It's not that I don't believe in God but I must be honest at times, I really do find it difficult to put my complete faith in God. But I suppose that is because I want things to go my way and probably think I know better, not that I am big headed.
My dad was diagnosed with prostate cancer in December last year and his operation was a success, it took 7 hours but the cancer is completely gone. He is still recovering and currently wearing a catheter and cannot drive for the next month. But he is on the road to recovery. We really close and I am blessed to have a guy like him in my life, he has taught me so much and I would be forever grateful. I'm blessed to have a dad and friend like him.
I'm not going to lie, if the worst had to happen I would of been so angry and deeply hurt and would end up questioning God. But that would just be me been selfish and not wanting to be hurt. It's so difficult to see pass bad times and to keep faith alive and to really believe it is for the best.
But I suppose life throws us challenges and curve balls which throw us off track and it's so easy to lose focus at times.
I lost my dog a few years back, the 13 years he spent with me was extremely special. He slept on my bed with me and was such a big part of my life. But towards the end he started to struggle as the cancer spread. He just wasn't himself and he was in pain. My mom insisted to me that we take him to the vet and have him put down. At first I said no, he will be okay and my mom said I am been selfish and that his better off. I will not deny it, I was been extremely selfish, I wanted him to always be with me. After a day or 2 I took him to the vet and he died in my arms. I broke down and cried, it was the worst!! If I look back now, what gives me peace of mind is that God knows I would literally do anything to get him back and I gave him my best. There is only so much you can do at the end of the day, the rest you need to live up to God.
I tend to be want in to much control at times and to sacrifice things. I struggle at times to accept things when it doesn't go my way. I have learnt to ask God for wisdom and strength and to try to see things the way he does.
We never know what tomorrow might bring but it's important that we don't take things for granted and to be true to ourselves. No matter what you do or obstacle you face, be the best person you can be and you will have far less regrets.
My dad was diagnosed with prostate cancer in December last year and his operation was a success, it took 7 hours but the cancer is completely gone. He is still recovering and currently wearing a catheter and cannot drive for the next month. But he is on the road to recovery. We really close and I am blessed to have a guy like him in my life, he has taught me so much and I would be forever grateful. I'm blessed to have a dad and friend like him.
I'm not going to lie, if the worst had to happen I would of been so angry and deeply hurt and would end up questioning God. But that would just be me been selfish and not wanting to be hurt. It's so difficult to see pass bad times and to keep faith alive and to really believe it is for the best.
But I suppose life throws us challenges and curve balls which throw us off track and it's so easy to lose focus at times.
I lost my dog a few years back, the 13 years he spent with me was extremely special. He slept on my bed with me and was such a big part of my life. But towards the end he started to struggle as the cancer spread. He just wasn't himself and he was in pain. My mom insisted to me that we take him to the vet and have him put down. At first I said no, he will be okay and my mom said I am been selfish and that his better off. I will not deny it, I was been extremely selfish, I wanted him to always be with me. After a day or 2 I took him to the vet and he died in my arms. I broke down and cried, it was the worst!! If I look back now, what gives me peace of mind is that God knows I would literally do anything to get him back and I gave him my best. There is only so much you can do at the end of the day, the rest you need to live up to God.
I tend to be want in to much control at times and to sacrifice things. I struggle at times to accept things when it doesn't go my way. I have learnt to ask God for wisdom and strength and to try to see things the way he does.
We never know what tomorrow might bring but it's important that we don't take things for granted and to be true to ourselves. No matter what you do or obstacle you face, be the best person you can be and you will have far less regrets.
