Frustration.

[Igorstash]

Lately I've been feeling horrible. The closer I get to God, the more dirty and sinful I feel. I am more aware of sin, of what is happening around me. And it frustrates me a lot. In addition to all this, God is silent. I feel like I have no strength anymore. I don't have the strength to pray, to read the scriptures and I feel like I'm losing my grip. On the one hand I know that God will never leave me on the other hand the soul says something else. I feel completely exhausted in this war. I am tired of reading about God's promises while they are not even happening in my life. I didn't ask him for anything special. I'm just begging for some strength, a little bit of strength. Something to keep me pushing forward. I'm tired of this frustration, this sadness and this anger. Every day I pour my heart out to him but he just stays silent. What's going on here? How am I supposed to deal with this grief? With this frustration?
It seems like he doesn't even care..

 

[Hidden In Him]

Lately I've been feeling horrible. The closer I get to God, the more dirty and sinful I feel. I am more aware of sin, of what is happening around me. And it frustrates me a lot. In addition to all this, God is silent. I feel like I have no strength anymore. I don't have the strength to pray, to read the scriptures and I feel like I'm losing my grip. On the one hand I know that God will never leave me on the other hand the soul says something else. I feel completely exhausted in this war. I am tired of reading about God's promises while they are not even happening in my life. I didn't ask him for anything special. I'm just begging for some strength, a little bit of strength. Something to keep me pushing forward. I'm tired of this frustration, this sadness and this anger. Every day I pour my heart out to him but he just stays silent. What's going on here? How am I supposed to deal with this grief? With this frustration?
It seems like he doesn't even care..

That's only what it seems. Without wanting to sound condemning, this is not my experience with God. So my primary questions to lead off with here would be how much time are you spending with Him? How much time do you spend in the word of God and in prayer specifically?

 

[Br4nd0n]

Hi Igorstash, nice to meet you. Im sorry that youre not doing too well. I know how it can feel like despair sometimes.

These are pretty broad strokes you are painting a picture with. So all i can do is answer in a likewise manner.

I would pray for a new perspective.

God does snap His fingers and fixes things instantly sometimes. But for the most part, He deals in process and progression. For example, when He created the plants in Genesis they sprouted forth, they didnt just pop up out of nowhere. It will be the same for our lives, process and progression. Look up how many years it takes Him to fulfill His promises to Abraham to have a kid or for David to become king. Its takes years and sometimes decades. Its almost like a race of standing still, still in spirit, obedience and peace until God moves.

He speaks predominantly through scripture, that will be the easiest way to hear Him. You will be reading and out of nowhere a verse will speak directly to your situation, from Gods lips to your ears, and it hits like a ton of bricks.

Also. More broadstrokes. If you are unhappy about how life has panned out for you, money, relationships with others, career, whatever may bother you. Its important to remember that this life and world isnt the real one, it will all wither away out of existence. Its the spiritual world that is the real one, and its what we look forward to.

Some people believe Jesus died so that we can be comfy in this counterfeit world. They do good deeds to get blessings. Its not the case. There are people that despise God and do bad things and get good things like job promotions. On the other hand some people that love God, do good things and get bad things like losing jobs, going to prison, or what have you. We dont do good to get good. We do good to honor God. And whatever happens in this life as a result of that, whether good or bad...its not too important. As long as we remain faithful, in step with the Spirit and obedient, its the next life that is important.

Hope some of this made sense. All the best.

 

[Igorstash]

That's only what it seems. Without wanting to sound condemning, this is not my experience with God. So my primary questions to lead off with here would be how much time are you spending with Him? How much time do you spend in the word of God and in prayer specifically?

Hi. Thanks for the answer.

It really depends on my day. I get up early for work. At work I go to quiet places to pray. At least 20 minutes of prayer. Sometimes even 30 minutes . I try to pray at work at the times I mentioned at least twice. And that's just at work. At home I pray longer. I don't really think it's about how much time I spend with God because right now, as a parent, I'm trying to do my best.

 

[Hidden In Him]

Hi. Thanks for the answer.

It really depends on my day. I get up early for work. At work I go to quiet places to pray. At least 20 minutes of prayer. Sometimes even 30 minutes . I try to pray at work at the times I mentioned at least twice. And that's just at work. At home I pray longer. I don't really think it's about how much time I spend with God because right now, as a parent, I'm trying to do my best.

