[__ Prayer __] pray for my neighbors, my parents, and me

[Christ_empowered]

My parents are probably both going out of town in a bit over 1 week for a 1 week trip. Please pray for them. Also, I'll be house sitting here for the week. Ordinarily, not a big deal; I mean, I'm nearly 31. Problem is...people in my neighborhood love harassing me. While they were briefly out of town last time, I'm pretty sure some neighborhood people came over into the yard, near my window. I could hear their voices a little too clearly. So, please pray that the neighbors leave me alone and find The Lord, and also that they soften their hearts towards me and other people.

And then there's me. I've made a lot of progress, only by Christ's grace. I still have mild paranoia now and then, which isn't near as bad as it has been in years past. I'm nervous about being alone, surrounded by people who openly despise me, for 1 week, with my parents far away. Such is the life of the mentally ill, I suppose...

I have only1 friend locally, and she's in grad school and also recently got a boyfriend, so...yeah...she'll probably come by a couple times, and that'll be it. I think I'll be OK. I don't drink, do drugs, do anything illegal, my car is in good shape, etc. etc. etc. Its just...well, this past weekend, the neighbors (the ones who always mess with me) were laughing with sadistic glee really, really loudly..as in, my parents were in my room helping me clean, and they could hear it, and it concerned them. Today, they've been talking loud enough for me to catch bits and pieces of it in my room.

So...yeah...prayers all around, please.

 

[Eugene]

Got you covered brother.

 

[jack K]

Not you think you will be okay, you definitely would. Look at all the things you have overcome and you still standing.
I know people can be so hurtful at times but just remember that no matter there will always be people who dislike you. There is nobody on this forum which is not disliked by at least one person. It's just the way it is.
Are you a animal person, you ever thought of getting yourself a puppy?

 

[Christ_empowered]

Its...the constant harassment. I mean, I step outside, they're messing with me. They know details about my psychiatric "Treatment." They get in the yard, or have on a couple occasions. Its ridiculous.

That said...I've been praying for what I need to bear up under what comes my way, and God's been providing it. See, I'm kinda paranoid because I got bashed on the head with a pipe a while back while walking around. So, I got that fear that something is gonna happen...something not good.

I think this is part of me growing up, which may be why The Lord is allowing it (?). People always said my parents were overprotective, but the truth is...I just didn't get social interaction. Long story...sick community=sick people. Happens. Anyway, its like...I never really grew up, which I think is one reason my life was so difficult. Immature, socially isolated. Now, I'm growing up. I've grown up a lot since I got saved, its amazing.

When my parents were out of town for 1 week before, they got real loud. I think they drink, and not a little bit. Big deal, I know, but...when I can't even step out on the porch at 3 AM for a quick smoke (insomnia), that's rough.

As always, thanks for your prayers.

 

[jack K]

Hi CE

How are things going?

 

[Christ_empowered]

going well man, thanks. The neighbors still have problems with me, clearly. To be fair, the way things usually go, I should be in prison. I'm not saying I deserve that, and I'm blessed that things worked out differently in my case, but I'm trying to be more empathetic and see things from their perspective. They're...I dunno...working class, lower middle class, southerners (motorcycles, big truck, a dog named after some kinda gun), and then there's my family...one parents with a masters, another a PhD, and me, their homosexual ne'er do well son with a terrible back story. There's a lot going on here...they used to call me trailer trash, trailer trash faggot, etc., and now I'm living in my parents' house, which is older (on the historic register), bigger, bigger and nicer yard, etc. Basically, everybody called me "poor white trash," (its the south) and treated me accordingly, and now my upper-middle/maybe somewhat upper class people "take good care of me."

I mean, I'm just trying to figure out what to do next, you know? But from their perspective, I see...yeah. Basically, the world in general doesn't care for people like me, stigmatized as I am. Factor in Christ's work in my life--healthy, smart, increasingly normal (masculine, social skills, all that basic stuff)...even my hair grew back (!!!)--and I can see where their anger comes from. I did a lot of damage to myself. I mean, I didn't get it...I was a childish, socially isolated teenager with sudden access to lots of fun Rx drugs...but still: punitive as American culture is, especially in the South, I "rub people the wrong way" just by living comfortably, albeit very simply.

I mean, stigma...former Rx junky, diagnosed with severe narcissism, now diagnosed Bipolar I (but everyone calls me schizophrenic), living off my people and disability, dyed my hair and it fell out (its since grown back), used to be short and ugly because of health problems+ questionable bone structure (tiny button noses don't suit males very well), plus...yeah.

I don't think they're right to condemn me, and I think all the condemnation I've encountered may be 1 reason why Christ has been so gracious towards me (maybe...I dunno...), but I have to see where they're coming from, right? "Wise as serpents, innocent as doves." Its good to understand how the "real world" works, or usually works.