Are we;Just going through your OP brother. You have shared some things from your own life that speak into many lives - and not least the anxiety and fear issue with its sense of a loss of control as a trigger.
Then there is the neuropathy issue irising out of the Sciatica. I. chose to quote that first.
May I ask you brother - given that you clearly know the difference between neuropathic (Somatic) effects and the emotional predication arising from physical pain that is beyond reach - have you given any thought to the relationship between the autonomic nervous system (sympathetic and para sympathetic) with the adrenaline gland and the release of Cortisol into the body through the blood stream?
What I mean brother, is do you understand what the physiological and neurophysiological link may be between emotional stress and a Sciatic flareup?
Why would I ask this of you given that you have shared that this is the first time you have spoken of your childhood (emotional pain) giving rise to anxiety (psychophysiological) and fear (physiological - or experiential fear) and neurophysiological (autonomic nervous system)?
It sounds somewhat complicated but perhaps a simple way to understand what I am asking is to consider the order in which you passed into this current episode of the Sciatica. Which came first the chicken (fear) or the egg (Sciatica)? And I don't mean fear of Sciatica. I mean physiological fear in your body. A need to react?
I have noted that you have forgiven your parents (you never held them responsible). That physical fear is juxtaposed with anxiety and that Sciatica is massively increased when in that mind.
I also note the wonderful responses you have received - such a blessing to read them. They are all grounded in a faith meaning and how wonderful is that, brother? Praise God for His mercy and love. Yet as you have said, this time you are taken by surprise and a little debilitated to hold onto a faith position (other than the Lord of course) so as to be delivered of your weaknesses. The Lord bless you dear brother.
tripartite?
Tripartition?
Might as well look at it all?
Of course for a Mississippi redneck the subject is a little deep.
Baptized in the name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit?
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