[__ Prayer __] My sanity

[Christ_empowered]

I feel sometimes like I survived a psychiatric experiment. Long story…

Anyway now I’m dealing with people yelling at me about having a felony on and on I have a serious misdemeanor that started as a felony. Plea bargain. Miracle in my life not entirely unheard of.

Some neighbors in my building apparently want me to move. My parents own it. One particularly obnoxious neighbor openly says I belong in a group home. I haven’t been hospitalized in over 15 years and I’ve never been committed. So…?

It’s frustrating. I had to call the post office about not receiving mail for a long time something happened…

Now I’m getting mail again.

I dunno

I’ve been reading scripture more and praying more and I’m dealing with it better but it’s unnerving.

Thanks

 

[for_his_glory]

Just keep moving forward and never look back.

 

[Christ_empowered]

Thanks

It’s literally so frustrating that I finally emailed the hoa. I’m not usually that neighbor but…

Yeah

 

[Christ_empowered]

More if it…

And more of the same from when I first moved home…warrants all those taunts…

Frustrating…

 

[psalm51]

Praying for you.

 

[eddif]

I feel sometimes like I survived a psychiatric experiment. Long story…

Anyway now I’m dealing with people yelling at me about having a felony on and on I have a serious misdemeanor that started as a felony. Plea bargain. Miracle in my life not entirely unheard of.

Some neighbors in my building apparently want me to move. My parents own it. One particularly obnoxious neighbor openly says I belong in a group home. I haven’t been hospitalized in over 15 years and I’ve never been committed. So…?

It’s frustrating. I had to call the post office about not receiving mail for a long time something happened…

Now I’m getting mail again.

I dunno

I’ve been reading scripture more and praying more and I’m dealing with it better but it’s unnerving.

Thanks

Nehemiah 4:1 kjv
1. But it came to pass, that when Sanballat heard that we builded the wall, he was wroth, and took great indignation, and mocked the Jews.
2. And he spake before his brethren and the army of Samaria, and said, What do these feeble Jews? will they fortify themselves? will they sacrifice? will they make an end in a day? will they revive the stones out of the heaps of the rubbish which are burned?
3. Now Tobiah the Ammonite was by him, and he said, Even that which they build, if a fox go up, he shall even break down their stone wall
4. Hear, O our God; for we are despised: and turn their reproach upon their own head, and give them for a prey in the land of captivity:
5. And cover not their iniquity, and let not their sin be blotted out from before thee: for they have provoked thee to anger before the builders.
6. So built we the wall; and all the wall was joined together unto the half thereof: for the people had a mind to work.
7. But it came to pass, that when Sanballat, and Tobiah, and the Arabians, and the Ammonites, and the Ashdodites, heard that the walls of Jerusalem were made up, andthat the breaches began to be stopped, then they were very wroth,
8. And conspired all of them together to come and to fight against Jerusalem, and to hinder it.

Plus more verses
O
I am not trying to get you to be a Jew.

When we try and rebuild we face opposition.

We do not fight against flesh and blood

Hang in there

eddif

 

[Christ_empowered]

More more more…

One big problem I have? These are techniques used on me by so called mental health professionals since forever and ever. Ugh

I’ve only been hospitalized twice. Neither one was a state hospital never been officially committed. The last one was over 15 years ago.

Memories are returning or more likely being returned to me by an act of God…

The cruelty at the first hospital age 20 was an intense replay of middle school and high school plus high dose sedatives. What gives? It isn’t a pity party it’s genuine curiosity and concern for not only me and whatever sort of life I can develop now at nearly 40…

It’s about schools that don’t educate…churches that don’t teach truth…families that don’t teach and properly raise children…

Employers who demand not only the right credentials but the right personality traits and look …

Largely because of the so called helping professions.

I used to think of psychology and psychiatry in terms of treatment but now I see a bit more clearly…

It’s all dehumanizing and destructive to individuals families and society as a whole. Everybody’s in treatment and the techniques are being applied from an early age…

Suicide rates are up in the USA . I’m afraid the whole thing is satanic…

 

[eddif]

More more more…

One big problem I have? These are techniques used on me by so called mental health professionals since forever and ever. Ugh

I’ve only been hospitalized twice. Neither one was a state hospital never been officially committed. The last one was over 15 years ago.

Memories are returning or more likely being returned to me by an act of God…

The cruelty at the first hospital age 20 was an intense replay of middle school and high school plus high dose sedatives. What gives? It isn’t a pity party it’s genuine curiosity and concern for not only me and whatever sort of life I can develop now at nearly 40…

It’s about schools that don’t educate…churches that don’t teach truth…families that don’t teach and properly raise children…

Employers who demand not only the right credentials but the right personality traits and look …

Largely because of the so called helping professions.

I used to think of psychology and psychiatry in terms of treatment but now I see a bit more clearly…

It’s all dehumanizing and destructive to individuals families and society as a whole. Everybody’s in treatment and the techniques are being applied from an early age…

Suicide rates are up in the USA . I’m afraid the whole thing is satanic…

Robert Malone says almost the whole world is asleep to what has been done/taught/indoctrinated to/of them. We believe the treatment we get is good. Till one day some wake up to reality.

Anger will not set us free. But understanding can help. Till we understand we just repeat the line we learned.

eddif

 

[Christ_empowered]

Concur

It’s crazy making…

 

[Christ_empowered]

I’m not even angry . Just…frustrated? Maybe? Perhaps disillusioned?

Everyone has to grow up eventually. Disillusionment is a part of it…

 

[Christ_empowered]

Trying yo praise through the taunts and show gratitude. As in…

God spared me forgave me and has brought deliverance in the here and now. Not because I’m special or because of my backstory but because God is Love and He has shown me incredible mercy.

Sort of standing on truth while the junk continues around me.

 

[Marianne333]

Hang in there CE. I am praying for you. As my pastor said - "you and God are the majority" not those nasty neighbours of yours.

 

[Maliah inked here]

I feel sometimes like I survived a psychiatric experiment. Long story…

Anyway now I’m dealing with people yelling at me about having a felony on and on I have a serious misdemeanor that started as a felony. Plea bargain. Miracle in my life not entirely unheard of.

Some neighbors in my building apparently want me to move. My parents own it. One particularly obnoxious neighbor openly says I belong in a group home. I haven’t been hospitalized in over 15 years and I’ve never been committed. So…?

It’s frustrating. I had to call the post office about not receiving mail for a long time something happened…

Now I’m getting mail again.

I dunno

I’ve been reading scripture more and praying more and I’m dealing with it better but it’s unnerving.

Thanks

Take a moment and turn your eyes upon Jesus.

Praying..

 

[Christ_empowered]

Getting better. God restoring a relationship with my long suffering parents is key .

One neighbor lady was taunting me as I walked downstairs to my place. Then mama emailed some uplifting messages and…

Easier to shrug it off.

I get worried though. They won’t be around forever. Thankfully they’re quite healthy and vibrant in their 60s.

 

[Maliah inked here]

Getting better. God restoring a relationship with my long suffering parents is key .

One neighbor lady was taunting me as I walked downstairs to my place. Then mama emailed some uplifting messages and…

Easier to shrug it off.

I get worried though. They won’t be around forever. Thankfully they’re quite healthy and vibrant in their 60s.

 

[Maliah inked here]

It is key. Enjoy them while you can. Both my parents are gone on to be with The Lord and when they're gone you realize just what a gift you had here on this earth.
Love them up is my advice.
God bless..

 

[Christ_empowered]

Thank you God bless you…,

 

[Christ_empowered]

Some dude is literally taunting me by saying move into a group home!!!

My parents own this place. I pray for peace