I suppose some of you may be wondering why I haven't been on.. Honestly, I've been having relapses with my major depression (I know fun right?), been talking with my counsler and my boyfriends, and been doing a lot of thinking. And the other day while listening to some music I had an disturbing thought..my thought was 'I think I'm ready' but really who am I kidding? I'm not ready yet, I'm still "sinning" I still have questions..I'm still at square one. I was given advice by a friend, but in all respects I am having trouble taking the advice given..