Christminded18
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Years ago i liked this girl, she came from a Christian background and i just ended up falling for her hard, it ended with her rejecting me and i just moved on but about 3ish years ago we became friends again. She got really went wild after we stopped talking and is currently not in good shape spiritually (I'm not living the best lifestyle atm either but i still believe everything i was taught and love the Lord.). Since years ago i nnever seemed to like anyone else like i did with her. At one point when i liked her i swore she was the one, and when it all crashed down it was a hard pill to swallow. Throughout the years i would find someone attractive but anytime she entered my mind it'd suck any desire to like that person out of me and i couldn't help but realize it's like i can't seem to like anyone else. I had thought I'd been over her now for a long time but it's like idk i just can't like anyone like i have with her. Recently we with two other friends went ice skating and i casually helped/taught her skate and held her hand most of the time and idk it kinda stirred up some old feelings and i tried to put them in their place but now every time she comes to mind the holy spirit just digs at me to pray for her in some way, i can't get any peace until and stop what I'm doing and pray for her and her current lifestyle. I know this sounds like I'm obsessed or i "can't let go" but it's not my choice, i shouldn't like her, she's not even wife or any relationship material atm but it's like out of my control cause I've came up with lists of things i find unattractive about her, given myself reason after reason and the feelings won't go away and now I'm being urged to pray for her and it's just making those feelings worse. I need advice.