[__ Prayer __] Made huge mistake, please pray for my loved ones

[remorse]

I made a promise to God that I broke and require your help to pray on it. This may be hard to understand so it will require a little context.

I used to have extremely bad OCD / anxiety. I became obsessive over the possibility of getting HIV through every day events (like getting a bug in the eye and what if the bug was a mosquito with HIV+ blood in it?, etc.), and I ended up getting tested for HIV over 10 times in a 6 month period. I knew it was insane and I was extremely frustrated with myself and spiralling deeper into obsessing on every aspect of it and anxiety attacks and felt like I was losing myself and my life.
So one night when I was spinning out I tried something drastic and I swore to God that I wouldn't get any more HIV tests unless it was truly warranted, and to make myself stick to it, I said that God should send everyone I love to hell if I broke it, and even dared God to do it if I broke it.
Well, I didn't get tested for a while, but then later I got sick and had an event that I thought could maybe possibly warrant a test because of it. So I apologized to God, asked for forgiveness and got tested. And then went one more time after that just to be sure which felt a lot more like breaking my promise.
I'm in a drastically better place mentally now and I haven't gotten tested since. But breaking this promise is the most horrific thing ever. Since then I have repented a lot. Begged for forgiveness in every way I can think of. A pastor told me that it's not possible for me to send anyone else to hell, but I would just like to reach out to good people with a strong relationship with God (aka people on this site) to please ask of you to pray that no one goes to hell because of my broken promise, and to ask God to please forgive me.
I'm so arrogant and such an idiot for doing that. I was in a terrible place mentally when it happened but that is ultimately no excuse.
Thank you for reading and thank you so much if you took time to pray for me and my loved ones.

 

[Josef]

Hey All,
Remorse, rest assured, nobody is going to hell because of your broken promise. God does not do that. We all stand or fall of our own accord. (Can you imagine getting to heaven, being told your sins were forgiven, but you cannot come in because so-and-so did not keep a promise?)
You are not going to hell because of a broken promise either. God knows all. So God knew when you made it you could not keep it.
However, it is important that we take promises seriously. Be a person who keeps their word. That is part of being an example of the believer. Do you know what else is? Owning your mistakes; making amends when and where possible. You did that. You asked for forgiveness. That is all God asks.
God is your Father. He will not cast away His child. So learn from this experience: Making mistakes, and dealing with them, is part of becoming a mature believer.
I hope this helps. Keep walking everybody. May God bless,
Taz

 

[Who Me]

Begged for forgiveness in every way I can think of. A pastor told me that it's not possible for me to send anyone else to hell,

Two things gs.
You suffer from OCD, please read the Web site from this link:- https://iocdf.org/expert-opinions/25-tips-for-ocd-treatment/
Particularly point 4 about I trusive thoughts.
As the site says, you are responsible for your treatment of your OCD, so do follow your doctors advice, take your medication and practice the self help advice in the Web site.

Forgiveness.
1John1:9 says, God is faithful and if we confess our sins ( to him ) he will forgive us our sins and purify us from All unrighteousness.

It is not a case of God not forgiving you, but a case of you not believing he has forgiven you.

May I suggest the next time your OCD tells you that you have sinned, that you've failed, not good enough, about some long forgotten sin.
That you turn to God and Praise him for Jesus, for All that he has done for you, that you thank him that you sins are ALL forgiven.
Praise him and Thank him for his salvation.

 

[eddif]

I made a promise to God that I broke and require your help to pray on it. This may be hard to understand so it will require a little context.

I used to have extremely bad OCD / anxiety. I became obsessive over the possibility of getting HIV through every day events (like getting a bug in the eye and what if the bug was a mosquito with HIV+ blood in it?, etc.), and I ended up getting tested for HIV over 10 times in a 6 month period. I knew it was insane and I was extremely frustrated with myself and spiralling deeper into obsessing on every aspect of it and anxiety attacks and felt like I was losing myself and my life.
So one night when I was spinning out I tried something drastic and I swore to God that I wouldn't get any more HIV tests unless it was truly warranted, and to make myself stick to it, I said that God should send everyone I love to hell if I broke it, and even dared God to do it if I broke it.
Well, I didn't get tested for a while, but then later I got sick and had an event that I thought could maybe possibly warrant a test because of it. So I apologized to God, asked for forgiveness and got tested. And then went one more time after that just to be sure which felt a lot more like breaking my promise.
I'm in a drastically better place mentally now and I haven't gotten tested since. But breaking this promise is the most horrific thing ever. Since then I have repented a lot. Begged for forgiveness in every way I can think of. A pastor told me that it's not possible for me to send anyone else to hell, but I would just like to reach out to good people with a strong relationship with God (aka people on this site) to please ask of you to pray that no one goes to hell because of my broken promise, and to ask God to please forgive me.
I'm so arrogant and such an idiot for doing that. I was in a terrible place mentally when it happened but that is ultimately no excuse.
Thank you for reading and thank you so much if you took time to pray for me and my loved ones.

Who Me used the scripture I was thinking about 1 John 1:9

Notice sins (plural)
Regretfully we may sin more than once. We do not say sinning is ok, but we do not just quit if we do sin. We confess our sins and trust his promise.

Praying

eddif

 

[for_his_glory]

Hi remorse and welcome to CF .

Promises are always broken especially when we feel we are in dire straights. Since you have so much remorse over this it is a natural thing and you have asked God for forgiveness in which He has forgiven you as He sees that of your repented heart. He not only forgave you, but He remembers it no more so this is something you need to put in the past and continue your walk with Jesus and never make empty promises again. The only promises that are never broken are the promises of God we find in the scriptures as all His promises are yea and amen. Just move past this and learn a lesson from it and keep building upon your faith in Christ Jesus as you draw closer to Him.

 

[remorse]

Thank you everyone for your kind and thoughtful replies, it means a lot.