[__ Praise __] rough world, good parents

[Christ_empowered]

And of course...GOD IS GOOD!

I saw my parents today. Then, my battery died. Could have been disastrous. mama took care of it. On the one hand, I feel so...un-grown, immature saying that. On the other hand...man oh man, Schizophrenia's rough, my community can be rough, and...yeah. I"m thankful, basically. Of course...they have the time, money, and inclination for all that. Not everyone does, and that's..."the way the world works," etc. The -big- thing is that my parents, my family...me, as part of the family...is becoming a sort of safe haven in a rough and chaotic world. I don't pretend to know the state of my parents' salvation, but in terms of actions...godly and humane. good combination.

ok. thanks.

 

[Michael74]

God is good.

 

[Tessa]

Safe havens are a beautiful blessings!

 

[Christ_empowered]

thanks, y'all.

God is good! I think...I think they just want me to -do- more, especially my dad. I"m not complaining...I think the deal is he doesn't want me totally dependent on disability and them, indefinitely. thing is...

i don't know how realistic a real life jobby job is, honestly. i think my bad stuff has been sealed, etc., but i still have mugshots floating around. how am i going to get a good job if any employer can just google me and boom! there's me at a low point?

other than that, there's having been out of commission and very, very sick for a while there. I'm healthy now...weak, but healthy...and I -can- do more, but...blah. just, realistically...i don't know. I pray God's perfect will, but...I don't know.


i dunno. God is good! people...not so much, obviously. groups of people...often not, lol.

 

[Michael74]

The bad people are just temporary. We are among them for a short while, and then poof they are gone. Hopefully they will repent before it is too late for them.

It is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the living God. Hebrews 10:31 KJV

 

[Pegasus]

And of course...GOD IS GOOD!

All the time.

 

[Christ_empowered]

me (yes, AGAIN).

my parents are thinking about buying either a small house or a decent condo. I kinda want the condo, because its not fancy, but its comfortable and they have security, plus its close to stuff to do, places to shops, etc...and no major upkeep. and then I realized...

compared to most "mental patients," I live like a Prince. Or at least...minor nobility, like a Baron or something, LOL. God is good to His children, no doubt. I'm thankful that my parents have the time, money, and inclination to do so much for me, despite who I was really until recently. I Mean...YES, I got genuinely saved nearly 6 years ago, but...it took miracles for me to be who I am now, and who I am now...

I still struggle being in society. Not because I'm "out of control" or what have you, but because I was out of commission for a while there, I cannot support myself, I'm stigmatized, and...yeah. Blessed all over, not well liked in the community. There ya go.

of course...things -are- looking up. did i tell y'all my cousin--he was a corporate big deal, like his dad--wants me to have a conversation with someone who came to his ministry? it hasn't happened yet, so im not going to talk too much about it, but...this dude is involved in the business end of psych services (i'm guessing a private, for profit provider), and he's interested (now...recently, it seems...) in the -spiritual- component of mental health "stuff." so, my cousin --might-- be able to arrange a lil convo, and...

see, that's one thing i Like about Christianity...God is no respector of persons, and each person matters because we're all created in God's image. you don't get much more (genuinely) egalitarian than that, do you??

OK. Thanks, y'all.

 

[Michael74]

my parents are thinking about buying either a small house or a decent condo. I kinda want the condo, because its not fancy, but its comfortable and they have security, plus its close to stuff to do, places to shops, etc...and no major upkeep.

Do you mean for you to dwell in, or them?

 

[Christ_empowered]

for me. they'd own it, but it'd be for me. they'd still live where they're living.

 

[Michael74]

I like the idea of condo security. A home can be outfitted with security too. Alarms, cameras, motion control lights, security doors, etc...

 

[Christ_empowered]

i just think i'd feel safer in a decent condo. i think its harder to mess with people when there's security involved, although...i did see on the news archives (local newspaper) that there was criminal stuff at this place. it was a "mentally unwell" resident, though. :-( that was a couple years ago.

but...anyway....yeah, I kinda wanna just say thumbs up the condo, quit looking, I need space and I need security. but I don't wanna be a brat (keep in mind; the condo is well within their price range, it just carries with it those ridiculous home owner's association fees, but...that covers security...).

thanks.

