[__ Prayer __] from laughter to hatred?!?!

[Christ_empowered]

10 years ago, my parents bonded me out on a -serious- charge and I eventually moved in with them. I was living...maybe barely above poverty, at least...a buffered sort of poverty. 28, shady past, time to "send him away" according to the locals. And now...

I moved from my parents' small town (my former hometown) and they bought this place. Same city where I got saved in while on bond...

and now I sense less ridicule (though its not gone), more hatred, contempt. I try to remember...and repeat (on loop!) "..perfect love casteth out -all fear- " and...Truth helps, immensely.

I dunno. Someone broke this...small, nice stained glass decorative window mama got for me. Pretty sure about that. It might've just been...a weak frame? but I don't think so. And...yeah. -intimidation tactics never end- lol

A dude...not old, but older, with a tiny kid, probably a grand kid...was getting into his shiny, kinda new-ish truck...I was getting out of my car and he said "yeah, he'll be down to rock bottom when -we get through with him- ," and...??? it was just some little locally owned chain convenience store. I needed a candy bar. blah.

Increasingly on loop: "I am more than a conqueror in Christ Jesus." OK. Doesn't mean rags to riches, but...I'm not "society's reject" now, am I? Nothin' but the Blood of Jesus...

Parents are doing well. Genuine...concern, compassion, care...parental love. -miracle in and of itself- not because they're so terrible, blah blah blah, but because...the world is fallen, full of wickedness and pockets of straight up evil (such as...psychiatry! ripping families to shreds...doctor's orders...), plus my own (considerable!) sins, and...

again: nothin' but the Blood of Jesus.

Thankful. Blessed! big, big thing: Forgiven! Also: healthy. Visibly healthy, which I think may be part of the "problem," in a place in which people talk at and about me, not to or with me, and I am known -of- , but I don't really know anyone, except for my (loving, long suffering) parents. so, there's that. outsider...outcast...made increasingly whole by Christ Jesus. Praise God!

"fear of man shall prove to be a snare..."

eek. Truth...sometimes not always easy to bear. So, what? Choose sinful fantasy land or God and His Truth...

Maybe that's the real "problem," at the core of my "situation" ? blah.

Thanks

 

[Christ_empowered]

I’m not even paranoid is the thing. It’s actually happening. The SimpliSafe system offers motion and entry sensors. The way mine is set up they don’t really do anything unless I’m gone and it’s in away mode. Once the cops came out over the front door being triggered and I’ve gotten calls about 2 other alerts and I asked the cops to not come. Ok

Not a mega emergency but frustrating. Very very frustrating.