[__ Prayer __] Thoughts...

[Angel]

It seems that I am more sad than any other feeling I experience.

I feel a weight in my head, and my chest.

Lord, I just want peace.

I want to be at peace with myself. I don't want to be so manipulated by the negative feelings that come and go.

The hurt never really goes away.

I want my life back! I want to have peace like I did when I was a child. I want to enjoy my life.

I'm not sure how God will help me.

Will I always be this way, Lord?

I'm always trying to find a different solution to the same problems. It seems like whatever I come up with fades quickly and I have to change my perspective or I get sick. The pain of the past is holding me down and ruining my life.

My life has been stolen from me, and I can't pursue my dreams because of it. I sometimes wish I could fall asleep and not wake up. How I would love to just be with Jesus... I need more love from God but I don't know how to receive it.

I don't know how to be confident.

I don't know what to do with my life.

And whats worse is that I love others. I truly, genuinely, care about people who are suffering. I want to hold them in my arms like a mother. I want to be wealthy so I can feed and clothe and help people in any way I can.

I don;t know.

*sigh*

 

[Eugene]

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Isa 66:12 For thus saith the LORD, Behold, I will extend peace to her like a river . .

Dear Sister Angel, God’s voice and message to us is that He loves us: I LOVE YOU, Jesus is that proof.
Son 2:4 He brought me to the banqueting house, and his banner over me was love. This is God’s very victory flag, and as He brings you and Matt for your sake though these trials of life, He is conforming and molding you into the very image of Jesus. The sufferings are conditioning you to be a joint heir as a bride without comparison.

The joys many want never bring the peace that passes understanding, and your very testimony such as being kept from becoming a drug addict is an example of that fact. My prayer for you is that our Father restore unto you those things and thoughts of childhood that also made you happy without denying you His best through the experience He is allowing in your life now; I hope I said this right. Thank You Father, and I give You the praise for this dear sister among us in Jesus’ name. Amen.
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[iLOVE]

The Holy Spirit is waiting for a Believer to say, "I can't do this." And He will respond, "That's what I have been waiting for, so I can do it for you!" Lift your hands to the sky and say Jesus help me!

 

[AirDancer]

Ah, my dear friend, your lamentations remind me of various Psalms where the writer is praying for our Lord's help with assorted challenges.

They also remind me of myself at different points in my life. At one point of sheer frustration, I rather boldly 'asked' our Lord for a black & white hard copy that told me how matters would be resolved, along with a time-line so I would know what to expect to happen when. I truly to this day believe I heard our Lord chuckling at my demands.

His answer to me: Ecclesiastes 3: 1-8 .

That has become a most vital and important lifeline to me. Good times, not so good times...doesn't matter. I know our Lord won't abandon me. There is a time for everything, and everything is possible with our Lord!

 

[Angel]

Thank you for direction everyone. God bless.

 

[th1b.taylor]

It seems that I am more sad than any other feeling I experience.

I feel a weight in my head, and my chest.

Lord, I just want peace.

I want to be at peace with myself. I don't want to be so manipulated by the negative feelings that come and go.

The hurt never really goes away.

I want my life back! I want to have peace like I did when I was a child. I want to enjoy my life.

I'm not sure how God will help me.

Will I always be this way, Lord?

I'm always trying to find a different solution to the same problems. It seems like whatever I come up with fades quickly and I have to change my perspective or I get sick. The pain of the past is holding me down and ruining my life.

My life has been stolen from me, and I can't pursue my dreams because of it. I sometimes wish I could fall asleep and not wake up. How I would love to just be with Jesus... I need more love from God but I don't know how to receive it.

I don't know how to be confident.

I don't know what to do with my life.

And whats worse is that I love others. I truly, genuinely, care about people who are suffering. I want to hold them in my arms like a mother. I want to be wealthy so I can feed and clothe and help people in any way I can.

I don;t know.

*sigh*

Good evening Angel,
There is a thing I know for a certainity and I feel it the one thing I believe you need in your lifestyle. This will begin with it sounding as though I'm weeping and weak but there is nothing further from the truth.

I grew up begging my older brother to kill my birth father because he would beat my mother to a bloody pulp. And if that is not bad enough I was repeatedly, homosexually rapped before I was seven, but it got much better because at ten my mother married a second husband, my dad. She eventually got around to divorcing the first so that worked.

My mother, because dad liked banking his money discovered how to have unlimited funding by Hanging Paper all over the state. She hung so much paper that she did 19 turns in Prison, 9 of them before I joined the Army and thirteen of them in Texas, my home. Being a good looking lady, I'm sure you can relate to this: Visiting mom on Sunday, walking across the parking lot in my uniform and the three or four story, I don't even recall, building exploded in cat calls and with filthy things the different girls wanted to do to my body.

