I agree, I answer yes to those questions too, but yet I fear the fact that He might have not accepted me like I accepted Him. I really wish I knew why when I know for a fact that He died on the cross to save me. "For God So Loved The World That He Gave His Only Begotten Son That Whoever Shall Believe In Him Shall Have Everlasting Life."-
John 3:16. Why do I have such a problem remembering that when I already know that verse by heart?
In my family, we never talked about love and acceptance, never cuddled or showed love and support
openly. It made me very defended, self reliant, and I kept people at a distance.
I knew Jesus loved me, but deep down I still defended myself, and kept my feelings hidden. I did not
know this, until I wanted to express things I started to care deeply about. I simply could not, I was bound.
Often it is this, in our fortress of defence, we know Jesus loves us, but we still defend, and do not let things
out. The cross everyday, every hour, says we are saved, with no doubt, it holds His signature of blood
and commitment. But letting love take root, and get through our defences is hard and takes time.
As a kid I dreamt of having a youngster who I could hug.
I have now three children who I have loved, and who know how to love like I never did. And I hug them,
and we exchange need and support. The Lord changed me, and helped me learn my heart and then express
it.
When we rebuild our defences, it becomes hard to believe Jesus loves us, because we are shutting Him out
again. What helps is learning to let love flow from us to others, because then we start to let love flow the
other way, and we see Jesus's clearer and hear his voice.
These realities never change, and how to share, but we can begin to reach out to others and let them know
our hearts. Becoming part of the body, is walking deeper in Christ, for we are one in Him, Amen.