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SputnikBoy
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In the last couple of years or so I've become more and more troubled by the God of the Holy Bible. I would be lying if I was to say that I love God and I often wonder exactly what other Christians mean when they make the claim to 'love Him.' In fact, I'm not sure if I even believe them. "I love God", I believe, is the expected and typical catch-cry of Christians. It just rolls off the tongue without too much thought or effort. I also believe that these same Christians will come down hard on me for admitting this fact about myself. I don't even care any more as I've become very disillusioned about Christianity in recent times.
Participating in this forum has been both good and bad for me. I've learned a lot about where others are coming from in their Christian walk. I don't doubt that all or most participants on the forum are 'good people' as such. A number, however, espouse the typical 'loving God' rhetoric while at the same time having no qualms that God is quite justified at tormenting people in hell for eternity. To me, this simply does NOT compute.
But then, I read in the OT where God commanded the indiscriminate deaths of many thousands of his supposed 'treasures.' And, THAT bothers me. I can't love a God or anyone else who is so cruel and heartless. Not one person ASKED to be born. I can't love a God who 'tests' the loyalty of mere mortals as if for the fun of it. Again, not one person ASKED to be born. If anything, I'm being honest about the way I feel. Is God little more than a bully who kills people simply because He CAN? More than that, is God so sadistic that He not only kills people because He can, but then raises them to life again merely to torment them? MOST CHRISTIANS WILL SAY "YES!" Then they will say, "GOD IS LOVE!"
Jesus, on the other hand, is someone that I CAN relate to. In fact, it's difficult for me to believe that Jesus and God are supposed to be one and the same. What? Whenever I think of 'love' I think of Jesus ...NOT God. How does Jesus fit into the scheme of things for you, cosmo, or do you feel the same way about Him?
I apologize if not as much thought has gone into this post as I'd normally like. My mind is in a whirl at the moment and I had even considered not posting at all right now. But, I did and here it is.
Participating in this forum has been both good and bad for me. I've learned a lot about where others are coming from in their Christian walk. I don't doubt that all or most participants on the forum are 'good people' as such. A number, however, espouse the typical 'loving God' rhetoric while at the same time having no qualms that God is quite justified at tormenting people in hell for eternity. To me, this simply does NOT compute.
But then, I read in the OT where God commanded the indiscriminate deaths of many thousands of his supposed 'treasures.' And, THAT bothers me. I can't love a God or anyone else who is so cruel and heartless. Not one person ASKED to be born. I can't love a God who 'tests' the loyalty of mere mortals as if for the fun of it. Again, not one person ASKED to be born. If anything, I'm being honest about the way I feel. Is God little more than a bully who kills people simply because He CAN? More than that, is God so sadistic that He not only kills people because He can, but then raises them to life again merely to torment them? MOST CHRISTIANS WILL SAY "YES!" Then they will say, "GOD IS LOVE!"
Jesus, on the other hand, is someone that I CAN relate to. In fact, it's difficult for me to believe that Jesus and God are supposed to be one and the same. What? Whenever I think of 'love' I think of Jesus ...NOT God. How does Jesus fit into the scheme of things for you, cosmo, or do you feel the same way about Him?
I apologize if not as much thought has gone into this post as I'd normally like. My mind is in a whirl at the moment and I had even considered not posting at all right now. But, I did and here it is.