Come death, come

[Oats]

i feel like dying. it's no point-- i can't celebrate thanksgiving-- screw that anyway. but no one in my life has ever understood me

because of my schizophrenia people under estimate me-- screw them

i love people and they laugh in my face-- i hope they go to hell


i'll take my other 50% with death

bye

 

[theLords]

Sweetheart, call this number

Need help? In the U.S., call 1-800-273-825

They have trained professionals who do actually understand what you are going through. Many of us may not, but they do.

Read the Word out loud, Satan flees from the hearing of the Word.

You're going to be okay. You are in the hands of Jesus Christ.

Praying

 

[stovebolts]

Oats,

I understand what you're feeling. Really, I do and I'm not just saying that to make you feel better. Listen,...
My mother deals with much of the same issues as you do, except back in the day instead of racking you full of thorazine and other psychotropics, they put you on the table and pushed voltage though ya... Yeah, she got it twice, then came the meds. Not to minimize what you feel Oats, but at least I can hold a conversation with you tat makes sense. It isn't that way with my Mom.

It took me a long, long time to understand my Mother and honestly, there were times growing up that I didn't like her. I mean, I loved her because she was my mother, but I didn't like her because of the way she acted. I know that I caused my mother great pain because as a Mother, she wanted to see her kids, but as a son, I remember saying, "I don't want to see her..." and it wasn't until I was in my mid 20's that I had a yearning to get to know her. I rejected her, and I hurt her.

But I didn't do it because I hated her. I did it because I didn't know, or understand her.

So why am I saying this to you? I dont' really know, but the spirit is telling me you need to hear this and maybe you'll find some comfort knowing that you're not the only one that's been hurt because of other people... people that maybe you love, but they just don't understand you.

It took me a long time to understand my Mom. Don't get me wrong, I've always accepted my Mom for the way she was, but it's not the same and understanding her.

My prayers are with you brother, and have a safe weekend.

God bless,
Jeff

 

[Oats]

Oats,

I understand what you're feeling. Really, I do and I'm not just saying that to make you feel better. Listen,...
My mother deals with much of the same issues as you do, except back in the day instead of racking you full of thorazine and other psychotropics, they put you on the table and pushed voltage though ya... Yeah, she got it twice, then came the meds. Not to minimize what you feel Oats, but at least I can hold a conversation with you tat makes sense. It isn't that way with my Mom.

It took me a long, long time to understand my Mother and honestly, there were times growing up that I didn't like her. I mean, I loved her because she was my mother, but I didn't like her because of the way she acted. I know that I caused my mother great pain because as a Mother, she wanted to see her kids, but as a son, I remember saying, "I don't want to see her..." and it wasn't until I was in my mid 20's that I had a yearning to get to know her. I rejected her, and I hurt her.

But I didn't do it because I hated her. I did it because I didn't know, or understand her.

So why am I saying this to you? I dont' really know, but the spirit is telling me you need to hear this and maybe you'll find some comfort knowing that you're not the only one that's been hurt because of other people... people that maybe you love, but they just don't understand you.

It took me a long time to understand my Mom. Don't get me wrong, I've always accepted my Mom for the way she was, but it's not the same and understanding her.

My prayers are with you brother, and have a safe weekend.

God bless,
Jeff

so i have have to deal with mental and emotional pain-- while in my house alone for thanksgiving

thats wrong


i might die....


this is why schizophrenics feel the way they do-- because people ignore and push us away we get nervous, well stay away or kill us off

Please, please kill me



crying

 

[theLords]

so i have have to deal with mental and emotional pain-- while in my house alone for thanksgiving

thats wrong


i might die....


this is why schizophrenics feel the way they do-- because people ignore and push us away we get nervous, well stay away or kill us off

Please, please kill me



crying

Sweetheart, you are not alone in your pain. If I could tell you some of the traumatic things I have experienced you would not believe me! (Well, you probably would) But my point is, you are not alone in this. The devil wants you to believe that you are alone, these dark thoughts are coming straight from him. Don't give in. Proclaim the Word. Put some worship music on. Begin to sing your praises to the Lord. (Call that number from my earlier post, it can really help you)

Invite the Lord Jesus to come and have Thanksgiving dinner with you. Symbolically, set a place for two if you'd like. His presence will show up.