I understand. I have to head out from work, but tell me what your relationship with Him is when it comes to the Bible. His words are Spirit and Life, and I get to feeling like you do sometimes whenever I spend too much time away from it.

Blessings in Christ, and thank you for sharing,
- H

 

[Igorstash]

That's only what it seems. Without wanting to sound condemning, this is not my experience with God. So my primary questions to lead off with here would be how much time are you spending with Him? How much time do you spend in the word of God and in prayer specifically?

Hi. Thanks for the answer.

It really depends on my day. I get up early for work. At work I go to quiet places to pray. At least 20 minutes of prayer. Sometimes even 30 minutes . I try to pray at work at the times I mentioned at least twice. And that's just at work. At home I pray longer. I don't really think it's about how much time I spend with God because right now, as a parent, I'm trying to do my best.

Hi Igorstash, nice to meet you. Im sorry that youre not doing too well. I know how it can feel like despair sometimes.

These are pretty broad strokes you are painting a picture with. So all i can do is answer in a likewise manner.

I would pray for a new perspective.

God does snap His fingers and fixes things instantly sometimes. But for the most part, He deals in process and progression. For example, when He created the plants in Genesis they sprouted forth, they didnt just pop up out of nowhere. It will be the same for our lives, process and progression. Look up how many years it takes Him to fulfill His promises to Abraham to have a kid or for David to become king. Its takes years and sometimes decades. Its almost like a race of standing still, still in spirit, obedience and peace until God moves.

He speaks predominantly through scripture, that will be the easiest way to hear Him. You will be reading and out of nowhere a verse will speak directly to your situation, from Gods lips to your ears, and it hits like a ton of bricks.

Also. More broadstrokes. If you are unhappy about how life has panned out for you, money, relationships with others, career, whatever may bother you. Its important to remember that this life and world isnt the real one, it will all wither away out of existence. Its the spiritual world that is the real one, and its what we look forward to.

Some people believe Jesus died so that we can be comfy in this counterfeit world. They do good deeds to get blessings. Its not the case. There are people that despise God and do bad things and get good things like job promotions. On the other hand some people that love God, do good things and get bad things like losing jobs, going to prison, or what have you. We dont do good to get good. We do good to honor God. And whatever happens in this life as a result of that, whether good or bad...its not too important. As long as we remain faithful, in step with the Spirit and obedient, its the next life that is important.

Hope some of this made sense. All the best.

Hi. Thanks for the answer.

It really depends on my day. I get up early for work. At work I go to quiet places to pray. At least 20 minutes of prayer. Sometimes even 30 minutes . I try to pray at work at the times I mentioned at least twice. And that's just at work. At home I pray longer. I don't really think it's about how much time I spend with God because right now, as a parent, I'm trying to do my best.

Hi Igorstash, nice to meet you. Im sorry that youre not doing too well. I know how it can feel like despair sometimes.

These are pretty broad strokes you are painting a picture with. So all i can do is answer in a likewise manner.

I would pray for a new perspective.

God does snap His fingers and fixes things instantly sometimes. But for the most part, He deals in process and progression. For example, when He created the plants in Genesis they sprouted forth, they didnt just pop up out of nowhere. It will be the same for our lives, process and progression. Look up how many years it takes Him to fulfill His promises to Abraham to have a kid or for David to become king. Its takes years and sometimes decades. Its almost like a race of standing still, still in spirit, obedience and peace until God moves.

He speaks predominantly through scripture, that will be the easiest way to hear Him. You will be reading and out of nowhere a verse will speak directly to your situation, from Gods lips to your ears, and it hits like a ton of bricks.

Also. More broadstrokes. If you are unhappy about how life has panned out for you, money, relationships with others, career, whatever may bother you. Its important to remember that this life and world isnt the real one, it will all wither away out of existence. Its the spiritual world that is the real one, and its what we look forward to.

Some people believe Jesus died so that we can be comfy in this counterfeit world. They do good deeds to get blessings. Its not the case. There are people that despise God and do bad things and get good things like job promotions. On the other hand some people that love God, do good things and get bad things like losing jobs, going to prison, or what have you. We dont do good to get good. We do good to honor God. And whatever happens in this life as a result of that, whether good or bad...its not too important. As long as we remain faithful, in step with the Spirit and obedient, its the next life that is important.

Hope some of this made sense. All the best.

