Should I not dedicate my life to Jesus if I know for sure that I'm going to sin over & over again?

[nervex]

Hi I'm a married male in my 50s. I know my question probably doesn't even make sense as dedicating one's life to Jesus means not sinning, or at least trying not to sin. For many years I have felt drawn to live my life for Jesus, but I have not been saved because I know for sure that I'm going to sin again - and my life is a mess. I know everybody sins at some time, even those who have been saved, but I plan to sin. At certain times, I tell myself that I should pray to God and let Him know that I'm planning to sin but that I will spend more time praying than I will sinning. It just doesn't feel right though. When I say sin, I mean things like refusing to forgive certain people and looking at members of the opposite sex in an ungodly way and flirting. Should I start praying anyway and see if God can help me stop? I'll feel like a hypocrite. Thank you in advance to anyone who wants to weigh in on this.

 

[NeilJoseph]

Hi I'm a married male in my 50s. I know my question probably doesn't even make sense as dedicating one's life to Jesus means not sinning, or at least trying not to sin. For many years I have felt drawn to live my life for Jesus, but I have not been saved because I know for sure that I'm going to sin again - and my life is a mess. I know everybody sins at some time, even those who have been saved, but I plan to sin. At certain times, I tell myself that I should pray to God and let Him know that I'm planning to sin but that I will spend more time praying than I will sinning. It just doesn't feel right though. When I say sin, I mean things like refusing to forgive certain people and looking at members of the opposite sex in an ungodly way and flirting. Should I start praying anyway and see if God can help me stop? I'll feel like a hypocrite. Thank you in advance to anyone who wants to weigh in on this.

This is a post i could have written myself, i know how you feel. Im not very good with words but i will tell you what helped me
I came back to the Lord 3 years ago after a life of sinning, but i still continue to sin. My biggest shame is adultry, and twice in the past year the oppertunity has presented itself again and i almost gave in - but one thing stopped me. i asked myself "would the Lord approve", and instantly i refused and walked away. The feeling of letting the Lord down is much more important that physical pleasure
i am ashamed to say that i still look at women with lust, but i cannot stop no matter how hard i try. And here is my biggest shame and regret. I was in church a few weeks ago and thought a gentleman near me was "a scruffy #####". instantly i was filled with hatered for myself and shame to judge another person. For days i felt i had let the Lord down and prayed for forgiveness. I had judged a person and my shame was terrible, but i feel the Lord will forgive me because i know i sinned and im trying to be a better person and serve him better
Whenever my temptations arise or i think thoughts i shouldnt, as i said i just ask myself "would the Lord approve" - try thinking that it works for me
Apologies if ive gone off track a little. keep trying, keep praying, the Lord knows you are weak but he loves you and is always with you