Hi
ShadesOfApril I too like your avatar. It looks like my Daisey Mae, but very colorful.
There are many times I would just like to cuddle up in a ball and shut out everything, but know if I do I would also shut out Jesus and that would be a hugh mistake as I did get to a place in my life many years ago where I did shut him out, but one of His greatest promises is that He will never leave us or forsake us. Jesus is even now right their with you waiting for you to unburden yourself to Him so He can give you rest and bring joy back into your life.
You need to find a quite place where you will not be disturbed and just pour your whole heart out to him until there is nothing left to pour. After you are done, just sit there in silence and let the Lord speak to your heart as He will reveal himself to you if you give Him the chance. Here are a few scriptures for you to read and please spend more time in the word of God and also here so we can help you grow in the Lord. God loves you and we love you and want to help
Matthew 11:28 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
Matthew 11:29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.
Matthew 11:30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.
1Peter 5:6 Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time:
1Peter 5:7 Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.
1Peter 5:8 Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:
1Peter 5:9 Whom resist stedfast in the faith, knowing that the same afflictions are accomplished in your brethren that are in the world.
1Peter 5:10 But the God of all grace, who hath called us unto his eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect, stablish, strengthen, settle you.
1Peter 5:11 To him be glory and dominion for ever and ever. Amen.