[__ Praise __] Living better in Christ

[Christ_empowered]

I had to get car stuff done to day. Not huge drama just maintenance lol

The worker also ran the register because so many employees are out because of Helene. He was…silently mildly hostile. Happens.

I’m starting to get it from a Christian perspective. I once walked according to the ways of the world and I got what the world had for me. Intense and agonizing for my parents and me…

And people still openly ridicule me about it and that’s to be expected.

Nothing has befallen me except that which is common to mankind. Nothing.

I actually rather enjoyed my time waiting on my vehicle . Upbeat is good but in my situation it’s borderline miraculous.

I’d like to not deal with the same junk on loop but I’m thankful for good clothes shelter and the other good and needed things I have now, in Christ.

My past creeps me out. My own sins were ridiculous and atrocious and it also seems there were things going on around me etc…long story and…

Take up the plow and push forward.

Getting better…

 

[Christ_empowered]

Me again.


At 40, I’ve been blessed with the desires of my heart plus I’d argue a bit extra. This is despite my ongoing sins sin patterns low status and…we serve a loving and merciful God.

Doing things helps. I’m sufficiently healthy and normal and such to do more during the day. Today I fed my parents puppies while they were out and about. Minor thing but good.

So many seemingly random people say junk about me around this small city and in my parents small town that…

I do believe in a real living evil Satan who roams about like a lion seeking whom he may devour. I also think he operates thru established avenues to achieve his ends. I guess I’m saying…the devil seems to be in the details. It really isn’t all pentagrams and spells etc. so…

It dawns on me that I’m probably not the only person who was deliberately ripped to shreds at a young age and a lot of those people probably had weird things going on around them before during and after the deliberate destruction too. Question is: where are these people?

That’s when I shudder. I remember now 17 moving into the dorm at a state school for college and…

Kill yourself and get it over with was one thing that people yelled at me at night at the dorm. It was supposedly the party dorm…old building kind of funky charm to it…

He’ll have a felony when we’re through with him! And then…

Cheap apartment downtown…people nearby calling me a poseur. And the shrinks and the pills and…and…

People do get deliberately ripped to shreds. Prison was supposed to be my destination. Now I’m 40 have a single conviction…serious misdemeanor a plea down from a low level felony…and I’m healthy and I apparently have a high iq estimate and my parents are unexpectedly somehow in the “his people have money “ category and…

I was getting gas and some lady I thought was younger than me said “yeah told you he’d have a felony before we got through with him “ and…

Sorry God is Love. God is merciful. And it’s not as if I was or am sinless or blameless just…? That counselor I had out of state literally said reading my records felt like watching the matrix and that I needed a miracle and that I never had a chance…

Creepy stuff. In Christ I’m dealing with the junk around me much much better. Every human being deals with adversity. All believers have trials and tribulations. So I’m not a freak or an alien .

I am a Christian and what I suppose is considered something of a psychiatric survivor. Lots of people who have had bad psych stuff and live to tell the tale…

Have labels to navigate and a surprising number of them seem to come to faith in and knowledge of Jesus Christ just like me.

But it wasn’t and isn’t just the psych stuff. But it never really is is it? Because psych stuff never happens in a vacuum.

It’s a pretty day cooling off I have power water and even the internet is working again although my streaming is slow so it was literally stuck on hallmark. lol

I fed the puppies and showed kindness to my parents and I even tipped a little bit for that overpriced pumpkin coffee drink.

Truth? The Holy Ghost guides believers into all Truth. On the broad road, unfortunately…the truth is not in them. I’m not dealing with flesh and blood but rather powers and principalities…

Just like all believers.