I have been reading as much as I can but the problem is I am not a very good reader. I also can only read a little before my brains is exhausted from it. I also am not good at retaining information, for example I read a certain chapter and verse. I would not be able to recall it from memory later. It doesn't stop me from trying but..
Could it be that music, movies and art are euqally powerful for communicating with Jesus?
Neuroscientists are discovering that the human brain has enormous plasticity; that is, the brain can change itself, re-routing neural pathways, forming entirely new ones, compensating in amazing degree for damaged portions, etc. But doing so takes work! Just as your muscles become tired and sore from effort but grow stronger and more capable as a result, your brain, too, may, at the moment, labor to read and comprehend, but as you persist in doing so, your brain's capacity to focus, study and learn
will increase - and very dramatically, depending upon your effort and persistence in it.
Modern technology - or, rather, modern media - has a stupefying effect on the human brain. People who play video games, or are watching t.v., daily on an average of six to ten hours, actually suffer atrophy (shrinkage) of the grey matter of the brain:
"Gray matter atrophy: Multiple studies have shown atrophy (shrinkage or loss of tissue volume) in gray matter areas (where “processing” occurs) in internet/gaming addiction (Zhou 2011, Yuan 2011, Weng 2013,and Weng 2012). Areas affected included the important frontal lobe, which governs executive functions, such as planning, planning, prioritizing, organizing, and impulse control (“getting stuff done”). Volume loss was also seen in the striatum, which is involved in reward pathways and the suppression of socially unacceptable impulses. A finding of particular concern was damage to an area known is the insula, which is involved in our capacity to develop empathy and compassion for others and our ability to integrate physical signals with emotion. Aside from the obvious link to violent behavior, these skills dictate the depth and quality of personal relationships." ( https://www.josh.org/gray-matters-much-screen-time-damages-brain/ )
All this aside, though, Jesus is a Person with whom you can communicate directly. In fact, if you're one of his "sheep," his Spirit, the Holy Spirit, resides within you, as close as thought to you. And, as you're living daily in submission to, and love of, the Holy Spirit, he works to transform you, making you more and more like Jesus Christ - no movies, music, or art needed.
The most detailed and clear revelation of Jesus is given to us in the Bible. If you want to know him well, you absolutely have to be in the Bible studying, and memorizing, and obeying it. And God will help you do so. Not all at once, necessarily, in a single moment making you capable of deep, constant study of His word, but through a process, using your brain's natural plasticity, and your natural human tendency toward forming habits and reflexes of thinking and conduct, God will make you a very able student of His truth.
There's no way to rush being a Bible "expert"; no one who became an expert did so overnight. Typically, it takes years of study to reach any sort of "mastery" of Scripture. So, don't stress yourself with unnecessary pressure to know everything about the Bible by tomorrow. Enjoy your study of God's word. Take your time and contemplate what He's saying to you in His word. Make it part of the fabric of your thinking and living. As you do, you'll be changed - and for the better!
Psalm 1:1-3 (NASB)
1 How blessed is the man who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked, Nor stand in the path of sinners, Nor sit in the seat of scoffers!
2 But his delight is in the law of the LORD, And in His law he meditates day and night.
3 He will be like a tree firmly planted by streams of water, Which yields its fruit in its season And its leaf does not wither; And in whatever he does, he prospers.
there is software the reads the text ... you could listen to the Bible being read that way.
