Christ_empowered
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yeah...-sigh- everybody's got an agenda in education, it seems. colleges included, of course.
state schools were rough enough during my initial attempt at a degree. now...wow. just...not a good environment, and it seems that the economic rewards/incentive for going thru a 4 year program aren't as strong as they once were, either.
of course, my perspective-- as a 'severely mentally ill' individual who was considered 'riff raff' from day 1...i just lived in such a bubble that i didnt get it-- is somewhat unusual. now, at 34...looking at 35 in the not so distant future (and soon in the mirror, too)...
i kinda wonder if perhaps -in my own, individual case- its for the best that i didnt complete a degree from that school. 1st time i left...2nd time, coming back in my early 20s, i was basically driven out....
and things had changed, already. part of it was that i was no longer 17-19, of course. but...i remember, in this one class, they'd started having everyone work together, in groups...even on tests. i made higher grades than those in my group on the tests, because even tho i was sick and psychotic, etc...i (somehow) knew the material better, and i wasn't about to get 'group think"-ed into a lower grade. other thing...
there had been 'back to school' people in their 30s, even 40s, when i was there, 1st time around. nope. not 2nd time. at 23, i was regarded as 'too old,' already.
blah. just some experiences, thoughts, observations.
state schools were rough enough during my initial attempt at a degree. now...wow. just...not a good environment, and it seems that the economic rewards/incentive for going thru a 4 year program aren't as strong as they once were, either.
of course, my perspective-- as a 'severely mentally ill' individual who was considered 'riff raff' from day 1...i just lived in such a bubble that i didnt get it-- is somewhat unusual. now, at 34...looking at 35 in the not so distant future (and soon in the mirror, too)...
i kinda wonder if perhaps -in my own, individual case- its for the best that i didnt complete a degree from that school. 1st time i left...2nd time, coming back in my early 20s, i was basically driven out....
and things had changed, already. part of it was that i was no longer 17-19, of course. but...i remember, in this one class, they'd started having everyone work together, in groups...even on tests. i made higher grades than those in my group on the tests, because even tho i was sick and psychotic, etc...i (somehow) knew the material better, and i wasn't about to get 'group think"-ed into a lower grade. other thing...
there had been 'back to school' people in their 30s, even 40s, when i was there, 1st time around. nope. not 2nd time. at 23, i was regarded as 'too old,' already.
blah. just some experiences, thoughts, observations.