What is your situation, B? Are you a college student away from home, a single adult, a high-school kid? Sorry if you've posted this before, but I really don't know much about you.
I was 38 before I ever met someone who loved me. I spent a lot of years wondering what was 'wrong' with me. Was I too short, too ugly, too smart, too stupid, too whatever. I realize now that I wasn't "too" anything but anxious. Frankly, I wasted too much time worrying about things. Sometimes I wish that I could reclaim those years. If I could go back, there would be so much about my life as a single person that I would appreciate a lot more. But, no one can go back in time.
Life's good now though, love my hubby, love my kids! It was a long wait, but it happened and when it did it was wonderful. But, although life is good, is isn't any more or less perfect than when I was alone and lonely. I have much less time to do the things I'd like to do. I get frustrated a lot more easily. There was a lot more freedom when I was single. Sometimes, when everything I did on Monday is a mess on Tuesday mornings, and my kids are angry with me and my husband is gone at work from early in the morning to fairly late at night, I get really overwhelmed and think back about the days when it was just me and the cat.
I guess what I'm saying is that there are some things that just don't change, even when situations change. Lonliness is bad, but when lonliness gets replaced by a sense of being overwhelmed by responsibilities, well, that's bad too. The thing is we need to learn that God is sufficient.
God is sufficient. If anyone around here who really struggled with deep lonliness has figured that one out and how to apply it, please share!
