Christ_empowered
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...well, now she's more of a friendly acquaintance. When I was in darkness, she was doing her education. She's got her masters degree now, and she's moved to another country. These days, she's married, has a young child, and...wow. She's maybe 1, 2 years younger than me, and she's one of those bona fide "grown ups" I keep hearing so much about.
When I got genuinely saved, things turned awkward between us, rather quickly. I don't know why. When I thought/assumed I was a Christian (long story...), things were copasetic. I got genuinely saved (miracle!), and...whoa. At times, she was straight up harsh.
That was a while ago, though. I'm just kind of nervous about seeing her, I guess. The last time I saw her was a couple years ago, over Christmas and New Year's time. She was friendly enough, all things considered. Actually...now that I think about it, the last time I saw her may have been about the time The Lord began changing me both inside and out (different personality, much healthier, etc.).
OK. I am looking forward to her visit, but...clearly, there's some of those (awesome) "mixed emotions" going on here, too. When she visits, I'll probably also end up seeing other "friends" I killed time with back in the day, when I was -very- sick (physically, mentally...the whole shebang...), before I got sent off to a Pentecostal Rehab program (Praise God!), and before The Lord worked a miracle and I got truly (no, really...) saved.
I just ask that your pray that my light will shine, even if I run into some opposition/negative reactions. I cannot complain, at all; God is good to me, and He has been, even when I was stuck in darkness. Plus, at a strictly practical level, my parents and I have reconciled (miracle!), and they're higher status now, so...even when people clearly have a problem with me, I get a little bit of "breathing room" that most "mental patients" (especially ones w/ my lovely backstory...) don't get.
Thank you for your prayers and support.
When I got genuinely saved, things turned awkward between us, rather quickly. I don't know why. When I thought/assumed I was a Christian (long story...), things were copasetic. I got genuinely saved (miracle!), and...whoa. At times, she was straight up harsh.
That was a while ago, though. I'm just kind of nervous about seeing her, I guess. The last time I saw her was a couple years ago, over Christmas and New Year's time. She was friendly enough, all things considered. Actually...now that I think about it, the last time I saw her may have been about the time The Lord began changing me both inside and out (different personality, much healthier, etc.).
OK. I am looking forward to her visit, but...clearly, there's some of those (awesome) "mixed emotions" going on here, too. When she visits, I'll probably also end up seeing other "friends" I killed time with back in the day, when I was -very- sick (physically, mentally...the whole shebang...), before I got sent off to a Pentecostal Rehab program (Praise God!), and before The Lord worked a miracle and I got truly (no, really...) saved.
I just ask that your pray that my light will shine, even if I run into some opposition/negative reactions. I cannot complain, at all; God is good to me, and He has been, even when I was stuck in darkness. Plus, at a strictly practical level, my parents and I have reconciled (miracle!), and they're higher status now, so...even when people clearly have a problem with me, I get a little bit of "breathing room" that most "mental patients" (especially ones w/ my lovely backstory...) don't get.
Thank you for your prayers and support.