[__ Prayer __] jobby job

[Christ_empowered]

I need one. I'm 30. I checked out of reality age 19, 20. By the grace of God, I'm getting back in touch w/ ole reality. I'm on disability for mental issues. I'd like to work, but there are a number of obstacles in my way. I'm blessed to have family w/ time, money, and inclination to keep me safe and comfortable.

I wonder...where to work, especially in a community where I'm despised? Obstacles. Should I work? Better to lay low, finish my degree, and get out of here? Powerful people--men, in particular--came out after me. That's what happens when shrinks "make an example" out of "trouble makers." Its a long story I've told and re-told too many times. Basically, I was supposed to dead by 23, so now that I'm well into 30 and healthy...well, people aren't too happy. Oh well, lol.

But, yeah...that's how much animosity there was/is towards me. People were stepping back to watch me die a slow, painful death before age 23, and now they're mad because I'm alive and healthy.

Back to the original prayer request...I think its a prayer for guidance, too. I mean, ideally, everybody does something. But what if you're stigmatized and despised and mentally ill, too? Ugh.

 

[AirDancer]

Prayers that our Lord will guide you in this decision about a job, Christ_empowered .

I would encourage you to focus on your studies. And, because of your ability to write, I would also encourage starting on that book we've talked about. Putting in one place the voices and stories of those who are overlooked in society is a great idea.

 

[Christ_empowered]

yeah...I was just outside...flipping between songs on my MP3 player...my neighbor lady was talking about me...something about schizophrenia and prison or something...maybe a job isn't the cards? I mean, people around here h-a-t-e me. Maybe disability, Liberty, and a book are the way to go.

 

[AirDancer]

The disability payments can be viewed as temporary, something to help while you're a student with Liberty, my friend.

Now.... where the book is concerned, it would be a good idea to start thinking about what approach you'll take. Will you include the background history of the person, what decisions the person may have made that led to the current problems? Or will you focus on just the current situations, where they live, any jobs, etc.? Will each chapter (however long) deal with only 1 story, or will you group similar stories together in one chapter?

Keep a pad of paper & pen/pencil handy in order to jot down your thoughts/questions as you think of them.

 

[Cturtle]

Commit all of your plans unto the Lord and trust Him to cause your thoughts to line up with His will, so that all of your plans will be established and succeed. Prov. 6:3 amplified Bible.

I agree with air...God is taking care of you via the social security right now. So best to focus on God and your studies. Allowing God to lay the foundation of your faith, for your life. If you feel as if you need some things to do, help your mom and dad around the house. I am sure they will really appreciate any help you give them.
Blessings to you!

 

[Eugene]

Dear Brother Christ_empowered, excuses for never starting something you desire most probably will have its effect in never accomplishing that which you would have for your life.

I agree with Air Dancer as to the quality of your writing skills, and it is improving; a very sought after skill among many employers. Prayerfully your presentation of words will also evolve without compromise requiring much practice. There are “Toastmaster Clubs” near everywhere designed to improve public speaking skills.

 

[Angel]

Prayers that our Lord will guide you in this decision about a job, Christ_empowered .

I would encourage you to focus on your studies. And, because of your ability to write, I would also encourage starting on that book we've talked about. Putting in one place the voices and stories of those who are overlooked in society is a great idea.

I think if you wrote a memoir it would be interesting.

 

[Christ_empowered]

Me again. Thanks for the input

Yeah, disability has been a real blessing, both to me and to my family. The BIG (notice the caps, lol) thing is that I have medical coverage. Before, I was ordering an Indian generic version of the 1 antipsychotic I can tolerate long term (Abilify) from India. Turns out...not exactly legal, and potentially not safe, either. Bummer :-(

Plus, I get to study and just...be...as my mind is being/has been restored. OK, I'm completely different, but I'm not out of commission anymore. I don't know what you call that...healing? Transformation?

I do need to use the writing skills The Lord has blessed me with. Here's the thing...I was a kinda smart (OK, too smart for my own good) and awkward, yet weirdly precocious, kid and teenager. I always wanted to write, wanted it, wanted it....and then I did lots of drugs and had heavy shock treatments (not voluntary). Lame.

But, The Lord is good to us, isn't He? I now write better than I did back then, both because of maturation (I don't think many whiny 17 year olds have anything that insightful to say, anyway) and because of...well, I don't know, lol. All those above my comprehension books and plays and such that I read when I was a good bit younger are still in my mind, somehow...the content, not necessarily the authors or the titles, and...God has really "cashed in" on all that high brow, pretentious reading I did in my younger years. So I do need to put my writing to good use. I've started writing short stories again, and now...they're not painfully awful like back in the day, lol. Naw, they're actually pretty good, and my style is improving fairly consistently.

Thanks, as always, for your prayers and insights.