
I feel that I have sinned so deeply that it may not even be in God's will for me to receive prayer for life. I will confess to having thought it would be better for me not to live. We all know about the unforgiveable sin of blasphemy of the Holy Spirit, which I feel I have committed just by not listening to his voice so many times in this habit of lust until it became something unspeakably evil.
I don't know if there is hope for me, or if my salvation was false and I have committed a sin losing to death, as 1 John says.
1 John 5:16-17 ESV
[16] If anyone sees his brother committing a sin not leading to death, he shall ask, and God will give him life—to those who commit sins that do not lead to death. There is sin that leads to death; I do not say that one should pray for that. [17] All wrongdoing is sin, but there is sin that does not lead to death.
I feel that I have sinned so deeply that it may not even be in God's will for me to receive prayer for life. I will confess to having thought it would be better for me not to live. We all know about the unforgiveable sin of blasphemy of the Holy Spirit, which I feel I have committed just by not listening to his voice so many times in this habit of lust until it became something unspeakably evil.
I don't know if there is hope for me, or if my salvation was false and I have committed a sin losing to death, as 1 John says.