Christ_empowered
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- Oct 23, 2010
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Yup. Me yet again…
So at 39…which is to say essentially 40…. Im not a weakling. I look somewhat younger than my age now. Nothing freakish and it lines up with Christian testimonies of physical healing and restoration I’ve read…
But kinda huge in the context of my own life in which I started out sickly and severely depressed and ended up brain damaged and burned out by 19. Side note ? to whatever extent possible I think ? people…especially Christians…should avoid the mental health industry. Moving on…
So now I’m healthy and normal and restored and also i sense a ton of open animosity in my general area, which creeps me out because I’m just some labeled person living a quiet ? life with very little going on that I should have people I don’t know ?
being openly hostile and borderline aggressive now and then but…ok.
To be honest I think ? now it’s a spiritual thing. He moves the world reacts with a vengeance. Doesn’t matter if the believer in question is a wealthy businessman ?? or a poor 3rd world ? citizen or some seemingly random 39 year old former all kinds of things now labeled with schizophrenia and trying to move on…
Thems the rules or so it seems…,
Someone poured soda or something on my car ?. I’m blessed to have a nice car ? which is probably why they did it. Praying ? for my enemies…Jesus Christ is softening my heart ?…
Besides a quick car wash ? did the trick.
I dunno ? forgiveness and love and sanctification…more Jesus less me…
Are more important than my feelings or the pushback from His work in my life…
I am grateful that I’m not a weakling of course. Bigger issue? His will for me. Greater is He who is in me than he who is in the world ?️…
Biggest issue? Christ Jesus Himself. He says to follow and also to die daily and He even cautions us to count the cost ?…
I pray ? to follow better and to die daily and to count the costs acknowledge whatever costs may be involved…
And continue following anyway. John 6:68
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So at 39…which is to say essentially 40…. Im not a weakling. I look somewhat younger than my age now. Nothing freakish and it lines up with Christian testimonies of physical healing and restoration I’ve read…
But kinda huge in the context of my own life in which I started out sickly and severely depressed and ended up brain damaged and burned out by 19. Side note ? to whatever extent possible I think ? people…especially Christians…should avoid the mental health industry. Moving on…
So now I’m healthy and normal and restored and also i sense a ton of open animosity in my general area, which creeps me out because I’m just some labeled person living a quiet ? life with very little going on that I should have people I don’t know ?
being openly hostile and borderline aggressive now and then but…ok. To be honest I think ? now it’s a spiritual thing. He moves the world reacts with a vengeance. Doesn’t matter if the believer in question is a wealthy businessman ?? or a poor 3rd world ? citizen or some seemingly random 39 year old former all kinds of things now labeled with schizophrenia and trying to move on…
Thems the rules or so it seems…,
Someone poured soda or something on my car ?. I’m blessed to have a nice car ? which is probably why they did it. Praying ? for my enemies…Jesus Christ is softening my heart ?…
Besides a quick car wash ? did the trick.
I dunno ? forgiveness and love and sanctification…more Jesus less me…
Are more important than my feelings or the pushback from His work in my life…
I am grateful that I’m not a weakling of course. Bigger issue? His will for me. Greater is He who is in me than he who is in the world ?️…
Biggest issue? Christ Jesus Himself. He says to follow and also to die daily and He even cautions us to count the cost ?…
I pray ? to follow better and to die daily and to count the costs acknowledge whatever costs may be involved…
And continue following anyway. John 6:68
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