I can't remember if I've ever shared my testimony of how I was saved here or not. So, here goes:
My parents were Christian, but something happened before I was born that caused them to leave the church and to seriously backslide. So, I was not raised in a Christian home and was more or less on my own as far as religion was concerned. I did have "Miriam's Big Book of Bible Stories" though. I loved reading it and was convicted of God's realness even as a very young child.
I do remember being convicted about sin when I was, gee...probably about 5 or so, definitely before I entered school. I had read in "Miriams" that Cain's sacrifice of veggies wasn't acceptable to God, only Abel's sacrifice of a lamb. Well, we didn't have a lamb, and the only thing that I could think of that would be any kind of acceptable sacrifice was the family cat. I knew that I would be in BIG trouble if I sacrificed the family cat, and besides I loved Kitty-Cat so much I couldn't bear the idea of sacrificing him, so I gathered some rocks together and made an altar, then gathered the most beautiful wild flowers I could think of and "sacrificed" them to the Lord. I prayed to Him that I really was sorry for my sins, and that I didn't have a lamb, but would take care of it when I was big enough to get one. Also, I told Him that I knew that I was supposed to burn the "sacrifice" of flowers, but that I wasn't allowed to play with matches, but that they were for Him anyway.
I do believe that the Lord heard that prayer, because that was right before I started being systematically sexually abused for the next 6 years by a family member. I know that the Lord brought me through that and even while the abuse was happening was guarding my little spirit in ways that I was only able to understand years later. And, even though my little body was being violated, I do believe that the Lord kept certain things from happening as well. As to why did God "allow" it to happen in the first place? Well, when all is said and done, I don't know. I do know that even though it did happen, God never forsook me, and that in many ways, I'm a stronger person now. Besides, if it hadn't of happened, I do believe that I could have had children naturally and you know, I cannot even imagine not having my beautiful daughter and wonderful son by adoption. God never promised that bad things won't happen in this world, even to innocent little kids. But, He did promise to cause all things to work together for the good for those who love Him and are called according to His purposes and in my case, He certainly fulfilled that promise.
Fast forward to the time I was 13. By that time, I had become a very introverted "nerdy" kind of kid. I didn't have many friends, so I read. A lot. Part of my readings were the comparative religions and I studied Christianity, Buddhism, Confucianism, and the Koran. Through the studies, I was quite seriously considering adopting Confucianism as a way of life when a friend of mine invited me to a revival. Since she was my friend, I said sure.
This was an Assemblies of God revival. Yep, a good old, tongues speaking, holy rolling revival.
Scared me half out of my wits! A group of folks encircled me and laid hands on me and exhorted me to let the Spirit in. I heard all the tongues, so I "faked" tongues, just to satisfy them and get them to leave me alone. I left when this one older woman, who I had a respect for, was rolling on the floor with her dress hitching up so that I could see her panties. I left with the intention of never returning to a Christian church in my life.
However, later that night, something the minister said was niggling at me. I remembered that he had preached out of the book of John, and wanted to look up what he said. I couldn't remember the chapter or the verse, so I started with John 1:1 and started reading. The words became living waters. By the time I finished the gospel, (I read the entire gospel in one sitting) tears were rolling down my face as I realized for the first time that God actually became man and was sacrificed for ME.
I did go back to the Assemblies of God church for awhile, but only for a while. Don't get me wrong, I love my AofG brothers and sisters, but it's not for me. I drifted on my own and then when I got into college, because of my lack of knowledge, I wound up in a cult. This cult wasn't one of the well known ones, but there was a leader who effectively cut us off from all other Christians and used the Bible as a means of control by taking texts out of context. I remember being on my knees in tears, begging for forgiveness because I went to church with my mom on Mother's Day.
Because it was during this period that a Christian aunt of mine died. My dad went to his sister's funeral and came back totally changed. He and mom immediately went back to church and within a year my entire family including my brothers-in-law became Christian.
A kind of murky time took place which ended when my mom and dad led me out of the cult. I left all the friends I had, and struggled with depression for a while, but God was faithful to lead me through that as well.
Since then, I've been through a variety of churches and experiences (I went on a mission trip to Ireland, how cool was that!), met my hubby, got my kids and have been amazed at God's faithfulness throughout it all.
That's it for now!