I have read his words millions of times. All I hear is silence. No verse that concerns me, no answers! I would like to know something. After Job endured all the horror he went through, how would Job behave if God did not answer him PHYSICALLY? God literally Spoke with job with his PHYSICAL VOICE!!! What would have happened if God had not spoken to Job like this? We take examples from people who have experienced Jesus and the Father! Jesus' disciples were physically with him! Paul heard and saw god! And what am I asking for? A little bit of strength for my heart? I'm tired of reading promises without actions. Why does he promise "Come to me all who are burdened and laboring and I will find rest for you"!! Where is this rest?? "My Lord is close to the brokenhearted" where is his closeness? where? When will we find this rest? When we die? I don't understand what I'm doing wrong.

 

[Igorstash]

I understand. I have to head out from work, but tell me what your relationship with Him is when it comes to the Bible. His words are Spirit and Life, and I get to feeling like you do sometimes whenever I spend too much time away from it.

Blessings in Christ, and thank you for sharing,
- H

I have read the scriptures millions of times. And I tried to look for answers as I entered this frustrating situation. I tried, I really tried. I even memorized verses. But it didn't help at all. Just unfulfilled promises. And lately I barely spend time in the scriptures and most of the time I pray and cry out to God.
I'm not asking for money or new home or new car or whatever in this world. I ask only for him. For his love, for his care for his power. Is it to much? Is it not ok?

 

[hawkman]

I feel completely exhausted in this war.

Who are you at war with ?

 

[Who Me]

The closer I get to God, the more dirty and sinful I feel

There is nothing wrong with seeing yourself and the world as God sees, so long as that sight causes you to turn to God.

On the one hand I know that God will never leave me on the other hand the soul says something else

The first is God speaking to you. The bit about your soul saying something else is not from God, so don’t listen to it.

All you have to do is believe. It is Jesus who saves you and Jesus will hold on to you.

If you were in the army, would you expect the commander in chief to come each morning to wake you and give you your orders?
The army uses other officers etc and standing orders that tell recuits/soldiers what to do.

Our standing g orders are found in the bible so carry on following/obeying them.

Ephesians 6 armour of God says, having done everything to continue to stand.
That is your and every Christians situation, we are to continue serving where we are.

 

[Igorstash]

I have read the scriptures millions of times. And I tried to look for answers as I entered this frustrating situation. I tried, I really tried. I even memorized verses. But it didn't help at all. Just unfulfilled promises. And lately I barely spend time in the scriptures and most of the time I pray and cry out to God.

Who are you at war with ?

My flesh. What's more frustrating is that the closer I get to the Lord, the dirtier I feel. I see all the garbage that is inside me. I have been in a very long war against porn. It's been a long time since I've touched this garbage at all. Thanks to the pure Holy Spirit, I'm literally can't see porn anymore. I don't know how to explain it but I just can't see it anymore even though the flesh is fighting hard. The Holy Spirit simply "wired" me to Him. But this is a small problem of many kinds as everyone has I guess. The problem is that I just feel exhausted and frustrated. I know God works in hidden ways but right now this is how I feel and despite everything I keep crying out to Him. I continue to pray and read the scriptures. I am as real as possible with him. telling him everything without hiding anything.
I push forward as much as I can. Every day the devil tries to convince me that I can find satisfaction in sins but I know that is a lie and that I can only find satisfaction in God. This war has become so real since I got closer to God.

 

[hawkman]

My flesh. What's more frustrating is that the closer I get to the Lord, the dirtier I feel. I see all the garbage that is inside me. I have been in a very long war against porn. It's been a long time since I've touched this garbage at all. Thanks to the pure Holy Spirit, I'm literally can't see porn anymore. I don't know how to explain it but I just can't see it anymore even though the flesh is fighting hard. The Holy Spirit simply "wired" me to Him. But this is a small problem of many kinds as everyone has I guess. The problem is that I just feel exhausted and frustrated. I know God works in hidden ways but right now this is how I feel and despite everything I keep crying out to Him. I continue to pray and read the scriptures. I am as real as possible with him. telling him everything without hiding anything.
I push forward as much as I can. Every day the devil tries to convince me that I can find satisfaction in sins but I know that is a lie and that I can only find satisfaction in God. This war has become so real since I got closer to God.

Suggested reading for you .

Bible Study - Every Man's Battle: Putting An End to the Battle.

Galatians 5:16-18 16 But I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh. 17 For the desires of the flesh are against the Spirit, and the desires of the Spirit are against the flesh, for these are opposed to each other, to keep you from doing the things you...

