Christ_empowered
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Not saying I won't take meds. I will. I'm obligated to take meds "voluntarily" as terms of probation (beats being on the receiving end of a long acting injection), which will probably last another 3 1/2 years, barring a miracle from on high (its a misdemeanor...this much probation is rare...).
I guess I'm thinking out loud about self-concept. I'm dropping bipolar and all that from how I view myself, or getting there. I'm a Born Again child of God...I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me...I am more than a conqueror in Christ Jesus...it is no longer I who lives, it is Christ who lives in me...a spirit not of timidity, but of a sound mind...
I repeat these things to myself now, often out loud. As for meds...I mean, whatever. I think they're messing with my concentration, that's about the only problem I have.
Self-definition. But, thing is, I'm learning that I'm no longer defining myself; I'm getting to the point where I can allow Christ to define me, which is always a good thing. Christ didn't create junk, and He didn't bring me this far to destroy me.
So, yeah. Kinda rambling and thinking out loud here. The deal is...people go through things. I went through a lot that could have probably been avoided, both because of my own sins and also because shrinks are amazingly sadistic. Who knew?
I'm not an unrepentant sinner now. I've been forgiven because Christ lives inside my heart--apparently, all I had to do was ask, which is crazy--and now I can talk to God about things and I'm starting to hear, in a sense, what He has to say to me (of all people).
It freaks me out. Getting over the labels and all that...its not good therapy, its Jesus, and its just one of many blessings He's given and is giving me...without expecting anything in return. I'm not a mental patient, I'm not crazy...I'm a Born Again Christian who has been blessed with life and the opportunity to build a good life, despite everything.
File this under praise report.
I guess I'm thinking out loud about self-concept. I'm dropping bipolar and all that from how I view myself, or getting there. I'm a Born Again child of God...I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me...I am more than a conqueror in Christ Jesus...it is no longer I who lives, it is Christ who lives in me...a spirit not of timidity, but of a sound mind...
I repeat these things to myself now, often out loud. As for meds...I mean, whatever. I think they're messing with my concentration, that's about the only problem I have.
Self-definition. But, thing is, I'm learning that I'm no longer defining myself; I'm getting to the point where I can allow Christ to define me, which is always a good thing. Christ didn't create junk, and He didn't bring me this far to destroy me.
So, yeah. Kinda rambling and thinking out loud here. The deal is...people go through things. I went through a lot that could have probably been avoided, both because of my own sins and also because shrinks are amazingly sadistic. Who knew?
I'm not an unrepentant sinner now. I've been forgiven because Christ lives inside my heart--apparently, all I had to do was ask, which is crazy--and now I can talk to God about things and I'm starting to hear, in a sense, what He has to say to me (of all people).
It freaks me out. Getting over the labels and all that...its not good therapy, its Jesus, and its just one of many blessings He's given and is giving me...without expecting anything in return. I'm not a mental patient, I'm not crazy...I'm a Born Again Christian who has been blessed with life and the opportunity to build a good life, despite everything.
File this under praise report.
