This is where faith comes in though, believing w/out seeing, and believe me, once you start doing this, you will see things happen. You have to see it for yourself, I realize that, another person can not hand off faith to another person, but we can pray and I will stand with Rockie and pray for you, too.
I do not know what kind of church you went to, but yes, some do this to "prove" their doctrine and that is why so many people have left the church. I did go through a period of doubts, like many people, but what I was doing was looking to the church building and criticizing it, but placing God in there with it, too. God is not a church building, as I am sure you know, but people tend to look at the church building and the things they do and place that onto God.
Yes, very well put! People can see God as the church building and all that goes on inside is "from God" and that is not always true. Bad "churches" can do alot of harm to people.
D - yes, I do see the difference, as a Christian, being in rebellion is not my opinion though, it would be a fact and God would let me know.