[__ Prayer __] can't shake these voices

[Brother Mike]

Thanks, everyone.

The voices wax and wane in intensity. Sometimes, its not so terrible. Other times, its hard to do much of anything. I've been praying for God's help with all this. I dunno...on the one hand, it would seem that mental illness would be the easiest thing to cure/fix. Its severe emotional distress and problems that kind of take over one's life. Nobody ever died from Schizophrenia or Bipolar. On the other hand...sometimes, I think I've gotten so used to the voices that I may somehow be engaging them. I mean, I'm not happy about what they say about me, but the way they loop and loop in my mind makes me wonder if I'm feeding into it somehow, through thoughts or sins or...you get the picture.

...a spirit not of timidity, but of a sound mind. Amen. I've been focusing on that lately and it helps a lot. Doing online college helps...I mean, sometimes its hard, because I'm hearing voies and I have to take quizzes and write papers, but...beats the alternative, being alone all the time doing not much of anything and being haunted by voices. At least I get some intellectual stimulation and maybe, just maybe, I'll be able to use that degree.

Its rough, too, to realize...yes, I am in fact hallucinating. Don't get me wrong; the neighbors give me a hard time, which probably feeds into all of this. Take up your plow and don't look back...I reflect and ruminate upon the past too much.

Anyway...I'm just trying to move forward. I did well on a quiz last night. The written part hasn't been graded, but I only missed 1 question on the multiple choice section, so that's good. Progress, progress, progress...

Thanks again.

I am glad your meditating on the fact the scripture says you have the Spirit of peace and sound mind. I hear voices sometimes also, nobody around, and a muffled talking or something in the distance. It don't happen a lot, but devils sound just like that. Muffled, not making sense, and just running on about nothing. What moves you and gets you out of shape is what will continue to happen because the devil can only hang out in areas you give him a place to hang out.

Like when my daughter was missing, I very clearly heard, God will not come through this time, you will never see your daughter alive again. I said go tell someone that cares devil, the Word says this and my God will perfect those things that concern me.

There are very anointed men and women here, and some adivce you have been given did not just come from us, but through the Lord to you. You need to focus on these answers and start being a doer and not just hearing and going on about your life with the same old problems you post about all the time. You want completely free, then you have to grab the truth,and focus on that. The truth will make you free of all these things, and the Word of God always comes to pass and prospers those that believe it, and take heed to what God said.

Also take no heed unto all words that are spoken; lest thou hear thy servant curse thee: For oftentimes also thine own heart knoweth that thou thyself likewise hast cursed others.
(Ecc 7:21-22)

Stop talking about your Neighbours, and other people!!! Who cares what they said. You continue, you have to have it come back to you again. You have to reap what you have sown, and you have to get judged the same as you have judged.

Psa_31:20 Thou shalt hide them in the secret of thy presence from the pride of man: thou shalt keep them secretly in a pavilion from the strife of tongues.

God said he would hide you, keep you from the pride of man, keep you safe from their evil speaking. Your not agreeing with God on this here. You want this scripture to be true in your life, so just stop rambling on about the same things and start saying that God has kept you from the strife of tongues, and has kept people from even noticing you.

Psa_4:8 I will both lay me down in peace, and sleep: for thou, LORD, only makest me dwell in safety.
And my people shall dwell in a peaceable habitation, and in sure dwellings, and in quiet resting places;
(Isa 32:18)

Where you live, you have peace and sure dwelling places. It's quiet, no voices, no distractions, the Lord said it, it's true for you. Start saying my neighbours like me and I have favour with them. The town likes me, I get along with everyone.

When a man's ways please the LORD, he maketh even his enemies to be at peace with him.
(Pro 16:7)

Write these down, put them in your pocket, bill fold, keep them with you, This is the truth, not the things you have been saying. Agree with the truth, not what you experience.

Mike.

 

[Christ_empowered]

OK. I can do this. So, when I meet w/ my PO early this week...just go in, smile, and don't fret.

 

[AirDancer]

OK. I can do this. So, when I meet w/ my PO early this week...just go in, smile, and don't fret.

You're on the right path

 

[Christ_empowered]

oh man....I'm getting better. I've had 0 contact w/ the victim in my harassment case and I obviously haven't go near here (she lives in a completely different part of the state). I'm compliant w/ meds and counseling. I really just...fear. If you violate probation, do you get arrested? Arrested at the probation place?

 

[AirDancer]

Have no fear with you walk with our Lord. As long as you are doing what you are supposed to do, then you have nothing to fear.

 

[Christ_empowered]

yes...I'm being unreasonable.

In good news...my dad and I went for a drive through the countryside today, as we often do on a sunday. I felt so much better during and after. We made plans to go to church this coming Sunday. My mama...she's a little more distant, but she's warming up to me. Sometimes, I think some of my "symptoms" come from being estranged from my parents for so long (not their fault, just sayin'...it was rough).

Breathe deep. My PO obviously knows where to find me. If she had a problem with me, I'd know by now. Breathe deep....

 

[AirDancer]

Trust me, my friend. If there was any violation of your probation, you would know about it....and quickly. The violation would not be put aside until you saw your PO.

Deep cleansing breath .... and 100% complete & utter faith in our Lord God!

 

[Christ_empowered]

so, I'm becoming more rational. God works on us directly and also through other, more indirect means (read: meds aren't the enemy, afterall).

The PO was nice enough. Its a first offense, class A misdemeanor. I haven't done anything to upset her or gotten in any trouble, all the monies are paid on time, so on and so forth, so...she's on to the next person.

I really don't have anything to fear. I'm finally beginning to realize: these are voices, and they're fading, by God's grace. I remember...for a while there...I'd get lost in the thoughts and also hallucinations, so lost that I forgot: this isn't normal. Now, I'm more normal than ever, and the voices have less and less of a hold on my life.

Stress makes these sorts of things worse, as one would expect. I'm blessed to live in a very comfortable house with people who care about me. In America...man, we put crazy people out on the streets. The shrinks wring their hands and complain about "stigma" or whatever, when often...they've contributed to the problem, too.

Thanks for your prayers.