I dunno. Often when I see prayer in video it seems fake or staged. I'm suggesting what you do off camera, beforehand for preparation.
Ok I get and you're right some people stage prayer,I myself lately after mold,the a/c messing up,heat,and "multiple" choices to make I haven't been much of praying as much for awhile,especially when in about a month I'm hoping to move and am excited about it,but also work has become pretty "dead end" now,mostly been playing yugioh and watching youtube though I do chat on other Christian sites too from time to time.
I suppose lately it's just I have so much I can do but at the same time currently so many "obstacles".
Like with the video recording the only place I can record is in my room and typically at night so as to keep from noise and interruptions.
I also have been trying to learn to cook and I even thought of making my romance series(haven't been on a date with a girl or had a girl friend at all,and thinking about it gets me to back slide so I figured putting my romantic side on paper would help me keep from fleshy thoughts) I got a lot going on so many options and ideas I feel like I'm going to explode if I don't get out on my own eventually.
I mean honestly I have had thousands of great ideas for plenty of fields,games,movies,series,books,but nothing to "work with" and no "peace of mind" to do so either.
I guess I feel I can't "do my best" living with relatives,because it always ends up being me ending up doing something for them putting everything I really wanna do "on hold" just so they can stay in the same old "circle" making the same actions and mistakes.
I pretty much have felt "shut down" for most of my life because it's like me and my family have different "values" and "perspectives" on life.
I pretty much want to be alone or find someone and leave the past "buried" where it belongs where as my family "won't let it go",it's nearly always..."well if they listened to me",or"can't you do right","you ought to listen to this preacher" all in all perpetually it's like a never ending circle of "Extreme peer pressure"(someone telling me or others over and over to do something until finally doing what they want)
Greed and Pride and Lies(people wanting mpney with get rich quick schemes,people sharing about themselves as if you just "have to" listen to them,and people "pretending to need money,bumming for money or not helping out financially,and perhaps the biggest one...
Unclean habits,I have seen everything from clipping toenails at the couch,dropping food in the floor,wiping food or feces on furniture or items,missing the toilet,cooking on greasy skillet and not cleaning it,it really irritates me and only 1 person in the house does most of these unsanitary things without even trying.
I really am worn physically and emotionally due to this and my work double shift twice a week to boot.
If there is one prayer I have requested plenty it's for God/Jesus to help me get out from here,away from " powerful evill influences" and "on to" serving him more and "find a"....
Real Life to live instead of a repetitive life with people that have their heads stuck in the past,I have already had a shouting against everyone here individually(partly due to mold and pressure) and I really don't want a repeat of this,I just want to leave,Serve God/Jesus and work towards a "future" and of course I intend to help family at times but for once it would be nice if I had more of a "say" in whether I do for others or not instead of being "on edge" every day wondering what my future is.