And then there was Vietnam! I volunteered to leave my nice safe job, flying a General from meeting to meeting in Germany to go save people's lives and to give the Little People the right to live in a Free World, that never happened. I did have the opportunity to hold a 5 to 6 month old baby boy that died in my arms before we could fly our ship to the Hospital ten minutes or less away. And I learned why Aviators landed their helicopters in the shallows of rivers. There is absolutely no better method of washing the blood, guts and/or brain matter off the floor, the sides of the ship and yourself.

But that was all part of the experience of war. Arriving in San Francisco, I never expected, the day before Thanksgiving to wipe spit from between my eyes, but neither did I anticipate a fool fifty foot away attempting to shoot me by firing all six bullets at me and I really never expected that out of better than fifteen hoodlums I grew up with that only two would even allow me to buy them a beer.

But I do not weep for any of these things. It has, oft, correctly been said that God cannot, properly use a man or a woman until He has broken them and you see, I purchased a new Guitar and Amp and I went on stage, that stuff hardened me! What it did was it set my pride into the Apex of my world so that when the time was right, God could crush it, save me, pierce my ear with His Spiritual Awl and to make me His servant.

Please, don't get me wrong, every fall I remember Paul Edgar Hienen and from time to time I remember Mr. or Warrant Officer Kelly, the two men Top murdered and never paid for the baby Vietnamese makes me weep to this day, instantly but I can do anything God requires without fear, today. God, out of all the bad has made good. And He is still working on both of us.

May God bless youngster.

 

[Angel]

Wow... You have an incredible testimony.. To survive all that!

Your hope gives me hope.

 

[th1b.taylor]

Wow... You have an incredible testimony.. To survive all that!

Your hope gives me hope.

As long as you let God He will see you through anything. He just did it again and maybe later I will explain that to you. But the main thing ie to remember that only you get to choose how you react to anything. And I'm certain from our short friendship that you, like myself, do not want to ever give Satan a leg up.

God has blessed you and He is making you strong.

 

[Angel]

As long as you let God He will see you through anything. He just did it again and maybe later I will explain that to you. But the main thing ie to remember that only you get to choose how you react to anything. And I'm certain from our short friendship that you, like myself, do not want to ever give Satan a leg up.

God has blessed you and He is making you strong.

This is really helpful. I felt like I had no say nor power but you have taught me that I do. That is very valuable. Thanks.

 

[th1b.taylor]

This is really helpful. I felt like I had no say nor power but you have taught me that I do. That is very valuable. Thanks.

May God bless, sweet lady, your young man is blessed to have you by his side.

 

[wwjd_kilden]

Hear my cry O God, attend to my prayer
from the end of the earth I cry to you
when my heart is overwhelmed
lead me to the rock that is higher than I
(Psalm 61 v1-2, dunno what version, we aren't as occupied with that up in the cold north)

 

[Marianne333]

It seems that I am more sad than any other feeling I experience.

I feel a weight in my head, and my chest.

Lord, I just want peace.

I want to be at peace with myself. I don't want to be so manipulated by the negative feelings that come and go.

The hurt never really goes away.

I want my life back! I want to have peace like I did when I was a child. I want to enjoy my life.

I'm not sure how God will help me.

Will I always be this way, Lord?

I'm always trying to find a different solution to the same problems. It seems like whatever I come up with fades quickly and I have to change my perspective or I get sick. The pain of the past is holding me down and ruining my life.

My life has been stolen from me, and I can't pursue my dreams because of it. I sometimes wish I could fall asleep and not wake up. How I would love to just be with Jesus... I need more love from God but I don't know how to receive it.

I don't know how to be confident.

I don't know what to do with my life.

And whats worse is that I love others. I truly, genuinely, care about people who are suffering. I want to hold them in my arms like a mother. I want to be wealthy so I can feed and clothe and help people in any way I can.

I don;t know.

*sigh*

I am really sorry to hear that you are feeling sad. Will pray for you.

 

[turnorburn]

You'll love him when you put these two together...

Jeremiah 32:27 Behold, I am the LORD, the God of all flesh: is there any thing too hard for me?

Matthew 11:28 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.

29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.

30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

 

[Angel]

I am really sorry to hear that you are feeling sad. Will pray for you.

Thanks

 

[Marianne333]

Thanks

No problem. I hope you are feeling better. I'll keep you in my prayers.

 

[Angel]

I am. Thanks