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[journeymanisnothing]

Lately I've been feeling horrible. The closer I get to God, the more dirty and sinful I feel. I am more aware of sin, of what is happening around me. And it frustrates me a lot. In addition to all this, God is silent. I feel like I have no strength anymore. I don't have the strength to pray, to read the scriptures and I feel like I'm losing my grip. On the one hand I know that God will never leave me on the other hand the soul says something else. I feel completely exhausted in this war. I am tired of reading about God's promises while they are not even happening in my life. I didn't ask him for anything special. I'm just begging for some strength, a little bit of strength. Something to keep me pushing forward. I'm tired of this frustration, this sadness and this anger. Every day I pour my heart out to him but he just stays silent. What's going on here? How am I supposed to deal with this grief? With this frustration?
It seems like he doesn't even care..

Hello Igorstash.
It seems you're missing the point of the gospel. Do you think while God was being spit on, mocked, lied about, beaten and crucifed He didn't care about the ones inflicting His pain? He endured all of it and He did nothing wrong.

 

[Igorstash]

Suggested reading for you .

Bible Study - Every Man's Battle: Putting An End to the Battle.

Galatians 5:16-18 16 But I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh. 17 For the desires of the flesh are against the Spirit, and the desires of the Spirit are against the flesh, for these are opposed to each other, to keep you from doing the things you...

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This is what I'm doing. Iam walking by the spirit or at least iam trying. This is exactly the reason why I don't fall for porn. But that's not my problem at all. It's more than that.

 

[Igorstash]

This is what I'm doing. Iam walking by the spirit. This is exactly the reason why I don't fall for porn. But that's not my problem at all. It's more than that.

Hello Igorstash.
It seems you're missing the point of the gospel. Do you think while God was being spit on, mocked, lied about, beaten and crucifed He didn't care about the ones inflicting His pain? He endured all of it and He did nothing wrong.

I don't miss anything. I have been a believer since I was 13. I'm tired of hearing these comparisons. There is Yeshua and there are other people. Some people are weaker. "support the weak". Some people can be even weaker because of the words you wrote . Enough with these comparisons. We are all born different.

 

[journeymanisnothing]

Igorstash,
Our Father is grieved by sinners every second. After our Lord began His public ministry He was also vexed by sinners who opposed Him.

His "public ministry", the Messiahs' showing to Israel, to teach them (and later the rest of the world) the Torah (what God expects) is shown by how He lived in this world.

We need to put our Savior in His proper place before He ascended to Heaven
Jesus in a very nice way, let the religious authorities that they should be kneeling before Him,

when the chief priests and scribes saw the wonderful things that he did, and the children crying in the temple, and saying, Hosanna to the Son of David; they were sore displeased, And said unto him, Hearest thou what these say? And Jesus saith unto them, Yea; have ye never read, Out of the mouth of babes and sucklings thou hast perfected praise? Mt.21:15 KJV

The scribes understood exactly what Jesus claiming because they knew the scripture He quoted was a prophecy that could only apply to their King Messiah.

Everywhere He went unbelievers opposed Him, tet Gods' strength is witnessed by the fact that His Son didn't kill the people He should have.......but that would include me too.

Thank you Jesus.

 

[journeymanisnothing]

I don't miss anything. I have been a believer since I was 13. I'm tired of hearing these comparisons. There is Yeshua and there are other people. Some people are weaker. "support the weak". Some people can be even weaker because of the words you wrote . Enough with these comparisons. We are all born different.

No we're not all born different. No child desires abuse. All desire to be loved and cared for and that is what the King of the universe did on earth while facing gruesome torment as a defenseless child. He wasn't the defenseless one.

Please understand I'm not at all saying it's easy to follow Jesus. I'm saying it's easy to want the love and peace of His Spirit to come over over us until someone who makes us unhappy comes along. Then we're at war with our flesh. Our best intentions towards our adversaries kills the flesh.

 

[journeymanisnothing]

I just want to let let you know that I mean no offense. My intention was only to encourage you as the scriptures say Jesus was a man of sorrows and aquainted with grief. I believe this type of grief,

it grieved him at his heart Gen.6:6 KJV

And what sane Father wouldn't be burming with anger seeing the mistreatment of His beloved Son?

