Regrets

[for_his_glory]

I have no regrets... Just life lessons.

When people get addicted to drugs, often it is the drug that controls the person. Get a person clean, and all that behavior changes for the good.

Not to make excuse, but you weren't you when you were doing all them drugs, and I hope your Dad can understand that. Sure, you probably did some pretty bad stuff when you were high, but that was the drug using your body and motivating your thoughts.

Your lesson learned should be that drugs cause you to do some pretty destructive things... Things that hurt other people.

You hurt your Dad, and Dads can be protective of their feelings.

Let him know you made the mistake of letting drugs control your life, but now your clean and you plan on staying that way. Walk the walk and you'll earn your Dads trust back, but know you never left his heart, even when you disappointed and hurt him.

Chin up and no regrets... Just life lessons.

I like that "just life lessons" as sometimes we can not fix them, but move on from them.

 

[Christ_empowered]

I had/have a lot of regrets, but The Lord has been working and is working still on me and in my life.

I messed up --royally-- as a teenager, 17-19, while at college. I shouldn't have been there, especially in an apartment with a drug dealer (I didn't know she was a drug dealer when I moved in...she was also a student at the college...), starting at 17. Bad news. My current counselor thinks I had varying degrees of what they're now calling Bipolar I (severe) from a young age, and I'm just now stable.


Rambling...at one point, I attacked my dad. I mean, it was that bad. I was that bad. I didn't see a way out or...anywhere. I had serious physical and mental health problems, and...that was how terrible I was to my father. That was a bit over 7 years ago.

Now, I live with my people. Physically, I'm healthy, mentally...well, I'm "in recovery" (read: medicated. 24/7). I have no arrest record from the incident. The DA felt bad for my family and bad for me (I was obviously sick in jail), so I got to go to a Teen challenge program and the charges were dropped and record expunged/erased.

I regret my past sins and mistreatment of my people. There's nothing I can do about it, especially with no work history and I had physical problems until after I got saved. They seem to have forgiven me, and that's --huge--. I put them thru Hell. They couldn't forgive me until recently, until after Christ moved in our lives (especially mine) in a big, big way. I'm physically healthy now, remarkably....gasp...normal, my intelligence seems to be back in action, my eyes are bright, even my hair grew back (FYI: hair dye CAN make your hair fall out). So, now...with God's work in my life and in their hearts, forgiveness is possible.

So...yeah...regrets. I live in a small, southern town. On top of everything else, there are pictures of me engaging in...sodomy. Thing is...I a) did not consent to any pictures or videos and b) for a number of reasons, I think these may be pictures and videos of non-consentual sexual behavior. Of course, its "The Bible Belt" and...I was once an ugly "druggy," my people "weren't important," blah blah blah....so I'm the one who gets made fun of, judged, etc.

I guess I'm saying...even tho I'm clearly not heterosexual, I regret ever engaging in sodomy. I mean, ever. Because even though the rape thing may seem like a wholly different creature than consentual stuff, its not all that different, not really (at least...for male sodomy). The whole thing is satanic, to the core, and forcible sodomy is just sodomy in pure, unadulterated form. No lie.

So, even tho I'm not heterosexual, I regreet acting it out. Not having sex has proven to be a great thing for me, honestly.

I've rambled. I should add that The Lord has already made good of many of my sins and things done to me, and I've only been genuinely saved 3 1/2 years.