[__ Prayer __] can't find way out of hell on earth

[Mosheli]

I'm at my wit's end. My "life" and this regime/system at present and this past number of years (and decades and life) is just like hell on earth and I just can not find how to get any answer/help from 'God' or Jesus/Yeshua. I can't list all the numerous longongoing constant daily mean cruel hell things, and when I have people aren't be able to see that they are far worse than they think. This last number of weeks on top of everything else there has been constant clouds and rain and some thunder/lightning and it is so cold and dark and damp. Please is there anything anyone can pray or tell me that can help? I don't want just trite things like oh have faith, God loves you, etc, not "go to the mental health services", as they don't help much/long. Note I am suffering these things all alone without any support/help/love/encouragement from friends/family/christians, I am not able to get out much and I see no positive human face contact 24/7 most weeks of the last years/decades, and what churches/groups I did try a few years ago I did not find very good fellowship etc. (My name is Sean B in NZ if anyone can pray, though I guess God knows who 'Mosheli' is. Maybe if he doesn't answer my prayers he may answer other better christians/messianics?)

 

[hawkman]

I am going to sit outside in the dark in my front right now and pray for you . My normal place of prayer .

 

[Christ_empowered]

hi. life can be...frustrating. -what wisdom- , I know. :-(

I'm not getting much in the way of true, genuine...anything...from other Christians. I don't...get it, honestly. when I was down and out, I think maybe some -- note: -some- -- Christians would talk to me and have a form of pity, etc. then...well, I think part of it was hitting 35 and also...The Lord's handiwork in my life resulted in real life transformation and such, so...

blah blah blah. Point is, a lot a lot a lot of other Christians just...we don't seem, as a group, to ever live up to even 1/2 of our hype. I don't pretend to understand, and I don't, either.

I have all kinds of stigmatizing psych labels. God has seen fit to make good of it, Romans 8:28 -- style, so I'm able to bear up under the lies, labels, and general...crazy talk...

but I -do- agree that one should avoid the mental health industry, when possible.

I will pray for you, of course. Jesus has overcome the world, but He even tells us that we will have trouble in this fallen world.

 

[daninthelionsden]

I'm at my wit's end. My "life" and this regime/system at present and this past number of years (and decades and life) is just like hell on earth and I just can not find how to get any answer/help from 'God' or Jesus/Yeshua. I can't list all the numerous longongoing constant daily mean cruel hell things, and when I have people aren't be able to see that they are far worse than they think. This last number of weeks on top of everything else there has been constant clouds and rain and some thunder/lightning and it is so cold and dark and damp. Please is there anything anyone can pray or tell me that can help? I don't want just trite things like oh have faith, God loves you, etc, not "go to the mental health services", as they don't help much/long. Note I am suffering these things all alone without any support/help/love/encouragement from friends/family/christians, I am not able to get out much and I see no positive human face contact 24/7 most weeks of the last years/decades, and what churches/groups I did try a few years ago I did not find very good fellowship etc. (My name is Sean B in NZ if anyone can pray, though I guess God knows who 'Mosheli' is. Maybe if he doesn't answer my prayers he may answer other better christians/messianics?)

When all the attempted murders, beatings, molestations, attempted rape, verbal, emotional, psychological, spiritual childhood abuse memories get to me, I turn to, what I call music therapy. KSBJ radio is a Christian station that has an online streaming option one can listen to. Most of their music is uplifting. I also listen to secular music (really like Rachel Platten cuz she's all heart). I have spent much of my childhood alone to escape abuse. I disappear into a movie or a story if I can. I don't drink or use drugs anymore.....no answers in that stuff. Psalms, in the Bible, helps me see that even people of God can be distraught. C.S. Lewis, a great atheist turned Christian, suffered anxiety. Jordan Peterson, another atheist turned Christian, has helpful videos on Youtube. I take short naps to reset my mind. I take each day as its own and try not to let them blur into a glob of endless days on end of misery/hopelessness. I still read military books (guess they were my way of fighting back). I wrote a Christian fantasy book. Some like sculpting/painting/drawing/singing. If I could, I would make movies. I try not to think about politics too much nor the disaster society is becoming. I pray a lot. Contemplate God's Word and His ways. He can force us into a corner to bring us to our knees before Him. Praying for His peace to ease your mind/spirit.

 

[Christ_empowered]

do you have any family or -close- friends you might be able to contact?

I have a born again cousin. not close, but...he's in the ministry, and we've been emailing here and there, since I got truly saved nearly 10 years ago. -quite helpful-

distractions...can help. i can only read so much, but TV is a no go for me, right now. not "too good" for TV, just...blah. the news is bland, the sitcoms and dramas are predictable, and the documentaries and true crime are...well, also predictable, lol. I think this happens when one takes an extended break from TV? try to go back, and...it seems foreign, somehow. blah.

but yeah. not for me, but other people say bland, fluffy TV...HGTV, Hallmark, Animal Planet...helpful. makes sense.

 

[Mosheli]

do you have any family or -close- friends you might be able to contact?

I have a born again cousin. not close, but...he's in the ministry, and we've been emailing here and there, since I got truly saved nearly 10 years ago. -quite helpful-

distractions...can help. i can only read so much, but TV is a no go for me, right now. not "too good" for TV, just...blah. the news is bland, the sitcoms and dramas are predictable, and the documentaries and true crime are...well, also predictable, lol. I think this happens when one takes an extended break from TV? try to go back, and...it seems foreign, somehow. blah.

but yeah. not for me, but other people say bland, fluffy TV...HGTV, Hallmark, Animal Planet...helpful. makes sense.

I don't have much family around and they are scattered. My parents split up and I was fostered out and went through half a dozen foster parents placements. Not many friends as I have not been able to get out much in last decades due to location and OCD and studies. What christian and other friends/family I had mostly cut me off for me sending too many emails saying how bad things were. I agree about TV, I don't have one but I do miss having something easy to do like watching something as a break and time filler since not much else to do except try study or be on computer/net.

Thanks for everyones responses which I all appreciate. The weather/storm outside looks like it is maybe clearing up after days & weeks which is at least something. (It got worse since the OP the last 1-2 days until today!) I know I can't expect too much prayers as everyone has their own problems and there are many other people in world who also need prayers, so/but I will try to have faith in Jesus that he will help and things not be so awfully bad. That is pretty awful/sad what Danielinthelionsden has gone through, and you others too, I hope/pray the Lord blesses and keeps you as I hope he will me too.

 

[for_his_glory]

Hi Mosheli

What you need to find is that love of God that surpasses all understanding.

I believe it is in our darkest hours, whether it be physical mental conditions of the mind, or just having social anxiety issues that makes one feel there is nothing for them and no one to really reach out to that would really care us about our problems. But you have taken the first step out of your darkness by reaching out to us and starting to have fellowship with believers in Christ. It might not be face to face, but keyboard to keyboard can allow us to share things we are afraid to talk about.

Just open your heart to the Lord and get to know Him in a personal way that you have never seen Him before as He will never leave you nor forsake you. When praying just talk to Jesus like He is your best friend as He really is and wants your friendship and fellowship, but also be still long enough for Him to speak to your heart.

We are here for you and you can be free to ask us questions as you start your journey in getting to know Him better.

God bless you and I am for you.

 

[hawkman]

Mosheli , I have been praying for everyone that has posted on this thread for different needs they have . YOU are on my list for prayer .