He knows our frustrations. I do know adversity is meant to conform us to His image. I hope whatever fire you're going through ends soon, but there probably will be more. Pray and hang onto Him as best you can.

For consider him that endured such contradiction of sinners against himself, lest ye be wearied and faint in your minds. Heb.12:3 KJV

 

[Runningman]

Lately I've been feeling horrible. The closer I get to God, the more dirty and sinful I feel. I am more aware of sin, of what is happening around me. And it frustrates me a lot. In addition to all this, God is silent. I feel like I have no strength anymore. I don't have the strength to pray, to read the scriptures and I feel like I'm losing my grip. On the one hand I know that God will never leave me on the other hand the soul says something else. I feel completely exhausted in this war. I am tired of reading about God's promises while they are not even happening in my life. I didn't ask him for anything special. I'm just begging for some strength, a little bit of strength. Something to keep me pushing forward. I'm tired of this frustration, this sadness and this anger. Every day I pour my heart out to him but he just stays silent. What's going on here? How am I supposed to deal with this grief? With this frustration?
It seems like he doesn't even care..

In the New Covenant, God promised to forgive your sins and remember them no more. No other promises were made that I am aware of. Our job is to be holy, righteous, and serve God.

This isn't going to be a relationship of equality, but rather a relationship between Lord God Almighty and His servants. There may be tests, trials, and difficulties along the way. I believe God expects us to stay the course, endure, and grow, especially in these difficult times, because these are the times that we prove the steadfastness of our faith. Our faith means we are trusting God.

Yes, there are those who endure only for a bit and then wither up and blow away like dust. The faith of people is being sorted and not all faith is of the same quality and strength, but God is closely monitoring you during this process nevertheless.

There is glory in the struggle. Think about what Jesus went through. They outright crucified him, but if asked I fully believe Jesus would say it was worth it and he'd do it again. So, whatever is happening in your life, I know you can endure.

The kinds of prayer I think God is ready to answer at the drop of a dime are prayers for wisdom, to not be led into temptation, and to love others as much as He loves you. Yes God loves you, but God can also be severe and uncompromising. We do the compromising for God, not the other way around.

I hope in someway this helps you, gives you motivation, and hope. These are the things God has given me to help me through my own struggles because I know that glory is never easy. Never forget, glory is never easy.

 

[Igorstash]

I will share something else that may actually be affecting my lack of motivation. I remember the first time I really experienced God's love. It was right after the prayer. I just prayed normally. Nothing special happened at first and I didn't expect it to either. I just talked to God. As I finished praying, I opened the door and saw my mother. Suddenly something fell on me. Suddenly I couldn't stand. I can't even explain this feeling. It is something that cannot be explained in words. My mother looked at me and knew something was happening to me because I just started crying and couldn't stand on my feet. I knew at that moment that Jesus himself was hugging me and showing me how much he loves me. It was the happiest day of my life. I felt his love in every part of my body. His love penetrated my bones. I can't really describe to you how it felt but I can say that I felt his love like I never felt before. In addition to all this, we had a small group of several friends. We had meetings and prayed together. And every time Yeshua showed us his love. We literally felt his love in physical way. But unfortunately it was long time ago and I miss it so much. I miss his love so much that I used to feel. It could very well be that this is what frustrates me and I feel so dumb about it Because I know he loves me regardless of the emotion But still, I miss it so much. That's what would give me a shot of motivation. I know how it sounds and I feel bad about it and don't know how to escape from this frustration.

 

[Hidden In Him]

I have read his words millions of times. All I hear is silence. No verse that concerns me, no answers! I would like to know something. After Job endured all the horror he went through, how would Job behave if God did not answer him PHYSICALLY? God literally Spoke with job with his PHYSICAL VOICE!!! What would have happened if God had not spoken to Job like this? We take examples from people who have experienced Jesus and the Father! Jesus' disciples were physically with him! Paul heard and saw god! And what am I asking for? A little bit of strength for my heart? I'm tired of reading promises without actions. Why does he promise "Come to me all who are burdened and laboring and I will find rest for you"!! Where is this rest?? "My Lord is close to the brokenhearted" where is his closeness? where? When will we find this rest? When we die?

Have you said this to Him directly, Igorstash? There have been times in my life where I became deeply angry with Him, but instead of staying silent I let Him know about it, and that I was not happy with Him. He has responded to me every time I've done that, sometimes rather dramatically, and I believe it's because He honored my faith.

Best of wishes to you,
Hidden