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[__ Prayer __] my anger's back...

No offense, but I had a good laugh about their comments. It sounds like they are quite jealous of you. Through our Lord's great grace and love, you have overcome so much in your life already. And they can see these changes in you.

Enjoy your laughs at their silly comments, my friend!
 
Christ_empowered said:
...finally! LOL. Seriously. I was involuntarily electroshocked to the point that I had severe frontal lobe syndrome, aka Post-lobotomy syndrome. Apathy, lack of initiative and drive, no personality, cognitive impairment, memory loss, and loss of emotions..including anger.

My neighbors, they harass me. Pretty weird situation. Basically, I'm the town pariah and scapegoat, and Jesus has heard my prayers and healed me nicely. Good stuff. I'm also: ex-gay, ex-mental patient, ex-junky, formerly effeminate. This is the south. I'm not Mr.Popular, lol.

So, I was on my parents big front porch having a cigarette. The neighbors made some kinda comment, and I just snapped. Keep in mind: this has been going on for years. So, I did curse. Sorry. Allow me to edit what I said. "Here's f***in idea: keep your d**n mouths shut, rednecks!". yeah. I prayed about it already. I'm very sorry. I shouldn't have said those things, I shouldn't have yelled, and I should brush these things off. Keep in mind: I was a vegetable--varying degrees of apathy, laziness, sleeping too much, eating too much, emotionless, etc.--until fairly recently.

Help me with my frustration! Every day, I pray for those who despitefully used, use, and would use (given the opportunity) me. If I didn't have a good attorney right now (thank you, Jesus!), I'd be in a mental hospital, at best. Such is the nature of psychiatry (seriously: they're the same now as in the 1950s!).

Men have taken to threatening my masculinity. That makes me mad, because I'm only becoming masculine because of Jesus. I was only effeminate before because of circumstances beyond my control. Of course, you can't look to the world--particularly those who despise and oppress you--for compassion. Look to Jesus, look to Christians, look to The Word of God. I get that.

Ramble, ramble, ramble...please pray :)
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You are a strong person and I admire you for the struggle you are going through.Jesus knows all of your struggles and He is with you and He loves you.Give another person one month to walk in your shoes and I am thinking they would have a very different perspective.You have hope in Jesus Christ.When you get home you will no longer feel the way that you do.You will be perfect and well.The Bible tells us that you will receive a beautiful crown if you remain faithful to Christ during the suffering that you are going though now.My son is disabled and believe me he has to take a day at a time.He is very sick.Sometimes he has to take a minute or an hour at a time.He prays alot.
I have had to deal with alot of mean people.I look at Proverbs 25:21-22.I have had to deal with harrassment on several occasions.I just walk away from it.Yes,it hurts sometimes.But then I pray to God to give me forgivness and I just give it to Him.His shoulders are alot broader than mine."Vengence is mine said the Lord". We let Him handle that person.And believe me He will.
I am not you.I do not suffer the way that you do.I will pray for you just like I pray for my son each and every day.My son asks "Why me?".Well,their is a reason.And it very well could be a Blessing in disguise waiting for you in heaven.Please keep your faith in God during your suffering.God be with you my friend.
 
Hi CE

Is there any chance you could get away for a while? Maybe to some kind of Christian retreat for a couple of weeks? A break from the weirdos around you and some good Christian companionship would do a lot to bring down your stress levels.
 
hey....thanks for all the input. I *wish* I could get away, but I don't know where. I'm reliant on my parents right now for resources. They are fortunately "comfortable" financially, but that still leaves the Question: where to go? Ugh.
 
Christ_empowered said:
hey....thanks for all the input. I *wish* I could get away, but I don't know where. I'm reliant on my parents right now for resources. They are fortunately "comfortable" financially, but that still leaves the Question: where to go? Ugh.
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Try googling "Christian retreat" and your area. There will probably be lots of results, most too expensive, some unsuitable. And maybe one or two that could give you the chance of some healing Christian companionship in nice surroundings. Pray for God to show you the right one!
 
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