Christ_empowered
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- Oct 23, 2010
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I think I get it now. When I managed to get saved (however that happens...), I did become someone completely new, different. It is no longer I who lives, but Christ who lives in me...
Its only been 2 years and 7 months. I think...well, its interesting. I became someone new, but it took some times for the to play out here in this world. In my case, God has heard my prayers and made things happen that shouldn't have happened, the way the world usually works. I imagine this happens a lot with Born Again Christians...things take place that ordinarily don't, and that violate the rules of the world we find ourselves in. My family now loves me and takes care of me, I'm physically healthy, increasingly normal, surprisingly (miraculously?!?!) smart enough for my goals, and...yeah. God even changed my face...I went from being too girly looking to being manlier looking, although I'm apparently still "a little too pretty." I'll outgrow it (?).
I move forward from here. I know people around here don't care for me, some despise me. My mother still acts like I"m some self-centered teenager. She acts nervous, like I don't want to listen or care and...I have to reassure her that I *DO* want to spend time with her, that I *DO* care, all that. When I do that, she responds well...she loves me, so does my dad.
So, I move forward from here. No past...as my friend Verna constantly tells me, I have no past, no Christians has a past, not really; God took it away. My favorite is when she talks about the sea of forgetfulness. I think its in Malachi, foreshadowing Christ. I know that we're washed in the blood and our sins are forgiven, but...something about the sea of forgetfulness, the idea that our sins/my sins are thrown into some vast, dreamy ocean, never to be brought up to remembrance ever again...
I like that. And I have to move forward, I do. I'm actually getting better....realizing that what I do, how I live, isn't dependent on the past or what the neighbors say, or how people feel about me, or...yeah. Being forgiven is a big deal, especially being forgiven by my father. Christ made that happen. He worked on their hearts and he changed me so they could and would and did forgive me. I mean, its hard to forgive a sickly, un-intelligent, broken wretch who spent your $$$ and was generally a miscreant. BUT...a healthy, intelligent, former wretch made whole who can move forward in life...easier to forgive. Much, much easier.
Random posting for the day. I pretty much figure things out as I write, write as I figure things out. I praise God for His goodness and for my ongoing family reconciliation. Oh, yeah...please pray for them, too, my parents. They're going to the beach for a couple days coming up later this week. I'll be house sitting, so please also pray the plants don't die.
Its only been 2 years and 7 months. I think...well, its interesting. I became someone new, but it took some times for the to play out here in this world. In my case, God has heard my prayers and made things happen that shouldn't have happened, the way the world usually works. I imagine this happens a lot with Born Again Christians...things take place that ordinarily don't, and that violate the rules of the world we find ourselves in. My family now loves me and takes care of me, I'm physically healthy, increasingly normal, surprisingly (miraculously?!?!) smart enough for my goals, and...yeah. God even changed my face...I went from being too girly looking to being manlier looking, although I'm apparently still "a little too pretty." I'll outgrow it (?).
I move forward from here. I know people around here don't care for me, some despise me. My mother still acts like I"m some self-centered teenager. She acts nervous, like I don't want to listen or care and...I have to reassure her that I *DO* want to spend time with her, that I *DO* care, all that. When I do that, she responds well...she loves me, so does my dad.
So, I move forward from here. No past...as my friend Verna constantly tells me, I have no past, no Christians has a past, not really; God took it away. My favorite is when she talks about the sea of forgetfulness. I think its in Malachi, foreshadowing Christ. I know that we're washed in the blood and our sins are forgiven, but...something about the sea of forgetfulness, the idea that our sins/my sins are thrown into some vast, dreamy ocean, never to be brought up to remembrance ever again...
I like that. And I have to move forward, I do. I'm actually getting better....realizing that what I do, how I live, isn't dependent on the past or what the neighbors say, or how people feel about me, or...yeah. Being forgiven is a big deal, especially being forgiven by my father. Christ made that happen. He worked on their hearts and he changed me so they could and would and did forgive me. I mean, its hard to forgive a sickly, un-intelligent, broken wretch who spent your $$$ and was generally a miscreant. BUT...a healthy, intelligent, former wretch made whole who can move forward in life...easier to forgive. Much, much easier.
Random posting for the day. I pretty much figure things out as I write, write as I figure things out. I praise God for His goodness and for my ongoing family reconciliation. Oh, yeah...please pray for them, too, my parents. They're going to the beach for a couple days coming up later this week. I'll be house sitting, so please also pray the plants don't die.