 

[Michael74]

If they have enough land, they could also build a small house on their property for you.

 

[Tessa]

Things are just getting better and better CE. Exciting news

 

[Christ_empowered]

me...a condo is now mine. well...OK...its my parents' (mama has dibs on the big bedroom, actually), but I'll live there.

dad calls it a new chapter. I think of it as...a huge blessing. I'll take good care of it, of course. and they'll be seeing me a good bit, I think...honestly, excited as I am about it (who wouldn't be?), my parents seemed more excited than me. seriously.

my big deal is security, privacy, safety, seems easy(ish) to maintain. from my parents' end....well, the small(er) houses we looked at...problem there is that some of the neighborhoods could go up in value or...turn rough and they'd lose $$$, big time. this condo place...

has been around for a while, and they've demonstrated long term increases in value. i mean, its not as if it'll go 3x in 5 years, but they should get a good return on the $$$, and its more of a sure fire bet than the houses were. and also...

honestly, im happy to get out of the apt. situation. its not that im "too good" for this apt. complex or any apt. complex, but...i dunno...im thankful for something my parents own, something solid, something more rooted in the community...

oh, and get this....The Lord has seen fit to bless my parents, bless me, open up a new chapter for all 3 of us...

--7 years-- since I moved home, an over the hill "loser," "society's reject," etc. And..nearly 6 years since I got genuinely, truly saved. OK. I'll cool it with looking for patterns here. God is good!

 

[Tessa]

Fantastic news

When do you move in?

 

[Michael74]

I like that you have better security now.

 

[Christ_empowered]

hi. thank you both. the security is kind of a big deal for me, Michael74. I think we're on the same page there...

well, I dunno. Dad said closing could take 4 weeks, give or take. they're...excited, too. when they got me this apt., i think it was kinda like...oh man, he's a loser, but he's -our- loser....you know?!?! but, now its more along the lines of...he's our son, he's got the mental issues, he's good to us, etc. so...God is good!

I saw them for pizza tonight. went well. I'll see them again tomorrow. My parents are...good, good, good people. I think a lot of the counselors and therapists helped warp my mind and then when they weren't getting $$$$, they turned on me (true story). Truth is...

my parents had high stress, upwardly mobile jobs/careers. i was queer and awkward and didn't fit in with anybody. God's made good of it. I Mean...I probably do have what the "experts" call "Schizophrenia," but...whatevs. not everyone has 110% mental stability here on earth.

ok. thanks. seriously. im looking forward to moving, already....not that this place is terrible, just...it never felt like home, it doesn't feel like home now, and...yeah. moving on, by God's grace, basically...

 

[ezrider]

God is good! I think...I think they just want me to -do- more, especially my dad. I"m not complaining...I think the deal is he doesn't want me totally dependent on disability and them, indefinitely. thing is...

I wouldn't be so hard on yourself. You have expressed yourself very openly and honestly and it is obvious that your parents love you very much. I am not a parent myself so I really can not speak to that. But I do not think so much that it is they don't want you to be totally dependent upon them, but rather they understand all to well that the time will some day come where they will no longer be there for you, and they only wish to see you in a position where they will be at peace that you will be sufficient in managing your affairs with a support group that is there hold you up your efforts.

Think of Jesus and his disciples when he told them that he would not always be with them, and how he prepared them for it. And for all that, can you imaging the fear that overcame them at that moment? And yet they persevered and built upon what he had given them.

Keep the faith!!!
God bless you and your parents.

 

[Christ_empowered]

me again. Looking forward to the condo, but...I'm comfortable here, too. I think the condo might have a bit more room, but...not a whole, whole lot more...which is good, cuz...I'm not looking to be cleaning for hours straight on.

My parents love me and they want me to be able to do more for myself when they're not around. That much is clear. I don't sense much in the way of anger or...anything bad, from them, not now...and that's a miracle.

my own anger and general nastiness is down a whole lot, thanks to Christ.

so...yeah. moving on, even moving up a bit...all by the grace of God.