It's sad that you arrived here to CFnet with an ulterior motive, and that was to present as truth a scenario that was completely filled with lies. That is truly sad,
Mekros.
As you've seen in this thread, there were people willing to discuss your original post's premise with you. They weren't being judgmental, just open and honest about their own situations.
Perhaps there was a bit of caution in the discussion. Most of our membership have been witness to and/or were on the receiving end of comments that were abusive and attacked our Christian faith. So when you introduced yourself as a satanist, and then went on to ask about 'close minded christians', there would naturally have been some scepticism as to whether you were sincere or no.
When you opened up and told us the truth about you, I read a lot of teenage angst. No offense, but I'm glad I'm my age as opposed to your age! I have, however, raised 3 offspring to adulthood, and now one of my offspring is dealing with a 16-year-old. The world you are growing up in is quite different that what the world was like when I was your age.
Some advice for you: Turn off the devices and communicate with your friends in person. Ask your parents for a sit-down-at-the-dining-table-dinner, and talk with them. Discover what they were like when they were your age. What music did they prefer? What tv shows? What had they planned on doing when once done with high school. I'm just tossing some potential topics for you, in case they would help.
Something else: Return to reading your Bible. Doesn't matter if it's King James or American Standard. Our Lord never gives up on us!
Also, I don't know a single person whose life has been perfect. We're humans. We're not perfect. Hence our lives will not be perfect. But learning from our mistakes or our disabilities help to strengthen us, which helps us to grow up. None of us can really do anything without our Lord!