Honey, you're confused right now. The enemy is attacking you and it's leaving you in disarray. I know you are a new Christian, and the enemy does not want you to remain a Christian. But our Lord Jesus is bigger than the enemy. He has defeated the enemy. The enemy trembles in fear at the sight of Jesus Christ. Don't fight this battle, you aren't equipped. Call upon the Holy of Holies to fight in your defense.

 

[Oats]

Sweetheart, you are not alone in your pain. If I could tell you some of the traumatic things I have experienced you would not believe me! (Well, you probably would) But my point is, you are not alone in this. The devil wants you to believe that you are alone, these dark thoughts are coming straight from him. Don't give in. Proclaim the Word. Put some worship music on. Begin to sing your praises to the Lord. (Call that number from my earlier post, it can really help you)

Invite the Lord Jesus to come and have Thanksgiving dinner with you. Set a place for two. He'll show up.

Honey, you're confused right now. The enemy is attacking you and it's leaving you in disarray. I know you are a new Christian, and the enemy does not want you to remain a Christian. But our Lord Jesus is bigger than the enemy. He has defeated the enemy. The enemy trembles in fear at the sight of Jesus Christ. Don't fight this battle, you aren't equipped. Call upon the Holy of Holies to fight in your defense.

....okay

 

[theLords]

....okay

Do you know what the Bible says about our enemy, the devil?

1 Peter 5:8 (New International Version)
Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.

Do you know how a lion hunts to kill his prey? He isolates one from the heard. He gets it alone so that he is defenseless.

This is what the enemy is trying to do to you. This is why you are experiencing this pain right now. Jesus will not let you fall prey to the enemy. He is the "Good Shepherd" who protects the sheep. Jesus Christ is with you, you are not alone.

 

[Cheyenne K]

I feel for you, Oats. I really do. I do not have schizophrenia but I have felt like that before and am sincerely praying and hoping that the Father help you rise above these feelings. I know how terrible they are, but, please, to put it in the words of Josh Wilson, "It's just the dark before the morning." I have a friend with schizophrenia who thought this way and attempted to jump in front of a train. She did not realize how many people on Earth would have missed her if she had succeeded, and it really hurts all of us that she felt this way.
You have an awesome personality. And you are loved by many people and the being who loves you the most out everyone in the whole wide world is the guy who created the entire universe. Even if people have hurt you, remember, they are but people. Other men. But God is not a man and God doesn't care if you have schizophrenia. He loves you for who you are and He has a purpose for you here on Earth. You are a great person and He will use you to reach out to other people. You may feel outcasted now, but you are a child of God and will always have a palce in His home. I can assure you that things will change and will get better, though God can do that better than me I am sure.


For the Lamb which is in the midst of the throne shall feed them, and shall lead them unto living fountains of waters: and God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes.
- Revelation 7:17

And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.
- Revelation 21:4

 

[lamplady]

Oats your post made me sad - will pray for you ... ... always will have you in my prayers ...

I'm sure God doesn't want you yet - please pray to him ...

 

[Danus]

....okay

Oats, can you tell us a little more about you? What's your family like? How do you spend your days? Do you take any medication for schizophrenia?

This is an anonymous forum. It's a safe place, and no one wants you to go away. Why don't you tell us more about your situation please.

 

[jasoncran]

so i have have to deal with mental and emotional pain-- while in my house alone for thanksgiving

thats wrong


i might die....


this is why schizophrenics feel the way they do-- because people ignore and push us away we get nervous, well stay away or kill us off

Please, please kill me

pm me i will talk about this in private with you as my bro had this for several yrs and i visited him when i could.

i hated seeing him like that but i didnt forget him, neither i will do so with you.

 

[Oats]

Oats, can you tell us a little more about you? What's your family like? How do you spend your days? Do you take any medication for schizophrenia?

This is an anonymous forum. It's a safe place, and no one wants you to go away. Why don't you tell us more about your situation please.

no...i don't take meds...if i need to take them to be accepted I refuse

my family is okay...

 

[Mike]

no...i don't take meds...if i need to take them to be accepted I refuse

my family is okay...

Oats, I thought you said in another thread that you'd prefer to be off meds, but you understand from your doctor that you need them, so you reluctantly take them.

You have brothers and sisters here who love you and we're worried for you. Your meds aren't meant for people to accept you. They're to help you think more clearly. You have been a treasure here since the day you joined, and I'm sure people who know you feel the same way. But most importantly the God who Created you wonderfully, who knit you in your mother's womb Loves you and has not abandoned you, even in this dark hour.

