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shandy
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I am not sure but I think God has reached out to me through my daughter. This may sound crazy but I really do. I was raised in a nonreligious family we celebrated Christmas but if not for that I would never know we we're Christian. I have great parents they love me and I was not abused in anyway, I became a heavy drug user at a very young age and became pregnant from my dealer boyfriend. I was on a very bad path. I stopped using as soon as I found out about the baby but it was hard. One night while going through mild withdrawl I prayed to God for the first time in my life. I prayed for him to save my baby. I was in a terrible accident the next day and my daughter had to be born immediately. I was angry I felt God rejected my prayer. The doctor told me later that day my baby had been in severe fetal distress and if I hadn't gotten into the accident that forced her birth she would've died in the whom. I never went back to drugs and her father and I split and she has never met him. As a toddler she often spoke of ghost angels and when I asked what they we're she would say love. When she was five she asked if I knew where babies came from because she did. I said really where? She said God. I asked her how she knew that? She told me because God sent her to me because he knew I really needed her. haven't always been the best mom and struggled with alcoholism but she has always had this remarkable faith in God. As crazy as it sounds for the ten years she has been here she has been my rock. She reads books on religion and is the most brilliant child. She is in advanced classes and I wonder sometimes how she could really be mine. I had strings of boyfriends,and jobs I am not proud of but she seems to always thrive. I am done with all that now and working on the alcoholism. She told me the other day that I am doing great and we should go to church. I said we will see. She said God loves you mom he knows your trying and he is waiting for you to believe you deserve his love. I cried when she went to bed and prayed again. I want to go to church and am going to give this a real try. For her