New member, and I need your help!

[BamaFan0728]

Hi everyone. I just happened to run across this forum and I've been dealing with an issue and I need help. First let me tell you a little about myself. I am 25 and have been a christian since I was 12. I got married at 22 and accepted my calling to preach three months later. I was on fire for God for couple of years and loved every minute of it. I now have a 13 month old daughter and it seems as if I have fallen away from God. I feel as though I'm always so busy and never have time to do anything. I've lost my fellowship with God and I have truly been miserable, I yearn to get the old flame back. I know He never left me but I did Him. Seems now I have a temper and I sin more often yet everytime I try to turn back to God I fail and cannot and I don't know why, its like I take one step forward and two steps back. Satan is after me harder than he ever has been. I hope everyone can make sense of what I'm trying to say, I do love God and I want to be on fire for Him again and have that close relationship I use to have. If anyone can help I would be so thankful for any advice. Thanks in advance!

 

[Mike]

Welcome to CFnet, BF.

I'm sorry to hear about the spiritual warfare you're experiencing. I don't mean to sway this thread. Members can respond as they feel lead. But, just so you know, this forum is typically used by new members to introduce themselves. I'm saying this so you understand, you will probably get a much greater response by posting your struggle in the Christian Talk & Advice Forum. Just don't feel disregarded if other members merely greet you.

I'll do that now and hope to hear more from you on the board. I'm glad you joined. :yes

 

[Alabaster]

I know this is only a welcome thread, but just a quick word of encouragement: Remember Jesus' words about His yoke being light. Think of the yoke and how it is built for two, and think about wearing one side on your shoulders and the other side on His. Now imagine Him looking over at you with a smile on His face holding his side up making yours light. He loves you and is right there beside you--always.

 

[craigmn3]

My word of advice is not to try to go back to Jesus on the path of your old life.

You are now a husband and a father and must proceed on your path of life that way.

Frustration is caused when we push against the force against us...in this case I think God has a new direction for you.....turn around brother, He's right there.

Be a man of God, A good husband and a godly father.....and God will make a place for you.

 

[mrroy1937]

I'm not sure exactly how to respond to your post. I will say this. God's calling is never taken back. When He gives gifts, He never recalls them, no matter what happens.

I might ask you to think about this. Was your preaching your fire or was it God's fire. The Holy Spirit empowers and doesn't always seem to set on fire, as they say.

What are you doing now? Are you in the ministry or do you have a secular job?

You might consider this question also. When did your enthusiasm wane? What were the conditions that surrounded it? Since you seem to be irritable now, it's possible that you missed some direction back there, at some time. But you should have peace, even now.

Have you sought for some type of ministerial credentials? Has the Lord instructed you to attend a school or seminary?

These are just questions that came to mind, because my only response is to inquire into your situation. There is an answer somewhere.

 

[AKJVReader]

The answer to you is found in the King James Bible.

[FONT=arial,helvatica]"In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God."
(John 1:1) [/FONT]

"Jesus Christ the same yesterday, and to day, and for ever." (Hebrews 13:8)

Ephesians 6:
10 Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might.
11 Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.
12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.
13 Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.
14 Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness;
15 And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace;
16 Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.
17 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God:
18 Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints;

 

[jodetoad]

Glad you're here. I'm new too.

My only thought is that when I expect things of God, it doesn't always work out so well. Works better for me to try to figure out what God expects from me, and try to do it. Life is change; I have never really got to 'go back', but usually going forward ended up better, maybe after a rough patch...

 

[NuRelic]

Likewise, I'm Nu too (pun intended). I'm 45 and have been married for 22 years to my lovely wife and we have 4 boys the youngest of which are twin 16 year olds and the other two are out of HS. It's been a long time since I've had baby's in the house, but I can definitely empathize with you plight. My first bit of advice would be to just step back and make sure your taking a good look at the bigger picture. Early in a marriage (first five years or so), you go through a lot of changes, challenges and are forced to start making the first of what will be many hard choices. It's easy to lose your focus and hone in on the little things and that's where trouble like to take root.

Your loosing touch with God maybe much more, but I would encourage you to make sure its not a byproduct of collateral damage as result of finding yourself looking at the smaller picture. Just make sure your priorities are in line, your path is clear and you demeanor is selfless. If not focus your energy there first and if it is then seek God's direction.

I've been through a lot of sacrifice raising my family, a lot more than my family could ever tell me because you just cant relay that kind of information to a child and by the time we're an adult, we know it all. Trial by fire is what we all go through and that which doesn't kill us makes us stronger. Good luck to you sir and God Bless.

Nu