I know the holidays are especially tough for people with depression and other disorders. You feel like this should be a time of happiness. You see others who appear to be living perfectly happy lives enjoying family and friends, but so many people feel pain. I've heard it said if we all hung our problems out in front of our houses, we'd likely take a look at what others are dealing with and keep our own. I don't mean to minimize what you are experiencing, but I do want to tell you people have problems and pain. Jesus told us we'd have trouble in this world, but He also told us to take heart; He's overcome the world.

If you don't have family or a friend to turn to at this time, I beg you to call the hotline provided earlier in this thread and seek help just to get through to tomorrow, and the next day, and the next. Don't give up on life, the life that you were Gifted with. You are too precious.

 

[Oats]

Thank you guys all so much...

i'm too much of a burden on you guys...

thank you

i need to act more civilly

 

[Lance_Iguana]

Thank you guys all so much...

i'm too much of a burden on you guys...

thank you

i need to act more civilly

You are no burden. We are here for you man. If I could, I'd come and give you a hug. Its never good to be alone. We may be seperated by a screen, but dude. We are here for ya.

Don't let the darkness consume you. Let us in.

 

[Danus]

no...i don't take meds...if i need to take them to be accepted I refuse

my family is okay...

Oats I need to take meds to accept some people in my family.

Look, you said you suffer form schizophrenia. Most people who have been diagnosed as such take some type of medication to help them and some will get off those meds thinking they are getting better and don't need them or that the meds are part of some sort of conspiracy.

You focused on the meds. Of all the questions I asked you only responded to the meds. What about your family?

 

[Christ_empowered]

Please don't hurt yourself, or even continue feeling like death is the appropriate solution to your difficult life circumstances.

I have a disorder that apparently is somewhere between Bipolar I and schizophrenia (I've been given both diagnoses), so I can empathize with you. The social isolation is probably the worst part of mental illness.

I know you probably don't want to hear this, but I'd recommend meds. I only have to take 1 medication daily, and I'm doing a lot better. The newer meds--seroquel, zyprexa, abilify, geodon--can help a lot with depression AND the psychosis, without leaving you feeling flat or terrible. I'd encourage you to take advantage of what modern medicine has to offer and get a prescription.

Try to get out and about with some other people. call a counseling line. Send me and/or other people a private message. This too shall pass.

 

[Oats]

Oats I need to take meds to accept some people in my family.

Look, you said you suffer form schizophrenia. Most people who have been diagnosed as such take some type of medication to help them and some will get off those meds thinking they are getting better and don't need them or that the meds are part of some sort of conspiracy.

You focused on the meds. Of all the questions I asked you only responded to the meds. What about your family?

would Jesus tell me to take medicine?

or would he heal me? i don't have to conform...i'm this way naturally so i should die


my family is ill too

 

[l'Chante]

would Jesus tell me to take medicine?

or would he heal me?

A man was caught in a tree during a flood. Soon a man in a canoe came pass and told him to get in, and he replied: 'I'm okay. God will save me'. Then a man in a motor boat came pass and tried to convince him to get out of the tree and he again replied: 'God will save me'. Then a rescue team in a helicopter came pass and again the man refused their help saying "God will save me'.

The water rose and rose and eventually the man drowned.

When he entered Heaven he asked the Lord; 'Lord, my faith was strong. Why did you not save me" And the Lord replied; I sent three people to help you, and you refused My help"

Take your meds, Oats. It's okay.

 

[Strangelove]

i feel like dying. it's no point-- i can't celebrate thanksgiving-- screw that anyway. but no one in my life has ever understood me

because of my schizophrenia people under estimate me-- screw them

i love people and they laugh in my face-- i hope they go to hell


i'll take my other 50% with death

bye

Oats Brother. Being hated by the world is a good sign.

15:18 If the world hate you, ye know that it hated me before it hated you.

15:19 If ye were of the world, the world would love his own: but because ye are not of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hateth you.​

If you are disliked or even hated by certain family and friends and people in the community then you are ON THE RIGHT PATH.

When it comes to Christians you can see that you're Brethren LOVE YOU. We do. We love you man!

You need to do a bit more work on your bicep tone there Oatseybabes. Check my guns out! (**kisses bicep**)

Chin up Oats. You are a soldier for Christ!

PM Me anytime if you wanna talk.