Christ_empowered
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- Oct 23, 2010
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yes, yes; me, yet again. so...
its dawned on me that a lot of the junk from before...and the junk now, even...was and is just 'the way the world works.' i know, you may very well be wondering: well, what took you so long? ugh. I dunno...
lots of people have hard lives. people mess up and end up in prison, poverty, maybe the state hospital...and a lot of times, that's it. boom. done.
me? poverty was rough, but i never went homeless or anything. no prison, never been in a state hospital...haven't even been in a mental hospital in 13 years, now (yes!), and...
now? truth is...I was never going to amount to anything. not that it was 'fair' or anything, just...happens, you know? The Lord has gone above and beyond, for me, and...
-sigh- no one can claim to be 'entitled' to anything from The Lord. and in the usa, the dregs can't really claim to be entitled to much from society, what's left of the safety net, etc., either. ugh. and so...
God is Good. Truly Good. -reality check- My parents were under no obligation to forgive me. I just came back from yet another family dinner, this time it was take out, and...yeah. I'm 36, 'severely mentally ill,' and loved by Jesus and my (long suffering) parents.
I do hope that I can shape up a bit, so when and if my parents need help in their old age, I"ll be up to it. Other than that...
-sigh- I'm more -genuinely grateful- as I see...'how the world works,' vs how The Lord works in my life, in other Christians' lives.
Thanks.
its dawned on me that a lot of the junk from before...and the junk now, even...was and is just 'the way the world works.' i know, you may very well be wondering: well, what took you so long? ugh. I dunno...
lots of people have hard lives. people mess up and end up in prison, poverty, maybe the state hospital...and a lot of times, that's it. boom. done.
me? poverty was rough, but i never went homeless or anything. no prison, never been in a state hospital...haven't even been in a mental hospital in 13 years, now (yes!), and...
now? truth is...I was never going to amount to anything. not that it was 'fair' or anything, just...happens, you know? The Lord has gone above and beyond, for me, and...
-sigh- no one can claim to be 'entitled' to anything from The Lord. and in the usa, the dregs can't really claim to be entitled to much from society, what's left of the safety net, etc., either. ugh. and so...
God is Good. Truly Good. -reality check- My parents were under no obligation to forgive me. I just came back from yet another family dinner, this time it was take out, and...yeah. I'm 36, 'severely mentally ill,' and loved by Jesus and my (long suffering) parents.
I do hope that I can shape up a bit, so when and if my parents need help in their old age, I"ll be up to it. Other than that...
-sigh- I'm more -genuinely grateful- as I see...'how the world works,' vs how The Lord works in my life, in other Christians' lives.
Thanks.
