Christ_empowered
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Yup. Me yet again…
So at 39…which is to say essentially 40…. Im not a weakling. I look somewhat younger than my age now. Nothing freakish and it lines up with Christian testimonies of physical healing and restoration I’ve read…
But kinda huge in the context of my own life in which I started out sickly and severely depressed and ended up brain damaged and burned out by 19. Side note
to whatever extent possible I think 
people…especially Christians…should avoid the mental health industry. Moving on…
So now I’m healthy and normal and restored and also i sense a ton of open animosity in my general area, which creeps me out because I’m just some labeled person living a quiet
life with very little going on that I should have people I don’t know 
being openly hostile and borderline aggressive now and then but…ok.
To be honest I think
now it’s a spiritual thing. He moves the world reacts with a vengeance. Doesn’t matter if the believer in question is a wealthy businessman 
or a poor 3rd world 
citizen or some seemingly random 39 year old former all kinds of things now labeled with schizophrenia and trying to move on…
Thems the rules or so it seems…,
Someone poured soda or something on my car
. I’m blessed to have a nice car 
which is probably why they did it. Praying 
for my enemies…Jesus Christ is softening my heart 
…
Besides a quick car wash
did the trick.
I dunno
forgiveness and love and sanctification…more Jesus less me…
Are more important than my feelings or the pushback from His work in my life…
I am grateful that I’m not a weakling of course. Bigger issue? His will for me. Greater is He who is in me than he who is in the world
…
Biggest issue? Christ Jesus Himself. He says to follow and also to die daily and He even cautions us to count the cost
…
I pray to follow better and to die daily and to count the costs acknowledge whatever costs may be involved…
And continue following anyway. John 6:68
So at 39…which is to say essentially 40…. Im not a weakling. I look somewhat younger than my age now. Nothing freakish and it lines up with Christian testimonies of physical healing and restoration I’ve read…
But kinda huge in the context of my own life in which I started out sickly and severely depressed and ended up brain damaged and burned out by 19. Side note
to whatever extent possible I think people…especially Christians…should avoid the mental health industry. Moving on…So now I’m healthy and normal and restored and also i sense a ton of open animosity in my general area, which creeps me out because I’m just some labeled person living a quiet
life with very little going on that I should have people I don’t know being openly hostile and borderline aggressive now and then but…ok. To be honest I think
now it’s a spiritual thing. He moves the world reacts with a vengeance. Doesn’t matter if the believer in question is a wealthy businessman or a poor 3rd world citizen or some seemingly random 39 year old former all kinds of things now labeled with schizophrenia and trying to move on…Thems the rules or so it seems…,
Someone poured soda or something on my car
. I’m blessed to have a nice car which is probably why they did it. Praying for my enemies…Jesus Christ is softening my heart …Besides a quick car wash
did the trick.I dunno
forgiveness and love and sanctification…more Jesus less me…Are more important than my feelings or the pushback from His work in my life…
I am grateful that I’m not a weakling of course. Bigger issue? His will for me. Greater is He who is in me than he who is in the world
…Biggest issue? Christ Jesus Himself. He says to follow and also to die daily and He even cautions us to count the cost
…I pray
to follow better and to die daily and to count the costs acknowledge whatever costs may be involved…And continue following anyway. John 6:68